The Princess & the Pea Sensitivities

princess pea bed                                                               (Artist unknown)

I don’t remember the entire Princess And The Pea story but I do remember her suffering because of some wee little pea under her mattress that felt to her as if it was the size of a huge boulder. From your current perspective, what have you been feeling lately that feels boulder-sized?

I’ve repeatedly gone through this phase of feeling things, energies, emotions, other people’s emotions, weather changes, earth changes, astrological energy changes, solar energy changes, cosmic, galactic energy changes and having them all feel—to me—like the Princess’ boulder-sized pea! I know many of you can relate to this miserable phase of our endless Shifting or transitioning. The freaking little pea/peas feel to us like boulders and they make it nearly impossible to sleep, or much of anything else for a while.

Once I/you/us transmute the majority of our inner stuff (by stuff I mean lower frequency unresolved, polarized, stuck emotional energies, our inner wounds, fears, hates, guilt, low self-esteem, ego aspects that hang us up in different ways and so on), the tiniest little thing, issue, emotion, thought, or word spoken or written by someone can feel to us not like a pea but a hot, monstrous, boulder-sized pain that trips us up and sends us reeling back into some lower unpleasant state for however long it takes me/you/us to energetically crawl our ways back out of it, yet again.

In other words, once you’ve transmuted the majority of your personal lower frequency inner stuff via the Ascension Process, you literally cannot tolerate being back down in a lower frequency or emotional or mental state for long at all. Even if what you’re feeling and reacting to is pea-sized, to you it now feels boulder-sized, and utterly intolerable for more than a few minutes. Once you’ve gone energetically clear as crystal, it’s a real painful mess when something comes sailing past that effects you in a lower way and now you’ve gotten a little pea-sized section of lower frequency dirt and density back in yourself again. It feels like a freaking boulder and hurts now even more than it ever did before, but this is where higher evolved/ascended 5D responsibility, consciousness, and conscious creating REALLY becomes my/your/our new higher reality under our feet. Being more conscious of your consciousness is just a great sentence until you actually have to do it, live it, be it constantly. Aah, more spiritual growing pains. Feel those seriously high-powered Cardinal T-square/opposition energies creating a new higher reality inside of us? Little peas and huge boulders; keeping a higher frequency, and then not keeping a higher frequency; pressure and more pressure to maintain our clear as crystal-like state even while having our backs seemingly broken on that damned little pea under our energetic mattresses; not getting pulled out of the quiet eye of the storm into wounding lower frequency debris flying around at 500 MPH!

We can intellectually understand the whys of different things, but typically we still become emotionally wounded or effected in some way by someone else’s pea-sized tidbit of lower emotional debris that flew close to us and temporarily knocked us out of alignment. No blame at either end as this is how we learn to maintain a higher frequency of energy internally and externally — by “falling” out of it a few times. We’ll do this more than a few times to really learn how to NOT have it repeatedly happen and to eventually NOT have those peas feel like boulders and effect us at all.

Another aspect of this that I’ve had for years now is when some pea-sized something does get in under my emotional skin, later that night I will unintentionally dream about the irritant—whatever or whoever it was—to immediately resolve the energetic discord I’m feeling caused by both my reactionary lower frequency energies and the original irritant energy. Thankfully, only hours later while asleep the lower frequency pea-sized energies are transmuted and fully cleared during dreaming. One way or another, one dimension and body or another, we now very quickly transmute the lower energetic pea/boulder irritant and get ourselves back into higher alignment and crystal clarity once again.

Denise

July 24, 2010

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The Ascension Process & Intolerance

[This is inspired by what Theocacao—and everyone else—said in her comment on “Sun & Earth…Here We Go Again”. Please read all of the comments left there as they are so great, so funny, and deeply insightful.]

HOW TO ASCEND AND NOT KILL ANYONE IN THE PROCESS

As if the entire ascension process isn’t bad enough, difficult and painful enough, while struggling through it all we’ve got to figure out how to not go to prison for killing or maiming some dumb shit, totally unaware member of vastly lower vibrating society whose happily going through their life on auto-pilot endlessly regurgitating asinine pre-recorded messages! My fucking gawd, how can I cope with what I’m living through with my Ascension Process, plus endure the massive numbers of A & I’s (assholes & idiots), and not bash the shit out of any of them?

That’s the feel looking back down the ascension tunnel — the feel looking up it goes more like this:

OMG, my Guides, my Starbeings and ET friends and kinsfolk and all the nonphysical Others who have helped me, guided me, answered so many of my questions, assisted me year-after-year down here on 3D Earth…how did they tolerate my dumb ass amnesia all of this time? How did they maintain such patience and tolerance with me for so long?

