Why Some Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos Experience Negative Attacks & Others Don’t

“Dear Denise,

I’m writing because I am concerned that there may be some of us, and I am one, who believes that I am protected from the Dark, and have always been protected, because otherwise my job here would not make much sense, and so other than breathing in light and breathing out love on a daily basis, I have never felt the urge to do any special ritual or activity with specific reference to keeping Team Dark away from me and those I love, especially my pets.

My life prior to awakening was full of pain, especially physical, and I always handled it without becoming a victim of blaming any other for the condition in which I found myself. Emotionally, I have been dragged through the mud a few times, but again I learned the lessons and was able to extricate myself when I needed to. I’m not saying I was anything special in my younger years, that’s for sure, but somehow I knew that I created my reality and if I succumbed to pressures outside of myself, I would pay a very big price indeed.

Can you tell me, please, and I know you will tell me honestly, am I fooling myself? 

I am comfortable with my awareness and since my awakening, I have had no experiences with Team Dark, and as I read about those who have, I wonder if my turn is yet to come. I don’t sense that, but it would help me tremendously, and hopefully others, who wonder if we’ve being naive. I do not want to infer that protection isn’t necessary, but is it possible that there are some of us who incarnated into this nano-second protected? Thank you. Love to All Here.

Barbara” 

Barbara wrote this Comment under another article recently (which I’ve edited here slightly) and because it’s an important question I wanted to respond to it in its own article.

In all honesty I think the majority of Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos have not wanted to fully consciously know and admit (while in their physical bodies and lives on Earth) just how extensive the negativity, atrocities and deceptions on Earth have been and how profoundly handicapped humanity has become due to Team Dark’s multidimensional actions against them. Knowing this at higher, nonphysical levels is very different from being in physicality feeling and living under the negative distortions and interference directly and personally. Also, many Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers haven’t even been consciously aware of when they have been under the influences and attacks of negative nonphysical beings, dark controlled puppet humans (Portal People), and negative forces and energies in general and have incorrectly believed themselves to be beyond them and untouchable. Nothing could be further from the truth, especially for those who are Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers.

Despite my being consciously aware from childhood that I intentionally came to 3D Earth from some place less dense, I’ve resented having to energetically protect myself from Team Dark during this life here. That may sound strange coming from an ultra-sensitive elder Starseed who volunteered to live inside the enemy’s camp to stop them but it’s true. I have resented needing to continually protect myself from Team Dark in this life because it was a daily and nightly reminder of how dark and horrible life on Earth has been and my role in correcting this situation.

Not all Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers are here to embody the NEW higher frequency blueprints for humanity in the same ways or to the same degree. I know many of my fellow Forerunners/Starseed/Lightworker/Indigo co-workers don’t have a Soul Mission to experience and embody severe polarized Light/Dark extremes in physicality as I and certain others have during this Ascension lifetime. This does NOT mean anyone is more privileged or special than another, it simply means that not all Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkes are carrying out identical Mission Work here now. We’re all here to aid humanity, Earth, Home and everything and everyone in between and beyond, but we each have our different talents and Soul Missions within the overall Ascension Process. Not everyone is or needs to be an Ascension Process electrician or Ascension Process framer, plumber, heating and air, carpenters, painters etc., all are equally needed for their important individual abilities.

For a couple decades I wondered why I had so many negative encounters and attacks from Team Dark—the negative nonphysical, nonhuman Aliens plus other negative lower frequency and lower consciousness entities and humans also. During my twenties (1970s) and thirties (1980s) I oftentimes thought that I must be doing something “wrong” to cause or attract such negative nonphysical attention and attacks repeatedly. I believe many of us have incorrectly thought this about ourselves over the years or decades. Back then I considered everything I was aware of at that time and always felt like some major piece of this puzzle was missing. I’ve finally realized that some, not all but some Starseeds have the soul mission of experiencing repeated negative attacks, encounters, face-to-face conversations etc. in multiple dimensions (physical, astral, mental planes) from Team Dark. Why? To experience severe polarity extremes in 3D physicality and our physical bodies so we can embody higher frequency energetic solutions.

This is another amazing Alchemical Ascension formula where Team Dark’s negativity and attacks are energetically utilized by some Starseeds to activate polarity resolution and integration within their bodies. Doing this automatically activates the next phase which is embodiment of higher frequency Unity blueprints for evolving humanity. The Ascension Process had to be embodied in this physical dimension by Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos first as the way to physically, biologically and energetically anchor the higher frequency Unity blueprints or templates into this dimension and timeline for humanity for the next Evolutionary Cycle.

Realize that some Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos have intimate and repeated battles with Team Dark and many do not and both situations are normal. Starseeds who experience close hand-to-hand combat with Team Dark do so NOT because they did anything “wrong”; NOT because they weren’t feeling enough “love”; NOT because some were “better” than others; NOT because they’ve been in their subconscious basements and are projecting it on others, or any other such incorrect type of thinking and awareness. And the Starseeds who don’t experience repeated attacks from Team Dark haven’t done anything “wrong” either!

These negative attacks happen to some Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos because it’s part of the Ascension Process of Alchemically transmuting, transforming duality and what we’ve come to call “negativity” into a higher frequency. It’s Alchemically transformed back to a neutral state and then becomes “unified” and exists in a higher frequency range and state. Do not feel guilty if you have or if you have not experienced attacks and battles with Team Dark, or that you have to or don’t have to protect yourself against them. We all do what we’re here now to do; it’s just that some of us have to wear more work related protective gear than others is all. But, no matter what, always be careful please and protect yourself if and whenever you feel you need to.

Gratitude to all for your individual services in the Ascension Process.

Denise

May 31, 2012

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Multidimensional Crimes Against Humanity

Because some readers had Commented about the complex, confusing and sometimes downright difficult multidimensional subject matter in Lisa Renee’s May 2012 article “Pushing for Timelines”, I thought I’d try to explain some of it based on my personal experiences and some of the incredibly horrible things I’ve clairvoyantly seen in months and years past. This article will be another that seems to go in multiple strange directions yet these subjects are all intimately connected and multidimensional so please hang in as you read through these events that affect us all.

