You Can’t Store That Crap In Here!

After doing ten years of intense and constant Inner Work—alchemical ascension and polarity resolution work—I know that lower vibrating anything simply cannot remain within me or me in it. If some lower something does get in via something I saw on TV or experienced out in the world, then that lower vibrating crap will manifest in a matter of hours as a dream so that I deal with it and get it transmuted and out of me.

“Hey, you can’t store that crap in here. Didn’t anybody tell ya that? I’m serious lady, that shit won’t work in here no more. It’s gotta go and go now!”

Clearly. But this is how we learn, and then learn some more. We thankfully read these things from other people whose job it is to inform us about these changes; these ascension, dimensional, consciousness, body and energy changes. It isn’t until we personally experience it—whatever IT is—that we know for ourselves how The Process works, looks, feels, functions and so on. And if you’re anything like me, you too have to go through these new higher stages and test the waters (and new consciousness tools and other very cool higher gadgets) more than once, make that more than three times. I just have to know some things much more deeply and intimately than other things is all. I can hear some of you going, “What in the hell is she talking about?”  Let me explain a bit better.

The other day I was resting after many hours of book editing and was just mushing-out watching TV. When I watch TV I always have a second channel prepared in my TV remote so that, if needed, I can instantly switch channels so lower, ugly, negative or repulsive stuff on TV does NOT get inside my cleaned and cleared head or body. May sound silly but I’m telling you, there is certain lower frequency, consciousness and reality stuff that I simply will not view or listen to on TV any more; I can’t because it is way too negative and does not work residing inside me and my cleared and cleaned Inner Temple.

Example: The other day I was watching something on TV and then realized it changed programs and I was now watching some docudrama thing about Vlad the Impaler. I thought it looked semi-interesting at first so I was switching back and forth between this channel and another one, not seriously into either show. Then all the sudden the Vlad channel goes into great detail, I mean way too much graphic detail about exactly how Vlad did his impaling of people. I’ll spare you the gruesome details. Unfortunately I couldn’t get the channel changed fast enough and some of that super-nasty negativity got in and made me very disturbed for two days. Two goddamn days and one night all because I’ve cleaned and cleared my own inner crap and couldn’t get the TV channel changed fast enough!

So hours later when it’s bedtime and I want and need to go to sleep, guess what’s there in my way? You guessed it, Vlad the Impaler and his monstrous actions. I’m thinking about pink ponies, candy canes, happy puppies, kittens, flowers, book writing, any freaking thing I can to override those TV Vlad images, and it ain’t working, and I’m pissed. But, I learned something very important for me at this time which is — Don’t go there cause your not equipped to cope or house it like you used to. Okey dokey, fine by me, lesson learned.

There is more to that helpful line about how difficult and painful it can be, and usually is, to go back down into the lower frequency world once you have cleaned up and transmuted your own inner stuff/junk/trash/wounds/stuck energies/emotions/polarity/monsters etc. It not only is disturbing and painful but you automatically will do everything to rid yourself of the lower dimensional, lower world nasty you picked up because you glanced back over your shoulder at it again. I’ve had this happen many times over the past few years now and literally, within a few hours after seeing something very low vibrating like this Vlad program, I will dream about it as the way to quickly clear and remove it from my higher vibrating body/mind/heart/self/world and reality. Fuck you Vlad, not in my  world!

“Like I told ya lady, you can’t store that crap in here anymore. It just don’t fit no more now the place is all cleaned up nice.”

Yeah, I totally get that now and thanks for making this crystal clear.

Denise

December 2, 2009

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New Level of Old Ascension Symptoms

The past couple of weeks I’ve noticed a return of some old ascension symptoms but they’re more extreme in many ways. They’re not always as physically painful as in past years thankfully, but this is definitely a higher, more intense version of these old symptoms. Or, this is the way I’m perceiving them today compared to 4, 5, 6-plus years ago because of the Inner Work and transformations I’ve already gone through.

It makes sense that some of these old familiar ascension symptoms return occasionally for the simple reason that we’re still evolving, transmuting, adjusting and readjusting repeatedly internally and externally. This will continue for a good while I suspect, but now, at our less dense, higher state of being which makes these periods feel and seem much worse than earlier months or years. They’re not, it just feels that way from our new clearer higher state and bodies.

I can take a lot of physical pain but I have a much harder time with those periods of ultra-sensitivity to sounds, light, individuals and groups of people making a lot of noise. I have a very difficult time pretending publicly that everything is just fine and dandy when this particular ascension symptom is pummeling me! It feels like I and every single nerve throughout my body won’t survive being around noisy, unthinking, unaware masses of people shopping and talking.

It happened yesterday in a produce store that was crowded with shoppers. The sounds of all the people talking, the damned plastic bags rustling as they put fruits and vegetables in them, the pathetic store music playing way too loud overhead, those totally unaware people who believe they’re the only person in the Universe and therefore pay zero attention to anyone else; all this and my returned ultra-sensitivity nearly drove me to bludgeon poor innocent watermelons and tomatoes. It was horrible, and like I said, I can’t fake my way through this particular ascension symptom. When all the noises and unaware people become way too much for me to cope with, I have to get the hell outta Dodge fast and hideout in the car for a bit. Better that than being arrested for loosing it publicly. Road rage? How about bananas and potatoes rage?

A few years ago I used to have to wear ear plugs when I entered stores because my eyes would tear from the physical pain all the sounds caused me. Sounds made my body hurt, my head and skull literally reverberate and my mind scream. It was, and still is I discovered yesterday, like what I suspect having a nervous breakdown feels like. At really severe periods of this particular ascension symptom, even hearing the noise of my own speech causes tremendous pain in my head.

There’s also been the sudden return of the famous ascension symptom many within the Ascension Community call ‘the 3 AM Club’. It’s where you’ve been sound asleep but suddenly get dropped (shoved) back into your physical body, utterly wide awake and there’s no way you’re going to get back to sleep no matter how hard and long you try. You glance at the clock and yep, it’s 3:00 AMish and you know from experience to not even try to go back to sleep!

There’s also been the body aches, back and spine stiffness, dizziness or slow inner head spinning, hearing strange nonphysical sounds and voices, inner ear clicking, and the random lower negative dream and/or feelings that float through looking for a place or person to land on. Sound familiar?

The end results of all this will be well worth it all of course so get some good ear plugs, know where all the exits are in the stores you’re shopping in, don’t forget where you parked the car among the sea of huge SUV’s out there, and sleep when you can.

Denise

October 4, 2007

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