Why I’ve Been MIA Lately

750x857 triangles on black Never since the creation of TRANSITIONS in 2007 have I gone so long without writing anything! I’ve tried a few times to write something in February, but with the current Ascension symptoms I’m going through now, it’s nearly impossible to do anything — especially if physically moving and turning one’s head and/or eyes the slightest bit is required! I’ve tried to push my way through this and just do the work and other things I need to do but there’s a price to pay when I do this and it sends me back to bed to recover from that stupid move, on top of the symptoms I was having. Lesson learned, but I’m not always so great at resting and doing nothing physically when I’d rather be doing something else. I like to rest when I like to rest, not when I’m forced to. Hum, another personal lesson.

The point of this short note is just to let everyone know I’m still here and okay despite this round of intense Ascension “Recalibration” (see Lisa Renee’s February 2013 article about this) symptoms I’ve been going through so far in 2013. I can and have worked and written articles and books while dealing with different Ascension symptoms and other related issues etc., but, when the spinning head business happens I absolutely cannot push my way through that symptom at all! The room/house/reality starts turning counterclockwise and the more I push my body to do physical things, chores, write etc., the faster the spinning. And of course this makes me nauseous which means I’m not doing anything at that point but crawling into bed and hopefully falling asleep (exiting my physical body) for as long as possible. Doing this always seems to help with the spinning head business and related nausea… for a while.

So this is what’s going on for me now along with other Ascension symptoms too. Here’s a short rundown of them because I know some of you reading this are going through this now too:

  • Ascension flu-like body aches and pains, chills
  • Inner cold flashes that radiates out just like “hot flashes” do
  • Parts of body internally and externally feel bruised and sore like I fell or was hit etc.
  • Parts of head and skull internally and externally feel bruised and sore like I was hit or hit my head on something etc.
  • Sudden nausea immediately followed by my heart/heart area hurting and feeling like a “muscle spasm” for a few seconds then it’s all gone
  • Head, skull, eyes, spine pains and pressures
  • Blurry vision again, dry sore eyes
  • My hair looks and feels like corpse hair again
  • Inner body thermostat in flux again. Inner cold flashes followed by inner hot flashes which build up skin sensitivities
  • Since 1-1-13 constant ringing in my ears — “ascension tinnitus”
  • Bouts of diarrhea (again) due to purging lower frequencies/density etc.
  • Sense of smell terribly amplified, smelling cooked food smells for DAYS to the point that it starts to make me nauseous… and pissed!
  • “Time” is present and then not, then back again, then not again. Increased difficulty with linear awareness, passage of linear “time”, day, date etc.
  • Actual dreaming (not daydreaming) while fully awake and doing other physical things
  • Increase of anomalies again. Walking into a room in my house and seeing something very different there instead of what’s normally there.
  • Increased awareness of positive higher-dimensional Beings nearby observing me/us, and them waiting for the next phase to begin with us

As usual I’ve most likely forgotten a bunch of other symptoms but we’ll chalk that up to brain fog and the spinning head business! And of course February has been and will continue to be an abnormally busy month for me with lots of extra things that must be done this month. This morning I thought I could run up to the store to pick up a prescription for my Mom because I was feeling better. So off I dashed, only to discover that I wasn’t really “better” at all and needed to walk, turn, move very carefully or I kept tipping slightly and bumping into things in the store. And the head pain and pressure arrived in the store with a blast because I was outside my house and it’s always harder to function out there than it is in my higher vibrating house. So I got the prescription, but learned that I’m still in this latest phase and must take it ease for a while longer like it or not.

I’ll write more when I’m able to not tip over or barf while typing! Are we having fun yet fellow ascenders? Group Hug.

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Denise

February 18, 2013

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On the Other Side of the 12-21-2012 Three Days Life Review & Expiration Date

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2012 RECAP

You may remember that in January of 2012, I began doing Lisa Renee’s 12 D Shield Technique, and it was while doing that visualization that I first clairvoyantly saw the incredible density and total lock-down and control that Team Dark had over all of the second dimension (2D – Elements and Elementals). It was shocking to see this and realize how utterly and completely the Negatives had taken over 2D and so many beings that exist and/or were held prisoner there by them. All I clairvoyantly saw from January 2012 (I’m not saying this started in January 2012, but that that’s when I first saw to what extent 2D was controlled by the Negatives and how the Light was not allowed to penetrate into that dimension at that time), was total darkness, blackness and heavy density that resembled thick black tar everywhere. It was heart breakingly gross and suffocating in its heaviness and density.