Old Message from a Positive 8D Orion

Back in the 1990’s I had a few telepathic messages from a much-loved old 8D Orion friend. Because there’s been so much negativity surrounding Orion, I’ve not said much about this positive eighth dimensional being because of this. He told me back in the mid-90’s that in the future I’d have to psychologically, emotionally and energetically deal with some very dark and difficult multidimensional history in relation to certain negative, Orion-based beings. He didn’t go into detail at that time, but was trying to prepare me for when I would have to know, see, remember, integrate and transmute some of it. That ‘future time’ he spoke of has grown for me since 2009. It seemed the closer we got to the 2012 Ascension Expiration date and shift timeline, the more this and plenty of other negative multidimensional Alien activities have needed to be consciously remembered, integrated and dealt with now like it or not, believe it or not, want to or not.

As our consciousness evolves and expands, we’re increasingly remembering more of our multidimensional memories from other timelines, events, actions and hijacked timelines crafted by negative Alien beings. Many of these negative Alien’s actions are nearly incomprehensible to us due to the extent of the evil they’ve done to humanity. I know how hard many of these negative Alien’s past and present actions and agendas are for many Starseeds/Forerunners/Energy Transmuters to even comprehend and cope with consciously, but, this is the phase and level we’re at now and many of us have to remember more and consciously admit to the scope of negativity that is “normal” to Team Dark members. I know how hard it is for most of us to even have this type of awareness in our minds and hearts because they simply do not fit due to their profound negativity and parasitic qualities. This is how “alien” negativity in general is to us, but we’ve been working very long and hard to energetically override, disintegrate and permanently remove them.

Positive Grey Aliens

I mentioned briefly in A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution that I’ve had a few conscious telepathic inter-dimensional meetings with a couple of positive Grey ETs. Like the positive Orion’s, the positive Grey’s aren’t something I’ve talked much about publicly either because there’s been so much confusion and distortions with these particular ET groups (and no doubt some others as well). Throw in multiple timelines and any topic becomes vastly more confusing and difficult to discuss. Because Lisa Renee mentioned them again in her May 2012 article [ https://deniselefay.wordpress.com/2012/05/04/lisa-renees-may-2012-report/ ], and because I know there’s plenty more information and awareness about our multidimensional Selves and other ET neighbors coming to the surface of increasing numbers of Starseeds and Indigo’s consciousness now and in the months ahead (and humanity as well), I figured I’d talk a bit more about some of my experiences and current perceptions about this. Remember however that I too am going through this further 2012 expansion of multidimensional consciousness, personal multidimensional and multiple timeline memories integration, and current Starseed Ascension work now also.

There were many times before the start of my physical Ascension Process in February 1999, that I felt some strange familiarity in my physical human Denise body with certain positive Grey ETs. This familiar body awareness has always felt to me just like what having a “past life memory” feels of being in an opposite sex human body to the one you have in this life, and/or with different human racial features, skin color, hair, eyes, musculature, bone structure etc. [The quote(s) below are all from Lisa Renee’s May 2012 article]

“There are many factions of Grey Aliens, so please know that most of the benevolent ones have been human in the past, or have chosen peaceful evolution.”

The couple of times in decades past when one of these positive Greys would etherically show up while I was awake, it felt like having an old best friend unexpectedly drop in for a visit. For those of you reading this and whose hearts are beating faster because of it and are second guessing whether Denise is one of the “good guys” or one of the “bad guys”, please realize that due to all I’ve been through in this life I can feel, sense, and knowthe energetic difference between the “good guys” and the “bad guys”. I can tell from the energies they radiate or don’t radiate and/or try to cloak.

The Negatives or Team Dark as I call all of them, can cloak or try to hide their energies from Starseeds, Lightworkers, Indigos etc. but you can still sense and feel either the great negativity they radiate or the great lack of Light within them. I’ve learned that when a non-physical Being(s) shows up and I feel nothing emanating from it/them, it’s because they’re cloaked and/or hiding behind their created False Light. This False Light looks like bright white light from a physical fluorescent light bulb and has zero energy coming from it because it’s empty, fake.

Positive Beings emanate such delicious positive, abundant and expansive Light/Love/Life-force that it’s sometimes overwhelming or intoxicating to us in physicality and we’ll sometimes fall asleep (exit our physical bodies) in their etheric presence if the energy gap between us is too great to cope with. Not so with Team Dark! You sense you’re in deep shit when they show up and that you’re in for a real fight for your life and life-force with them. Huge difference between Team Light and Team Dark and it’s easy to feel the potent differences in both multidimensional Groups of Beings. And as long as it’s needed, get intimately familiar with how both Groups and energies feel so you’ll know in an instant whose really in your space.

April 2012 Multidimensional Inner Earth Changes

It was in early April that I noticed something had suddenly changed and was continuing to change every time I did Lisa Renee’s “12 D Shield” technique. The point in it where you visualize your platinum 6-pointed (mer ka ba) star going down into the center of the Earth to connect with it was where I saw things looked and felt very different. Compared to what I’d always seen before, now the inner Earth had changed colors, density and energy and was looking and feeling to me like all hell had broken loose down there! I didn’t know what exactly was happening down around the Earth’s core energetically in early April 2012, but I could tell by the sudden and drastic color and energy changes that something big and very positive was unfolding. [from Lisa Renee’s May 2012 article about this]

“Approximately Mid April, the main hub networks of the Mira Flores Grey Alien technology base was systematically annihilated to prevent the May 1st Beltaine Agenda.”

