Coming Out Of Emotional Funk

When I finished re-writing, editing, formatting, and all the rest of the work with my first book The Temple of Master Hotei: A Unique Past Life Memory last year, I went into a blue funk or a creative form of postpartum depression after giving birth to it. It didn’t last long and I certainly understood why I felt mildly depressed after spending so much time, energy, drive, love and money on one single creative project for so long. Because I’d experienced this in fall of 2008 with my book The Temple Of Master Hotei, I figured I would experience something similar when I finished all aspects of A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution in January 2010. I did—the super-duper blue funk arrived big time as soon as I was done pushing and driving  so hard to get that book finished and on the market by the beginning of 2010 (the start of Phase Two of the Ascension Process). I emotionally crashed n’ burned, which I’m now coming out of and will be back to my normal old determined self very soon.

On September 9, 2009 (the triple 999’s and separation of the two worlds), I was deeply affected by those separation energies on that day. I finished writing Parts 1, 2, and 3 in A Lightworker’s Mission on Sept. 9, 2009. I still had the Epilogue and massive editing and formatting to go through, but on 09-09-09, I was emotionally and energetically ALL DONE writing about my First Wave Lightworker trek through Phase One of the ascension process! I couldn’t believe the timing, and how tight it was right down to the actual day! My problem on Sept. 10th was that I still didn’t want to write or do anything, and I obviously needed to move through that transition and finish the book by the end of 2009.

As is always the case with these ascension related energy and consciousness shifts, in a few days, I settled into the other side of the triple 9’s and got back to finishing A Lightworker’s Mission. My point with all this is that for me, this book and it’s completion perfectly coincided with the ending of Phase One of the ascension process for us First Wavers and other early transmuters with the ending of 2009. I don’t always fully know on a conscious level that I’m working on such a tight timeline, but I typically feel and sense it at other levels, and so, push extra hard when needed to deliver on time.

The 2009 winter solstice  was a doozy—as they have been for the past few years—but this one really rocked a lot of people deep and hard. Time’s short and compressing. Then we had the New Moon/Solar Eclipse on Jan. 14, 2010 (which will hold for the next 6 months), followed by Jupiter entering Pisces on Jan. 17, 2010. Jupiter entering Pisces instantly knocked a lot of us on our emotional asses, and many of us felt the blue funk or slightly depressed and extra weird on that day. And here in SoCal, the Rains (El Niño) started on Jan. 17, 2010 too.  Welcome plentiful, abundant Jupiter to watery, emotional, ultra-sensitive Pisces! And, welcome everyone to the start of Phase Two of the ongoing ascension process within a new and higher level of being and world. There have been some casualties along the way, as would be expected, so keep the old discerning and inner sensing fine-tuned and running full-time.

With A Lightworker’s Mission finished and going on the market along with these monumental shifts and changes, my personal creative blue funk or mild depression felt highlighted by everything else happening energetically at the same time. All that tells me is that everything is perfect and right on-track, despite feeling a bit emotionally blue/depressed. Soon now we’ll all be feeling better and settling into being well within Phase Two — the great Conscious Creating phase of this process.

Denise

January 22, 2010

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Being Released & Letting Go

The past 10 days to 2 weeks have been amazingly intense on many different levels and my personal life, physical body, my location here in burning, purging southern California have been reflections of this latest energy shift. It hasn’t been easy or fun, they rarely are, and this ones been huge. Today is the 3rd and final exact conjunction of Pluto with the Galactic Center (GC). This is like plugging in an electrical cord to the wall socket to access the energy. Today the GC will download through Pluto, Lord of The Underworld sitting at 27 degrees Sagittarius, and that current/Light/transformational Energy will literally plug into humanity and Earth. This influence will continue for a few more months, but today it’s exact and downloading into us.

With the wildfires burning So Cal, the eye of the hurricane became much smaller for me. I live in about the only county in So Cal that didn’t burn! These fires (some are still burning) surrounded us here, and when the winds stopped, the smoke came in and stayed. Today is the first day that I can’t smell or see smoke and can safely go outside and breath without a particle or dust mask.

As a sensitive it’s near impossible for me to NOT feel and be aware of the variety of emotional energies other people give off. The trick is to NOT get pulled out of my little eye of the hurricane energetically or emotionally every time I feel these types of things. Easier said than done sometimes and with most of So Cal on fire, people dying, loosing homes and property and beloved possessions for over a week, this has been difficult for all.

But it’s a lesson for me, and for many of you, as to how to maintain energetically and emotionally every time these dramatic dismantlement’s of the old happen. We’ve got to learn how to NOT get sucked back down into it all just because we’re sensitive/psychic/empathic etc., and, it’s in our physical backyards! We’d be no help to anyone if we energetically ‘fell’ every time reality shakes, quakes, burns, floods, changes and falls — and it’s going to be doing this a lot more than it has already.

Usually when we do stay a bit longer in the lower frequency world, the people there don’t want to hear what we have to say or what we believe. So both they and us feel frustrated and highly uncomfortable with each other. At this point it’s a no-win situation for both groups with us trying to remain where we don’t energetically belong any longer. WE have to Let Go some more, and they have to Release US some more.

Another large aspect of this latest shifting, changing, and adapting has to do with certain well-known public male teachers. Some men who have been for years now, lecturing, writing books, having their books turned into movies, teaching and touring about these planetary and human consciousness changes and numerous other things.

It’s wonderful and very helpful that these males (and the many others I’m not familiar with) are doing what they are; helping to awaken more and more of humanity with what they’ve personally experienced and learned. But, because they are males living in a patriarchal world, this can get tricky for them and their loyal following. I’ve watched from a distance over the past five years how some of these male teachers are themselves now having to make these same shifts and changes we have been. This means that many, many, of their loyal fans are fast coming up against some huge changes that I sense many are going to have a very difficult time with.

On the Ascension Path one inevitably reaches that energetic fork in the Road where intellectual belief systems dead-ends, circles round and round endlessly and is a huge trap. The new fork in the Road is The Path of releasing the fixated death grip on the intellect and stepping into the Journey of the High Heart. The Ascension Process naturally leads to this, but many people find it very difficult to move beyond their over developed left brained intellects — the old god of the lower world. Thankfully humanity has things like Pluto conjuncting the Galactic Center to help with this.

This is where many of these male teachers and their fans are now. It will be even harder for many of their fans because they haven’t discovered as yet that there is anything other than their beloved intellects within polarized old physicality. Most of humanity faces repeated phases of individually living and transmuting instead of just debating, pontificating and mentally masturbating over and over endlessly and stroking their own egos.

We need to get out-of-the-way and let them live this as we have. They need to let us go so we can do what we’re learning and getting familiar with at another level. Everyone is currently standing on the correct stair step of the moving evolutionary escalator at the moment, so I suggest we all focus on our current individual parts, jobs and level.

Denise

October 28, 2007

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