Answer—they didn’t always! I know, I’ve heard and seen some of Them roll their eyes in utter disbelief over how much I’ve forgotten because I reincarnated in 3D physicality! I’ve seen them give me clairvoyant messages in cartoon form in the hopes that I would finally understand what information they were trying to pass on to me. “Do you think she got it yet?” they would question each other. Yeah, embarrassing but true. They do love us, they do respect us more than you could imagine, but, know too that many of Them do indeed get frustrated with many of us and our 3D amnesia down here! Read A Lightworker’s Mission to hear about some of this business I’ve had with some of Them. They have struggled being inter-dimensional Guides/Teachers to us.

Like I told Theocacao in those comments, we are often so deeply immersed in our own ascension process and all the pains and metamorphosis it causes, that we often don’t honestly realize how much of our Lead we already have transmuted into Gold. To help us with this perspective we are usually thrown into a meeting with old friends, old co-workers, old romantic partners, family members or others we knew well prior to our ascension, who are not living the ascension process themselves. Nothing brings the point home like trying to carry on a semi-decent conversation with an old friend who is not ascending! It is beyond uncomfortable, it is excruciating, it is frustrating, it is one big fat fucking lie and it is repulsive and makes you want to run for the hills — the asshole-free hills — which are very hard to find among 7 billion-plus on tiny Earth.

THIS IS A TEST. FOR THE NEXT SIXTY SECONDS…

Suffering fools and turning the other cheek and all that crap was dis-empowerment and distortion BS from the Age of Pisces. We are not supposed to continue being co-dependent enablers to the A & I’s of the lower world. I know how harsh and ‘unchristian-like’ that sounds to many but the Fish are dead — long live the Waves! And tell me, who else is there now that’s capable of energetically creating a new higher world reality but those of us who have and still are ascending? Um-hum. The so-called ‘Second Coming’ is us kids so don’t even think about apologizing for living and surviving it!

The point is that profound intolerance and even rage are very normal symptoms and stages within the Ascension Process that we must experience to teach us how to not take the lower vibrating BS any longer. We need to be so done, so repulsed, so offended by the lower consciousness of old lower 3D world that we finally realize we are the ones capable of creating anything higher, better, honest and based on higher consciousness/High Heart. Without the obscene pressure that the lower vibrating people, energies and consciousness cause us we’d have a much harder time moving ourselves forward. Give thanks to the A & I’s of the lower world for assisting us so effectively.  😉  Think of the A & I’s of the world as fuel, as the thrust-block and spiritual inspiration to create so very much higher over all of them. Use the intolerance and rage they cause you to feel to keep your High Heart on the really important thing now, which is creating the new higher world we’re capable of finally.

Denise

February 17, 2010

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You Can’t Store That Crap In Here!

After doing ten years of intense and constant Inner Work—alchemical ascension and polarity resolution work—I know that lower vibrating anything simply cannot remain within me or me in it. If some lower something does get in via something I saw on TV or experienced out in the world, then that lower vibrating crap will manifest in a matter of hours as a dream so that I deal with it and get it transmuted and out of me.

“Hey, you can’t store that crap in here. Didn’t anybody tell ya that? I’m serious lady, that shit won’t work in here no more. It’s gotta go and go now!”

Clearly. But this is how we learn, and then learn some more. We thankfully read these things from other people whose job it is to inform us about these changes; these ascension, dimensional, consciousness, body and energy changes. It isn’t until we personally experience it—whatever IT is—that we know for ourselves how The Process works, looks, feels, functions and so on. And if you’re anything like me, you too have to go through these new higher stages and test the waters (and new consciousness tools and other very cool higher gadgets) more than once, make that more than three times. I just have to know some things much more deeply and intimately than other things is all. I can hear some of you going, “What in the hell is she talking about?”  Let me explain a bit better.

The other day I was resting after many hours of book editing and was just mushing-out watching TV. When I watch TV I always have a second channel prepared in my TV remote so that, if needed, I can instantly switch channels so lower, ugly, negative or repulsive stuff on TV does NOT get inside my cleaned and cleared head or body. May sound silly but I’m telling you, there is certain lower frequency, consciousness and reality stuff that I simply will not view or listen to on TV any more; I can’t because it is way too negative and does not work residing inside me and my cleared and cleaned Inner Temple.

Example: The other day I was watching something on TV and then realized it changed programs and I was now watching some docudrama thing about Vlad the Impaler. I thought it looked semi-interesting at first so I was switching back and forth between this channel and another one, not seriously into either show. Then all the sudden the Vlad channel goes into great detail, I mean way too much graphic detail about exactly how Vlad did his impaling of people. I’ll spare you the gruesome details. Unfortunately I couldn’t get the channel changed fast enough and some of that super-nasty negativity got in and made me very disturbed for two days. Two goddamn days and one night all because I’ve cleaned and cleared my own inner crap and couldn’t get the TV channel changed fast enough!