After a few days of clairvoyantly seeing and feeling that the old inner Earth colors I’d always seen when I envisioned my star going down into the Earth had changed, I began investigating in an attempt to better understand what was happening down there. For however long it’s been that I’ve been visualizing Lisa’s 12 D Shield technique, the other-dimensional inner Earth area has always looked to me like a dense, dirty, unpleasant and terribly congested dark brick-red color with matching dense frequency energies. After some thought about this in April, I realized how stereotypically “hell-like” it actually looked down there which, amazingly, I hadn’t even considered prior assuming it to be “normal”. But when I saw that dark brick-red color and dense low-frequency congestion down within the Earth being broken up in mid April, I knew one old non-physical location of earthly “hell” was in the process of being permanently removed by multidimensional Team Light members.

Physical location-wise where what I was seeing, feeling and even working on myself during April corresponded to within physical reality didn’t enter the picture for me. I knew I’d been working deep within the Earth in another dimension fixing rocks, (yep I said fixing rocks! It was so natural at the time but sounds weird when I say it like this!) connecting energy lines and mopping-up down there in other dimensional inner Earth areas. During April I saw the old dense brick-red colors replaced with bright and vibrant white, light yellow and light green swirling colors of Light and very positive higher frequency energies down there.A few weeks later when I read Lisa Renee’s May 2012 article I knew it was connected to what’s happened in and around the physical areas in Peru she talked about and the corresponding other-dimensional areas.

Vlad the Impaler & Multidimensional Negative Alien Actions & Parasitism

Some of you may remember a 2009 article I wrote about an abnormally disturbing and highly amplified reaction I had to only partially watching a TV docudrama about Vlad the Impaler.

[ https://deniselefay.wordpress.com/2009/12/02/you-cant-store-that-crap-in-here/ ]

At the time I was surprised by how deeply I was emotionally affected by this TV program describing how people’s physical bodies were pushed onto wooden poles much like how we skewer pieces of beef onto metal skewers for kabobs. Sorry, I know how disturbing and difficult this topic is, believe me, but we’ve got to go there so some more of what’s happened and is currently happening, and some of what’s being dismantled now makes better sense to greater numbers of us on a conscious level.

Because of my extreme reaction to watching parts of this TV docudrama about Vlad the Impaler, I knew there was something else underneath that was the greater original source of my emotional pain and repulsion towards Vlad’s physical actions in the physical world. I knew I had to investigate this matter deeper to find out why this particular Vlad the Impaler topic affected me to the degree it did. The moment I consciously decided to find the deeper level source of this profound repulsion and terror, I found myself in the Astral plane (4D) viewing a vast area of blackness with something resembling a massive fish net cast across the empty space and pinned in place. To me this particular space and fish net was massive and could have covered hundreds of physical miles. How large it was in 4D I couldn’t tell you other than it was massive and stretched out far and wide.

Impaled upon and trapped within this massive Astral trap net were a few intact human bodies, far more human body parts, plus unrecognizable chunks of human flesh. I saw arms, hands, legs, feet, torsos, heads, and just sections of human flesh that were still producing energies even in this mutilated condition. Every piece was extremely valuable to Team Dark (the negative non-human, non-physical Aliens). Each one of these human body parts and pieces of human flesh impaled and trapped in this massive Astral net were producing energy which Team Dark has used/uses like batteries to fuel many of their dark distorted, self-serving trans-dimensional systems.

A few years ago when I clairvoyantly viewed this massive Astral net with human body parts impaled upon it (I’ve read Lisa Renee using the term “stapled”), I had another personal Matrix movie moment where Neo wakes up for the first time, looks out around him and sees the hundreds of thousands of other asleep humans (batteries) that the machine beings parasite off of to power their world and its systems. It was a horrific moment for me having to see the real life version of this consciously and acknowledge it as an actual multidimensional fact and reality. As I viewed these billions of human body parts and bits of human flesh impaled on this massive Astral net, I hated more than I ever have and simultaneously wanted to end this inter-dimensional, multiple body murder, mutilation and heinous thievery more than I wanted my next breath. Stair Steps within the Ascension Process, and, Stair Steps within our Starseed/Lightworker/Indigo conscious awareness and multiple timeline memories also.

Multidimensional Responsibilities

Every time we hear about human suicide bombers, car bombs, landmines, mine fields, grenade explosions, bomb explosions and any other patriarchal warring tools designed to kill, mutilate and blast to bits other living humans, know that those etheric human body parts and pieces of exploded flesh are energetically caught and utilized like this by non-physical Team Dark. Even if the human lost a limb(s) but survived physically, these etheric body parts are impaled and trapped in these other-dimensional Astral nets where they’re USED by negative, non-physical Aliens and other non-physical parasitic entities for the energy they naturally produce. Every inch of us in every dimension (physical, emotional, mental etc.) is holographic and contains all of Source, all of the All That Is in it. Every inch of us is profoundly multidimensionally potent and important and produces energy even when physically ripped from our bodies and exploded to bits.

Human psyches and souls can be blown to bits also just like physical bodies are in physical wars, accidents, explosions, murders, tortures etc. (9/11 was created to do this and create and fuel another of Team Dark’s offshoot timelines, plus all the other physical dimension things that came from it as well.) In these cases the souls are fragmented as if an etheric bomb tore them apart and they too are caught, impaled and used by Team Dark in other dimensions for the same reasons as etheric human body parts are; they produce energy which the negative Aliens and entities use as fuel and food. There’s physical trauma which rips apart physical human bodies, but because humanity is multidimensional, there’s also emotional, mental, psychological and etheric body and/or soul fragmentation and trauma that also happens. Team Dark has utilized humanities multidimensional bodies—not only their physical bodies or physical body parts.

The Truth—although oftentimes a real bitch—Will Set You Free

Remember Lisa Renee’s March 2012 article entitled “How Much Are You Willing To Know?” When I first saw that title I chuckled to myself because I knew it meant all of us were entering another phase of having to consciously know more. For me the first thing I needed to be more consciously aware of arrived through one of my readers sharing a link in a Comment for another reader. What I found interesting was how I instantly reacted emotionally to that link. I hadn’t even clicked on it but I instantly had one big emotional reaction to it while not even consciously knowing what it was about! Typically that’s a big clue that something important—and most likely unpleasant in some way—was right around the corner.