However, since January 2012, I’ve watched week by week and month by month the immobile dense, black negativity within the second dimension be broken up, transmuted and cleared by the Cosmic Cavalry, the Light, and many of us Forerunners and Starseeds. From January through August 2012, I watched increasing chunks of that super heavy density, darkness, negativity in 2D and eventually the beings there — human, elemental, demonic, lesser negative entities, negative Aliens — be totally removed and relocated elsewhere. Every few days during those eight months I’d see that more of that density and darkness that Team Dark had built in 2D was being broken apart and removed, transmuted, freed and released etc. and it was an amazing process for me to witness in this expanded way throughout 2012. Needless to say Team Dark went into intense attack mode to try and prevent or override all this but it’s been useless in not only 2D but 3D and 4D and all other locations where they have distorted and parasite-ized off of Source’s many creations and externalized aspects — aka humans, animals, elemental beings etc. (Remember that nothing happens in one dimension that’s not intimately connected to and through all other dimensions and beings that exist within them and so on. So even though I’m talking about what I watched unfold and be transmuted in 2D, know that it was also happening in all other dimensions too. )

By July 2012, an all-out frantic and mean battle was going on down there by Team Dark because The Light/Team Light was evicting Team Dark and removing all of their distortions and stolen property etc. By September 2012 Fall Equinox all of the density, distortions, darkness, negativity and prisoners were gone and nothing but brilliant Light was clairvoyantly visible to me throughout all of 2D. From September 2012 forward all I’ve clairvoyantly seen when I view the multidimensional layers below my physical feet — 2D and 1D — is brilliant white Light everywhere. (This is why I wrote the article “Grounding into Light” recently in hopes of helping people realize that those old methods of grounding into dense 3D Earth no longer works because it’s all Light there now!) Amazing, absolutely amazing to watch this Process unfold in about nine months. Yes, these nine month gestation/transformation periods have been and still are very important clues about the timings of certain unfolding energetic events and changes. (Note: from December 21, 2012 Winter Solstice, the first day of the “three days” through to the Fall Equinox of September 22, 2013, is another nine months. More about that in a moment.)

This brings us up to today, December 26, 2012, the other side of the big transitional “three days” or Expiration Date as I’ve called it, or Shift Point of 12-21-12, 12-22-12 and 12-23-12. Today when I clairvoyantly viewed the energetic situation around me, below me, above me etc., there is now nothing but brilliant Light everywhere and I mean everywhere. This brilliant Light is no longer just below my feet in 2D, and also emanating from the 1D Earth’s core now, but now that we’ve traveled through the “three days” all I can see below, around and above me is brilliant Light everywhere. Because of this I can easily and safely say that I have, that you have, that we have indeed transitioned, Shifted, exited/entered into a higher frequency space and location. Is this the Ascension end-all? No, but it’s one heck of a huge evolutionary shift in itself. Stair-steps remember?

12-12-12 — December 12, 2012  

Before I forget again, I want to mention that I basically slept my way through the incredibly important 12-12-2012 portal. I was all ready for it, then whammo, I’m suddenly passed out for nearly five hours that day! NEVER in my adult life have I slept during the day for as long as I did on December 12, 2012 — 12-12-12! A lot happened that day during that time, so much so that many of us HAD to exit our physical bodies for hours and hours to more comfortably and quickly embody those energies and changes that took place on that specific day.

Even while asleep that day I was aware of and could feel tremendous energies coming in and through my body causing it to vibrate, shake, rumble and roar more strongly than it ever had prior, which is saying something! I slept through the majority of the December 12, 2012 12-12-12 portal which I suspect many other people did too. It was perfectly correct to live the 12-12-2012 event while asleep and out-of-body which is often when Volunteers, Starseeds, Lightworkers, Forerunners do their very best Work. So cut yourself some slack if you too unexpectedly and abruptly fell asleep during the 2012 triple 12’s and feel you “didn’t DO enough”. Know that you did and you did it just fine and didn’t miss out on anything. Our beliefs about plenty of things must and are expanding now so be open to even more changes within yourself, your spiritual ascension, time and Shift beliefs plus a whole lot more having to letting go of.