So hours later when it’s bedtime and I want and need to go to sleep, guess what’s there in my way? You guessed it, Vlad the Impaler and his monstrous actions. I’m thinking about pink ponies, candy canes, happy puppies, kittens, flowers, book writing, any freaking thing I can to override those TV Vlad images, and it ain’t working, and I’m pissed. But, I learned something very important for me at this time which is — Don’t go there cause your not equipped to cope or house it like you used to. Okey dokey, fine by me, lesson learned.

There is more to that helpful line about how difficult and painful it can be, and usually is, to go back down into the lower frequency world once you have cleaned up and transmuted your own inner stuff/junk/trash/wounds/stuck energies/emotions/polarity/monsters etc. It not only is disturbing and painful but you automatically will do everything to rid yourself of the lower dimensional, lower world nasty you picked up because you glanced back over your shoulder at it again. I’ve had this happen many times over the past few years now and literally, within a few hours after seeing something very low vibrating like this Vlad program, I will dream about it as the way to quickly clear and remove it from my higher vibrating body/mind/heart/self/world and reality. Fuck you Vlad, not in my  world!

“Like I told ya lady, you can’t store that crap in here anymore. It just don’t fit no more now the place is all cleaned up nice.”

Yeah, I totally get that now and thanks for making this crystal clear.

Denise

December 2, 2009

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New Level of Old Ascension Symptoms

The past couple of weeks I’ve noticed a return of some old ascension symptoms but they’re more extreme in many ways. They’re not always as physically painful as in past years thankfully, but this is definitely a higher, more intense version of these old symptoms. Or, this is the way I’m perceiving them today compared to 4, 5, 6-plus years ago because of the Inner Work and transformations I’ve already gone through.

It makes sense that some of these old familiar ascension symptoms return occasionally for the simple reason that we’re still evolving, transmuting, adjusting and readjusting repeatedly internally and externally. This will continue for a good while I suspect, but now, at our less dense, higher state of being which makes these periods feel and seem much worse than earlier months or years. They’re not, it just feels that way from our new clearer higher state and bodies.

I can take a lot of physical pain but I have a much harder time with those periods of ultra-sensitivity to sounds, light, individuals and groups of people making a lot of noise. I have a very difficult time pretending publicly that everything is just fine and dandy when this particular ascension symptom is pummeling me! It feels like I and every single nerve throughout my body won’t survive being around noisy, unthinking, unaware masses of people shopping and talking.

It happened yesterday in a produce store that was crowded with shoppers. The sounds of all the people talking, the damned plastic bags rustling as they put fruits and vegetables in them, the pathetic store music playing way too loud overhead, those totally unaware people who believe they’re the only person in the Universe and therefore pay zero attention to anyone else; all this and my returned ultra-sensitivity nearly drove me to bludgeon poor innocent watermelons and tomatoes. It was horrible, and like I said, I can’t fake my way through this particular ascension symptom. When all the noises and unaware people become way too much for me to cope with, I have to get the hell outta Dodge fast and hideout in the car for a bit. Better that than being arrested for loosing it publicly. Road rage? How about bananas and potatoes rage?

A few years ago I used to have to wear ear plugs when I entered stores because my eyes would tear from the physical pain all the sounds caused me. Sounds made my body hurt, my head and skull literally reverberate and my mind scream. It was, and still is I discovered yesterday, like what I suspect having a nervous breakdown feels like. At really severe periods of this particular ascension symptom, even hearing the noise of my own speech causes tremendous pain in my head.

There’s also been the sudden return of the famous ascension symptom many within the Ascension Community call ‘the 3 AM Club’. It’s where you’ve been sound asleep but suddenly get dropped (shoved) back into your physical body, utterly wide awake and there’s no way you’re going to get back to sleep no matter how hard and long you try. You glance at the clock and yep, it’s 3:00 AMish and you know from experience to not even try to go back to sleep!

There’s also been the body aches, back and spine stiffness, dizziness or slow inner head spinning, hearing strange nonphysical sounds and voices, inner ear clicking, and the random lower negative dream and/or feelings that float through looking for a place or person to land on. Sound familiar?

The end results of all this will be well worth it all of course so get some good ear plugs, know where all the exits are in the stores you’re shopping in, don’t forget where you parked the car among the sea of huge SUV’s out there, and sleep when you can.

Denise

October 4, 2007

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