It took me about three days of squirming and complaining to myself before I finally clicked that link and went to consciously face whatever information was there that I needed to know now. What I found at that website was some information that fully explained an event that I experienced in 2004—a mere 48 hours after we moved out of our old house and into the one we’re still in today.

Those of you who’ve read A Lightworker’s Mission know the back-story. For those of you who haven’t read it, very briefly, I and my Mom lived under intense demonic attack from April 2000 to June 2004. These attacks were manifested on the physical plane via two male next-door neighbors, Portal People renters, who moved in April 2000. Only one year into my physical Ascension Process and these two human bozos are manipulated by Team Dark to move in next-door to us, and because they were already the property of a demonic entity, it turned its focus on me immediately and less intensely on my Mom. Problem was that I was so wrecked due to all the severe Ascension energies and symptoms that I didn’t perceive they were both controlled by a demon. Assholes totally, possessed no. That dangerous lack of awareness almost cost me my life. By 2004, my and my Mom’s Grid work in that physical location where our old house was located was completed, but I was hanging on by a thread due to the extreme Ascension Process I’d been going through from February 1999, coupled with constant etheric and physical demonic attacks on top of it all.

Quite simply, I got my ass handed to me repeatedly for those four years until I was able to regain enough mental focus to finally even think to do etheric level Energy Protection. Sad but true. You wanna know what the Negatives whisper in our etheric ears oftentimes? “This is normal, this is natural, don’t do anything, don’t move, don’t do anything, this is normal, this is natural…”.  Only hours after I first put up Astral etheric energy protections around our property, house, and myself, the demon clairvoyantly revealed itself to me after four years of hiding from me this way. Yes, I said hours. Once I clairvoyantly saw it I realized I was—and had been—in deep trouble and now that it had revealed itself to me the polarity WAR would unfold with a fervor it hadn’t earlier. That was when we decided to sell that house and move because I knew I wouldn’t survive if we didn’t. [For more info see A Lightworker’s Mission ]

Within 48 hours of moving into our new house in another city in 2004, I came under psychic attack again, but in a very different way.

There I am in 2004 our new house thoroughly cleaning it before we moved the furniture in. We needed a gas line installed for the clothes dryer so I asked my son if he knew of anyone who could do that job for us. He did and call his plumber friend to come over and give us an estimate for the work. Mind you, it’s only been 48 hours since Mom and I escaped our old house and four years of demonic attacks while struggling with the ongoing Ascension Process.

I hear a really loud car coming and my son says that’s his friend the plumber coming. I looked out the window and saw his car half a block away but couldn’t see him at all. In the next nanosecond I was totally and completely “in love” with this never before seen young man. I’ll never forget how conscious I was in that moment that, somehow, I was being manipulated to “fall in love” with this man I’d never seen before and did not know at all. I was furious and resisted as hard as I could yet couldn’t stop myself from feeling this way about the stranger driving towards my new house to install a gas line! I was that acutely aware that something abnormal was happening to me in those few seconds but I didn’t know what, who, or why it was happening. Long and embarrassing story short, I had a sudden and potent “crush” on this poor young male stranger despite how hard I tried not to. I know over the weeks he did other plumbing work for us that he felt me and the energies building between us and didn’t want any of it either. Thankfully near the end of the bathroom plumbing jobs he ran away which was a blessing actually because it ended this form of Team Dark attack upon me and misery for him. But I didn’t put the invisible negative manipulation pieces together back in 2004 to realize that manipulating humans emotionally in these sorts of romantic and/or sexual ways is profoundly easy for Team Dark.

The LINK & Needing To Know More

So I’m getting more and more angry at this link someone left in a Comment a few weeks ago and I’m well-aware that my irrational anger is a clue to something else underneath. Just like with that young plumber stranger, I was emotionally affected by this link before I even clicked on it! After a few days I finally did click on it and found myself at Eve Lorgen.com reading a few of her articles about what she calls the “Alien Love Bite”. This of course was the information I needed at the end of April 2012 concerning my sudden strange June 2004 crush obsession with the young plumber. Gawd those unrelenting Team Dark bastards! How much are you willing to know anyway?   😉

While reading about these “Alien Love Bites” manipulations I was so angry that I’d been had yet againby Team Dark. After the initial anger I realized how foolish I’d been not realizing that if Team Dark can do what all they have to humanity, Starseeds, Lightworkers, Indigos etc., then they can very easily manipulate and direct human romantic and sexual relationships! In my case with this young plumber in 2004, it was a derailment tactic intended to distract me as a Starseed working on the Ascension timeline. I was able to shake off the deliberately created “crush” on this guy but it still bothered me for a long time because I’d always known that none of it actually came from me. This emotional romantic manipulation done to me by Team Dark was—compared to the demonic entity trying to kill me or drive me mad—a small speed bump in the Ascension road. But, like so many of us, I needed to consciously know this particular information which fully explained my sudden, 48 hours after moving unwanted obsessive crush on that young man.

Moving Right Along

I started writing this article in early May but so much has happened throughout this month that it was repeatedly put on the back burner. As much as I don’t even want to talk about these types of negative things any more, I need to occasionally and many of you reading this need to hear about them for whatever your current personal reasons. So, there’s another chunk of the icky, negative trans-dimensional crap so let’s move on because the May 20, 2012 Eclipse and Alcyone alignment and planetary “reboot” is still working its transformational magic on us all.