THE THREE DAYS — December 21, 22, 23, 2012

I cannot tell you or define for you (nor would I) exactly what happened during the “Three Days” — 12-21-12, 12-22-12, 12-23-12 of 2012. I can only share with you what I personally experienced, perceived, felt and am still discovering about this profound event, transition, expiration, shift, completion, ending and beginning, living ascension death Life Review. Your mileage will vary because we’re each unique individuals; unique aspects of Source/God/All That Is and every individual’s experience and perception is important and valid in its unique way. If Source/God/All That Is wanted us all to have the same identical experience and perception, then there would only be One of us, whereas there are countless aspects of us so that Source/God/All That Is gains as many unique experiences and perspectives as possible and more.

I know that it’s hard sometimes to get one’s awareness out of the old familiar pre-ascension 3D linear time perspective, but the “Three Days” Expiration Date and Shift Point did exactly that even if we’re not all experiencing non-linear or quantum time/awareness and Spherical Consciousness yet, or at the same exact degree or in the same identical way(s). Again, more changes and expansions to all of our old spiritual and ascension beliefs. We’re new beings in a new land in a new timeline and space and it’s no doubt going to take us all some “time” to adapt, further expand our perceptions, plus get the hang of these new higher “rules” for this new higher stage of learning, creating and being.

The December 2012 Three Days Life Review For Me Was…

For me personally the first day of the “Three Days” was full of energetic (psychic) and mental and emotional interference from mass humanity. I semi-expected that as a sensitive I would feel, sense and/or be somewhat affected by mass humanities expectations, fears, confusions, religious delusions, general disbelief, rejections and lack of awareness about December 21, 2012. I basically felt huge psychic noise from humanity concerning December 21, 2012 for many hours that first day of the Three Days Life Review. At one point during the day I even started becoming depressed, frustrated, angry at the political mentally and emotionally ill people running this country. That was me picking up the Expiration Date of the global patriarchy and its structures and systems, plus plenty of people also being all done with the insanity of the rulers and their negative ways.

Thankfully I suddenly fell asleep around 11:30 AM until 3:00 PM which helped me move beyond that layer of collective emotional and mental interference noise. The rest of December 21, 2012 was for the most part for me, a crap day sort of like experiencing an unsophisticated, semi-sloppy physical death. After clairvoyantly seeing for the past two years the image of this crossover Shift Point, I guess I expected more impact from entering it. My first mistake, if one can call it that for an event such as this, was my preconceived expectations. I think all of us got hit in varying degrees with that one and that’s also perfectly fine. Adjustments were automatically made, repeatedly throughout these transitional Three Days just like we knew what we were doing. Amazing.

12-22-12 FOR ME WAS…

December 22, 2012 from midnight through the early AM hours until I woke up consisted of many dreams that were other aspects of my Three Days personal Life Review. During those early 12-22-12 AM hours I met with many old physical human friends, teachers and loved ones that I haven’t even thought of in decades, a couple of them I’d actually forgotten about. It was wonderful and emotionally felt so good, so positive seeing those particular people again and having the opportunity to hug each of them while we revealed to each other how dear and important the other person had been in our lives. These many different December 22, 2012 lucid dream meetings with old friends were another very important aspect of my personal Life Review.

Let me backtrack a moment to add that from 12-12-12 through 12-23-12 was for me one constant Life Review both while awake and asleep. While awake I repeatedly found myself in a deep inner state of Gratitude and Thanks with each animal and animal pet I’ve ever had and loved throughout this lifetime. In many ways my love affairs and relationships have been stronger and deeper with animals than humans, which many Starseeds and other higher dimensionals totally understand and relate to. Point is that from 12-12-12 through 12-23-12, I naturally found myself going through this inventory process of mentally and emotionally saying my Gratitude Thanks to every animal and animal pet I’ve ever had a relationship with which was highly emotionally satisfying and appropriate.

The daytime hours of 12-22-12 into that evening were, for me, feeling better and free from the previous days interference’s, mild depression and frustrations I’d felt coming from the human planetary collective primarily. December 22, 2012 was easier for me and very much felt like I was deep in transition and it was an extremely positive and comfortable feeling.

12-23-12 FOR ME WAS…

December 23, 2012, day three of the “Three Days”, and my 61st birthday, started out with my having a weird long dream in the early AM hours. It consisted of many frightened strangers frantically running about trying to get away from, escape from some perceived approaching disasters or attacks and other unpleasant types of physical experiences. The message of this dream for me personally was that these panicked strangers were actually not in any way threatened by any real danger but were REACTING to what they believed and feared might harm them but never actually did.