I wanted to briefly add here that since the May 20th Eclipse alignments I’ve had some old Ascension symptoms flare back up again as I know many of you have too. I’ve had the head pains and pressures again, not as severe as years past but there nonetheless. I’ve also been having mild Hot Flashes again which, thankfully, had diminished greatly over the past three years but they’re back again. Also the head dizzies or that sense of falling or tipping over in slow motion. And the old Morning Sickness nausea business is back again, along with the pain in the spine and different joints. Let us not forget the seemingly unending exhaustion! Another old Ascension symptom I had for ten years has returned thanks to the Eclipse energies and it’s that feeling of going into a mild state of shock; cold, sweaty, clammy and slightly nauseous. And the food/eating/digesting business has reached a new level of misery too since the May 20th Eclipse which I know many of you are experiencing also.

Because we oftentimes forget that moving through these major transitions such as the May 20, 2012 Eclipse alignments, that they naturally activate major physical body changes in us all too. I wanted to mention that this is why many of us have had Ascension-related symptoms reappear recently and/or some new ones manifest too. Gads, and we’ve still got all the major June 2012 energy events to traverse! Hang in there my friends.

Denise

May 25, 2012

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Pains, Frustrations & Confusions of the Spiritual Ascension Work

I have such a desperate need to heal others but I can’t accept the fact that instead of embraced for my ideas I’m repelled and persecuted. In what way can I stay balanced without such negativity and still find a voice to reach others without absorbing their density?

I often pray to god that he will put me in the correct dimension I belong in. I feel like all my relationships are tumbling down. I’m being called ungrounded because I share my experiences and positivity and insight into the vast power of spirit and human consciousness.

I feel like words are becoming so mundane. I feel connected but also so alone. Like I have nobody to go through this with, I feel so mentally alone. My whole life I felt like this. Crucified for being so different. Insulted and called crazy or weird. I just don’t fit.

Emotionally I feel like nobody around me understands me. Its been 26 years of loneliness. The further I go, the more I see how skewed the relationships I am in are even when they actually wouldn’t be if I weren’t on this path. Nobody gets it, and all I want to do is live alone in peace because nothing but nature provides it.

How if it were meant to be they wouldn’t force me to a standstill and reject me.

As things become more intense in the world I feel it so hard to look away. I want to heal and help. I want to care for people and show them another way, like you do. But face to face. I want to counter team dark, I want to banish them myself for all they’ve done to my people. I want to balance this mess. I know inside it won’t be through a sharp tongue alone that this is accomplished. 

Sometimes I wish I could be able to ease the pain of something. But the beating I take for it – it is worth it? Should I just abandon all my dreams of changing the world and instilling harmony? The more I look inward, the more I understand. The more I don’t help others causes guilt and a feeling of selfishness. To turn away and into myself would be counter productive to the very thing my spirit wants. When will this be over, Denise? When will I go back wherever I came from that was lighter and full of inspiration, desire and passion of spirit? What should I do to ease my suffering and loneliness in the meantime? I’m often too afraid even to speak or to write you this. I hope you understand what I mean by this letter.

Theo”

I received this email last week and because I’ve received others like it from many people over the years, I asked Theo if I could quote her letter at TRANSITIONS so we could have this discussion publicly where hopefully more people will benefit from it. Thank you Theo for allowing me to share your letter. ❤

If you’re on the Spiritual Path then you too have felt these pains, frustrations, and confusions occasionally. If you volunteered to incarnate on Earth now to transmute, embody, and anchor the Ascension Process as a being from elsewhere, then you’ve most likely felt this way even more. With time the pain of feeling Homesick lessens and we settle into our physical Earth lives and pre-incarnational Soul Contracts and just do what we’re here now to do. But there’s always the longing to be in a like-Home space, dimension, or world with like-frequency Family and friends once again.

When I was a child the summer and fall sunsets would just about destroy me because that was the time of day and energy that caused my Starseed Homesickness to amplify to the near breaking point. I’d watch the Sun set in the western sky and mourn and weep for my real Home and other-dimensional kinsfolk. It was not an easy time for me, and was also energetically connected to another timeline and “past” life in 12,600 B.C. Egypt. I suspect that’s why the setting Sun activated my Starseed heart so easily as a child in this life and timeline.

Typically the Ascension Process mutilates most of our relationships primarily because one person is evolving (due to multiple time coded, activated Soul Contracts and different phases within it) and the other person is not. Or, one person is living the Ascension Process but is much further behind on those Ascension Stair Steps (the different levels and phases within it) which often makes the consciousness and energy gap between the two people way too much for both parties to cope with. If one person can reduce that energy/consciousness/reality gap and move into a closer frequency range with the other person—mate/lover/child/parent/friend/co-worker etc.—then the relationship continues. If not, problems and frustrations are experienced by both parties. Oftentimes one person absolutely MUST continue moving forward at the pace they’re capable of then no matter what (Soul Contract) and this is why many relationships don’t survive the Ascension Process. No one has “failed” the relationship or the other person(s), it’s just that the relationship has gone as far as it can for both parties within the intensity and constant growth and changes of the Ascension Process.

“You can lead a horse to water but you can’t make it drink”

People not consciously aware of the Ascension Process (and other related spiritual issues) simply perceive those of us at the front-lines as crazy, sick, disturbed, rebellious, imbalanced, delusional or just big pains in the ass! This shouldn’t surprise anyone reading this really because we know how much most people do NOT want to change themselves and will typically lash-out at anyone they perceive to be a threat to their locked-in and locked-down life, consciousness and reality. We Bringers of Light are typically not what the masses want to have to deal with, and even when they don’t consciously know what we are and what we naturally do, they sense we’re different” and that we’re rocking the familiar reality boat and typically they don’t appreciate us and what we’re doing at all. And of course for us Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos this just makes an already difficult job all the harder.

A lot of people do NOT want to be “helped” or “healed” or “expanded” in any way because they’re perfectly content with the way things have been…or so they think. As repulsive as that is to most of us Bringers of Light, I totally understand it and all we can do is Bring the Light, radiate it constantly, then hope that as many people as possible are inspired and assisted by the Light we’ve brought to this world. It’s not our jobs to “save” anyone or “heal” anyone; it’s our job to provide an exit route out of the Darkness and insanity, however we cannot carry anyone across that Alchemical threshold but ourselves. Said another way—the ONLY way that you can, I can, each of us can “help” another person or humanity in general now is to integrate polarities within ourselves individually which automatically reduces the overall workload of polarity resolution for every other person on the planet. THAT is how one person truly helps another; integrate and resolve the polarized energies (duality) within yourself which automatically makes it easier and faster for others to do the same within themselves. Clear that Pathway to the Light for others through yourself. No ego recognition, no fame, fortune, no religious trophies or gold star points for doing it this way… and that’s actually a blessing.

So many words everywhere!

For many of us at this late date within the Ascension Process words are becoming mundane as Theo said. Since the start of 2011 I’ve struggled to continue writing at TRANSITIONS because I can feel that things have shifted and continue changing for me even more dramatically in 2012, and I’m finding it harder to write as often as I did prior to 2011. The words and topic I now write about must come from a High Heart place and be truly helpful in the moment or I can’t muster the desire and focus to write now. (There are other reasons for this too which I’ll cover in another article soon.) This is how much we’ve evolved into High Heart being and consciousness so far, and that’s a wonderful sign, but this is why in 2011 and 2012 I haven’t been writing nearly as much as I have at TRANSITIONS since 2007. I’ll continue writing but know that things are changing super-fast now in 2012 and I’m having to make adjustments to cope with these dramatic increases in energies and this means less writing from me now. We’ll all adapt and keep moving further into the new timeline during 2012 and beyond but expect the unexpected, be flexible, be wise, rest plenty and take care of yourself body and soul, and expect to increasingly know more yourself instead of relying on reading ascension and spiritual-related words written by other people. This too is a positive sign, and knowing for yourself is going to be SO much more fun anyway!

Ascension-related Soul Contracts

A lot of people have a hard time truly understanding that by them living the Ascension Process and transmuting lower frequencies (duality, polarities) within themselves, their bodies and surroundings, plus embodying higher frequency Light Energies, that THAT’S how they’re actually changing the world reality and helping humanity transition into the newly anchored timeline and ascending Earth. We’ve all been brainwashed into believing that if we aren’t physically doing something then we’re not being productive, effectual, or even worthy of receiving the simplest of physical necessities such as daily food and shelter. As Bringers of Light—Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Starseeds/Indigos etc.—we know this is a horrific lie created by the Dark Ones and the human patriarchy to maintain the human slave labor mentality and belief systems across the planet generation after generation.

We forget that through our integrating, transmuting, embodying, radiating, and BEING the higher frequency Light Energies while in human bodies on Earth in this timeline, we are “Doing”. You know that famous line, “be the change you want to see”, well, it’s true. By our embodying these higher Light Energies we’re BEING and radiating them across the world in this timeline we’re assisting Earth to vibrate higher, which naturally improves reality and life for everyone else. This seeming non-doing doing (how integrated and non-polarized is that!) is internal, unseen, unrecognized and unappreciated by the people around us but we knew it would be this way before we entered this dimension and we still couldn’t wait to get in here and go through all this…this…this fabulously intense transformational work.

I too have my moments where I refuse to take the “beatings”, abuse and disrespect any longer from people who don’t understand and/or don’t want to change and evolve now. I understand why they feel this way and why they do and say what they do towards most Volunteers/Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos etc. I have my moments when it gets to be too much for me and I have to retreat a bit to re-balance and detox whatever lower frequency junk I picked up through these situations. Dusting ourselves off and getting back in the saddle again is faster and easier now than it’s ever been, and we’re all learning to master being “Keepers of the Frequency” to borrow a Barbara Marciniak’s Pleiadian term, and not be pulled out of or “fall” from higher frequency neutrality in the first place. Soon we’ll constantly exist within a frequency of neutrality—which comes from having integrated, resolved, and ascended duality or polarities—and we won’t struggle and suffer with these situations and lack of awareness in certain people like we have. We’ll both know and be neutral (which is the higher frequency and state of consciousness and being that exists beyond duality, polarity) and that is going to be so worth all the painful and difficult transitional work we’ve done.

Along with these things also comes the expanded responsibility of learning to consciously chose what WE want to focus on mentally and emotionally moment to moment. In other words, we’re learning to be much more conscious of our consciousness and are consciously choosing what our higher Heart Mind is entertaining each moment. The great news is that eventually this too won’t be an issue or struggle for us and we’ll simply exist within a higher frequency state of neutral High Heart being where lower frequency people, consciousness and issues won’t unbalance us. We’ll exist within and function from a state of High Heart unified neutrality and consciousness—which means non-polarized not disinterested, unfeeling or insensitive—100% of the time.

So, “To turn away and into myself would be counter productive to the very thing my spirit wants…” is incorrect actually. This type of thinking is more old 3D ego-based with some heavy Piscean Age religious distortions in it. I’m not blaming anyone because that is what the planetary Collective is still full of unfortunately and am only pointing out that this is not how things work at higher frequency levels.

When will this be over?

Theo asked me,“when will this be over?” Well that is the question now isn’t it? The entire answer is still out on this one unfortunately because the planetary Collective is still waffling over this topic. I know what I want and I put my vote in long ago. Other-dimensional Upper Management has certainly heard my plea for a final cutoff point or Expiration Date to this continuing hanging on while waiting and waiting for as many people to get on the Ascension train as we can get this time around. I’m beyond tired of this waiting which has been torturous to many of us over the past years.

I’ve asked this question numerous times too over the past many years and I’ve perceived a few major or primary probabilities. The difficulty with trying to answer major questions like this is that the answers are never as black and white or polarized as a yes/no or now/later type answer. That’s old polarized 3D thinking whereas what’s been happening has been a gradual ascent up many energy Stair Steps which produces different phases, levels, and stages within this transitional process. Yes there are Expiration Dates and cutoff points within it, but they too are really Stair Steps and not as total and absolute as many of us would like them to be.