The truth of the matter was that they repeatedly injured themselves physically while frantically running away from those things and events that they believed and/or expected were coming and would very much injury or kill them. Nothing came, they only succeeded in injuring their bodies because of their emotional fears, panic and lack of awareness.

December 23, 2012 daytime hours and for every up there’s a down at least until one is totally beyond duality! Please, no one feel bad or sad for me because my birthday — December 23rd and the final day of the Three Days Life Review — was utter shit and emotional pain and ridiculousness for me. I don’t feel bad, sad or guilty so please don’t anyone feel that way either. I know very well that for every decent into the Shit Pit as I’ve call it, I always come back up with new treasures in hand, heart and awareness.

Because I’ve done this Plutonian Shit Pit Decent Diving hundreds of times in this life, I’m pretty good at it actually but I must admit that experiencing it on this particular day was profoundly amplified compared to anything I’ve ever experienced before while down in the Muck Pit of Ridiculousness and Darkness or whatever one wants to call it. I wouldn’t have expected anything less to be honest. Not even a tiny speck of residual inner emotional imbalanced crap can get past this Grand Initiation Threshold Alignment nor should it. I do intend however to no longer do this old Shit Pit Decent Diving method any longer to solve whatever remaining emotional reactionary stuff I have that needs transmuting and neutralizing. Enough already — it’s now time to learn and master the higher frequency ‘Neutral Observer’  method instead.

I won’t go into all the stupid family details, and trust me, they were pretty stupid but who should judge our personal and potential greatest freedom triggers! I certainly won’t because I know better. So I had some personal old triggers get activated on my 61st birthday which just so happened to also be the final day of the Three Days Life Review. Actually they were a blessing because my emotional reaction (therein lies the big clue) was so profoundly amplified that the whole business (myself and my reactions to these particular triggers) repulsed me right into greater self-awareness and greater higher awareness in general. Such are the higher intent and point of “triggers” if  we’re wise enough to use them to further grow.

Did I unnecessarily wound myself like those strangers did in my dream hours earlier? You bet ya I did emotionally, but I also lived through this highly amplified intensity at the speed of Light and was able to feel, deal, heal, understand, neutralize and release the stuff I needed to. However, here’s to not injuring oneself physically, emotionally, mentally or in any way ever again for any reason. Seriously, this is boring at this point not to mention embarrassing, so I hope I’ve finally learned how to remain neutral from here on out no matter who or what suddenly jumps out at me with whatever ridiculousness in hand or mouth! My deepest thanks to all the players in this very important personal education, test and potential ultimate freedom 12-23-12 birthday trigger. ❤

It may at first sound like my personal Three Days Life Review were a total bust, a total screw-up or a pathetic missed opportunity, but to me they were actually great Initiatic lessons and Life Reviews that further assisted me in getting and remaining free from those things that we’re all working towards freeing ourselves from. We rarely look as fabulous as we might like to while in the midst of more inner transmuting and learning. Whatever, just do it and keep moving forward. blowcandle

CLOCKS & TIME ANOMALIES, SUDDEN DIET CHANGES, INNER FREEZING COLD, ANOMALIES WITH PHYSICAL SENSES & OTHER SIGNS WE’VE SHIFTED

From December 12, 2012 — 12-12-12  — to this minute I’ve experienced bouts of extreme inner COLD in my body much like a “Cold Flash”. It’s internal COLD, not external weather-related. This particular ascension symptom is one huge change for me because since February 1, 1999 when my physical, biological Dark Night of the Body Ascension Process started, I’ve had constant horrible inner body HEAT. I had “Hot Flashes” constantly for ten years since 1999. By year eleven the Hot Flashes had reduced to only occasionally which was a huge blessing after burning for an entire decade! On top of all that inner body heat and Hot Flashes, I also had many years of my feet and the bottoms of my feet especially (also my hands) being so hot that I couldn’t wear shoes for ten years. I had to wear flip-flops otherwise my feet would get so hot that it was unbearable. When higher frequency Light Energies come in contact with lower frequency dense duality stuff it causes tremendous friction and HEAT and Hot Flashes etc. to Alchemically transmute and literally burn away that density in and around us, hence why many of us have been on Kundalini fire for over a decade.