October 28, 2011 was a big cutoff point or Expiration Date, as was the 11-11-11 portal of November 11, 2011. I felt another huge transition and cutoff point when we entered January 1, 2012 and could feel that everything had changed again in important ways. The whole month of March 2012 was very potent and it too altered things in major positive ways.

The Full Moon on May 5, 2012—the “Festival of Buddha”—Moon will also be more potent in 2012 than past years, and the New Moon/Solar Eclipse on May 20, 2012 when the Earth, Sun and Alcyone of the Pleiadian system align will also bring in tremendously positive and amplified higher energies (Pleiadian energies) to humanity and Earth. And then there’s June 2012…which just blows my mind when I look at the calendar because it’s packed with multiple powerhouse energy events throughout the month. Physical life and reality will begin changing dramatically with the start of June 2012. Do you see and feel the energy Stair Steps building and expanding so far in 2012? We’re not even halfway through 2012 yet and we can feel and see the acceleration of the physical dimension dismantling of the global patriarchy finally.

And on and on it goes day by day, week by week, month by month for the rest of 2012 and beyond. Some Ascension Teachers have recently mentioned how things will be very intense for “the next five years”. The primary reason for this is that on June 23–24, 2012, the first of SEVEN squares (direct motion(s), then retrograde(s), then direct motion(s) again) between Uranus in Aries and Pluto in Capricorn starts. These seven exact Uranus/Pluto squares or hits will happen starting with the first hit on June 23–24, 2012 through 2015.

Actually this Uranus/Pluto square energy was first physically manifested globally with the start of the Egyptian Revolution on January 25, 2011, and it’s spread across the world ever since and that was just the beginning of what these two planets squaring each other will do. Actual physical reality (Pluto in Capricorn) and human consciousness (Uranus in Aries) is and will continue to dramatically and quickly be dismantled and rebuilt (the seven squares over the next five years) at a vastly higher frequency and consciousness. This MAJOR transformational process won’t always be pretty or easy, but it will be 1000% successful in permanently removing the non-human, non-physical alien Dark Ones and the physical human patriarchy and all of their lower frequency global systems from this planet. Five intense, compressed years of total dismantling and removal of the inter-dimensional and global patriarchy/Dark Ones entirely. Hell, I’ll hang around for five more years just to witness the fruits of my/your/our labors across Earth and beyond!

But we’ve got the rest of accelerating 2012 to live and transition through first and there are more energy Stair Steps coming after June and another Venus transit, the 2012 summer Solstice, the start of the Uranus/Pluto squares, planets changing signs, solar, galactic and deep-space energy increases, the fall Equinox, the 12-12-12 portal and the grand finale of the 12-21-12 winter Solstice. Plenty more 2012 excitement and changes coming with multiple energy Stair Steps to climb and connect and embody into this Ascension timeline.

What about us Volunteers/Starseeds/Lightwarriors/Lightworkers/Indigos in 2012?

I know you too have been acutely aware of how many people—myself included—are just not around online as much or in the same ways as we had been for many years prior to the start of 2012. Things have changed tremendously since we moved through the 11-11-11 portal. They changed again on January 1, 2012, and they shifted yet again in big ways in March 2012 and they’re only going to continue doing this all year. I’ve felt very “sequestered” since the start of 2012, and this sensation is only growing. Let me clarify what I mean when using the term sequestered.

For me this sense of being sequestered doesn’t mean hiding or not interacting with others out there in the world. It did in years past but not in late 2011 and 2012. With the start of 2012 it’s been much more about my (so many of us) working while awake and asleep in other dimensions and timelines to build and anchor this Ascension timeline in this dimension. For the past four months of 2012, I’m acutely aware of and can feel when many of my Starseed/Lightworker readers and other Ascension Teachers out there are simply not existing in the same level, location, and timeline. I can feel the energetic changes when my fellow Co-Workers exit this timeline, and I can feel when they return, and how we all reconnect even more strongly within this Ascension timeline again and again. I know you reading this can feel when I leave this timeline to do some work, tweak things a bit more, and then return to this Ascension timeline again. This is us weaving timelines together, cutting other ones out, and all to create a totally new timeline and Earth that’s completely free of Team Dark and their distortions. This level of multiple timelines and multiple realities work back into this Ascension timeline has been profuse so far in 2012 and I sense it will continue the rest of this year.

As this continues we’re becoming increasingly aware of how much this world, this reality is changing for the better because the old lower frequency everything and everyone is quickly going the way of the dinosaurs now. Some say that this transition could take as long as two to three generations to complete, and that is one strong probability. However… that’s FAR too long in my opinion and I know things are shifting moment to moment now because of the timeline weaving and cutting work we’ve been doing plus the tremendous increase in unseen and cosmic/galactic/solar/deep space help that’s much more easily able to come through now in 2012. This too is only going to increase as Team Dark is further dismantled this year. I know this transition can happen much, much, sooner than two to three generations so let’s help it happen. Let’s help the human Collective fearlessly, easily and quickly transition into the new ascended 5D Land of Plenty sooner rather than later. Use 2012 because it’s so amplified, so charged and ripe with positive potentials for total transformation. Hang in there everyone because it’s so close now, and get ready for June 2012.

Denise

April 20, 2012

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What A Winter! (2012)

WINTER RECAP IN PREPARATION FOR THE 2012 SPRING EQUINOX

But first, some whining…

On January 1, 2012 I felt and was affected by another upsurge and big push from Team Dark (the non-physical, non-human Beings and their human puppets). It was mildly depressing and I wasn’t prepared for it, which I should have been, but because we’re so close now my heart gaze is entirely fixed on the finish line and humanity evolving beyond the vibrational reach and influence of Team Dark. I realize I may occasionally jump the gun with certain old familiar polarized 3D issues and belief systems such as the controlled need for money, the controlled need for gasoline, war etc., but this is because I know what’s possible and coming and want all of us to be there sooner rather than later. To reach the next rung on the ladder, you’ve got to be willing to release your grasp on the one you’re currently holding on to.