But since around 12-12-12 I’ve been experiencing more and longer bouts of freezing inner COLD which radiates outward just like “Hot Flashes” do. These bouts of inner cold are wonderful in comparison to the inner HEAT caused by transmuting 3D duality density. To me it’s a nice change because I’d rather feel internal cold than heat any day. The reason I mention this now is because I know many of you reading this have been and/or will soon be experiencing these same energetic Shift symptoms of freezing inner cold too. This inner cold many of us are now feeling has to do with us no longer needing to transmute lower frequency residual density via inner Alchemical Fire, but us Shifting, Evolving, Ascending into higher frequency space that registers in our bodies like extreme inner cold, sort of like empty deep space every time we enter another level of it.

Interestingly, the day after the Three Days — December 24, 2012 — one of our two battery operated atomic wall clocks got weird and jumped two days into the future. On the morning of 12-24-12 it read 12-26-12 which made my Mom’s brain fracture for a few minutes as she tried to figure out if she’d lost two days…or more…or what exactly was going on.

After checking the batteries and playing with the clock to try to get it back to the correct date, she finally had to reset it manually because nothing else was working. When this first happened we checked all the other clocks, the clocks on the computer, the clocks on the satellite TV etc., because we really weren’t sure what was going on with “time” at that time. I said to my Mom, “We’ll have to see if anything happens or is significant on 12-26-12 just for the heck of it.” 

The morning of 12-26-12 I glanced at the other battery operated atomic wall clock we have in the kitchen and it read 12-28-12 and my brain fractured for a few minutes as I fumbled with time and reality and trying to locate myself within it! Therein lies the key to this anomaly but time will tell more I suspect.

This second atomic clock also has new batteries in it, which I tested to make sure they were strong enough as I did with Mom’s atomic clock in her bedroom on 12-24-12. The batteries in both atomic clocks are new, strong, fine and working properly. The clocks however are jumping two days into the future — from our point of perception that is. Once again I’ll check to see if anything different happens on 12-28-12. (Okay, today is 12-28-12 and both atomic clocks are reading normally now with no more jumping two days into the future. I suspect these clock/time anomalies had something to do with the Three Days and Galactic Center conjunction alignments and downloads.)

My eating habits have suddenly changed due to the Three Days, Expiration Date Shift Point. Some of us are experiencing food changes now, while others will experience them in their uniquely individual ways over the weeks, months and years to come. Just be prepared to have the foods and liquids you’ve needed to ingest during the HOT, heavy, difficult transmuting stages of the Ascension Process to dramatically change now that we’ve reached this NEW higher stage that’s feeling like inner COLD inside at times. Many of us Forerunners are no longer having to or needed to transmute massive amounts of density duality as we have for many years and because of this our eating habits have change rather dramatically  and very suddenly (hallelujah!). Those of you still transmuting your density duality stuff will most likely still need to eat more protein foods more often which is normal for that phase of this Process, while others are in an in between phase with this. Stair Steps.

“I DIDN’T ASCEND BECAUSE I’M STILL IN PHYSICAL REALITY!”

I’ve heard many people say this post December 21, 2012. My question to everyone who believes this is, “Really? How do you know that you’re still in 3D?”

I and many of you have been existing within pockets of 5D frequency for many years already and when we’ve needed to we went out into transitioning physical 3D reality to shop, put gas in the car, buy groceries, go to the doctor or whatever. But when we returned back to our higher vibrating, higher frequency houses/homes/properties we reentered our personal little “sequestered” 5D energy spaces and continued working and waiting for the others. In this way you haven’t been in 3D for years so why do you believe, on the other side of the Three Days, that you’re still “in 3D”?  

Just because the sky is still blue and traffic is still noisily zooming around and you still have to eat, sleep, shower and do all those other lovely bodily things we all still have to, and that the evils of the old world are still visible to us does NOT mean that you, me, many of us are not existing and functioning from within a fifth dimensional level of frequency now. We are, and more and more of us will realize this as the months of 2013 roll on.

This brings us back to those old beliefs and expectations again. We’re in a very new learning curve now and continuing to make more adjustments, adaptations, realizations and greater understandings as we gradually come out of the Other Side of the Three Days and Expiration Date. There will undoubtedly be many more articles to come about these new changes, new rules, new abilities, new methods, new beliefs and belief systems etc. This is long already so I’ll end it here and wish you all a very Happy New Year and NEW 2013 Life and Reality.

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Denise

December 29, 2012

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