There we were in the long-awaited year of 2012 finally and all I could feel, again, was the tenacity and determination of Team Dark trying to grab more people and create more fear/war/violence/murder etc. in this world. Needless to say I was a bit bummed from the start of January 2012 as I felt these old dark dudes—human and otherwise—working hard to regain power, energy, control and more of humanities energies and consciousness.

On a personal note I’ve had a whole slew of physical world things, issues, situations that I’ve had to take care of, such as getting my taxes done and numerous other similar old 3D things that I’ve never enjoyed having to do. Since the start of 2012, I’ve spent more time doing these types of old 3D things, making changes, fixing certain things, replacing things that suddenly broke and so on than I have writing articles! I’ve had busy times like this in the past but nothing to this degree. It seems there’s plenty of changes happening on multiple levels and dimensions now and all with a great big rush and push before the spring Equinox arrives on March 19, 2012.

Despite these unexpected intrusions into my life, time, focus and energy by these old 3D situations and necessities, I’ve had a couple of interesting experiences that have reinforced my sense of being assisted by a small group of higher dimensional Unseens. I haven’t sensed Them in my life a long time so this has been a real pleasure feeling Them around me and assisting me once again.

Once in January and again in February 2012, I had some important legal and money-related old 3D type things come up that I had to take care of. In both cases I made a mistake with something I didn’t even know existed and would have had a heck of a time trying to fix or redo both situations and probably would have been fined for my blunder. To prevent this added mess, distraction and interactions with the old 3D systems I’m not and never have been fond of, some of these Unseens literally put things ON HOLD for me so that other things would happen which would prevent those future problems, fines and redo’s.

I’ve experienced the Unseens helping me like this in decades past, but it was usually an isolated event that didn’t affect a lot of other people. In the January situation this intervention assistance by the Unseens did affect a large group of people so I was even more saddened by my mistake, but who knows how that delay actually affected each of them. But, the Universe had my back and literally put things ON HOLD for 24 hours which was exactly enough time for that other thing to happen that I didn’t even know existed which prevented future problems and fines for me. Sorry for being vague with the details but I’m sure you understand the overall gist of these events and why they’re happening to many of us now. It’s get things in order time once again if that’s what you/me need to do now.

So the January potential confusion and mistake was fairly easily avoided thanks to the Unseens literally making computers and printers stop work which forced a stop on everything for everyone for a week. This was done so that something would arrive in the mail the next day for me which I very much-needed to take back with me a week later when this group event was rescheduled…due to the computers and printers mysteriously suddenly not working that first day. Thank you Unseens for having my back and covering my butt with this one because I had no idea about any of those other 3D legal issues and paperwork etc.

The second Unseens intervention to prevent another potential Denise blunder happened in February. Gads I’ve missed these Unseens working away in the background of my life helping me to do what I’m here now to do!

In February I needed to make some changes to my money and where it goes etc., so I did the required paperwork for this change and then waited for the physical changes to manifest. Problem was that I missed them when they arrived because I didn’t recognize them! I suspect it was a matter of more ascension-related brain fog plus those heavy-duty X-class solar energies hammering my head/brain/DNA, plus those increasing gaps between the old 3D linear time and awareness and the growing 5D unity consciousness and functioning in the “Now Moment”. More embarrassment and confusions but again the Unseens had my back and did their best to help me see what I wasn’t seeing that was actually right in front of me physically all along. Oh boy, I see a book-title like…How To Ascend & Balance Your Checkbook At The Same Time. I’m kidding, I’m kidding!

So there I am on the phone calling someone to try to find out why my money isn’t where it’s supposed to be. I’ve called this number before with other questions and there was always a person on the other end immediately. Not so this time. Again I was put ON HOLD on the phone for ten minutes or so. While ON HOLD waiting the Unseens kept pulling my eyes to one sentence on a paper I had in front of me specifically for this phone call. Finally I saw the sentence and realized that what I was waiting for hadn’t happened yet and wouldn’t for another couple of months. Oops. Next the Unseens directed me to turn over another paper I had in front of me so I’d see one sentence on it which would tell me everything I needed to know about why my money wasn’t were I expected it to be and when it probably would be and so on. As soon as I saw that all the little pieces fell into place in my awareness and I immediately hung up the phone and thanked the Unseens for preventing me from further self-created confusions and embarrassments.

And last night and this morning there’s suddenly been a couple other issues pop in that need a small portion of my time and energy at this point. Where this goes, if it even does, will unfold in time or just fall off my radar altogether. My point is that there now seems to be plenty of sudden and unexpected (sounds like Uranus doesn’t it?) events and/or potential events and happenings manifesting after years of being locked-down into what I/you/us have been doing for many years or decades even via the Ascension Process.

MORAL OF THE STORY IS…

It’s getting a bit dicey now and then maneuvering through old 3D events in a world and reality with consciousness that’s shifting so dramatically into something entirely different. This is like years ago during the worst of the worst of my heavy, dense, dark transmuting and the resultant ascension symptoms. When I’d leave the house to grocery shop I’d always stop myself first and look down to make sure I had pants on and hadn’t forgotten to fully dress myself before I got in the car! Seriously, it was that bad back then, and in January and February 2012 I’ve had a couple of potential 3D (3D as in legal, money, banking, taxes type) blunders of equal magnitude due to my expanding awareness and jumping back and forth between linear time and non-linear or “Now Moment” time, awareness, and being and learning how to not screw these types of things up! I’m starting to suspect that we’ve been assigned a special Team of Unseens just to cover our butts and have our backs during this major transition!

“CAN’T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG?” NOT IF YOU EXPECT ME TO CHANGE!

Another event happened the other day when my neighbor whose a self-absorbed, unaware patriarchal jerk was on his cell phone outside where he and the wife live every minute it’s warm outside. Problem is that our houses are like twenty feet apart and he aligns with my bedroom window so I hear and see him/them despite my having spent a few hundred dollars putting up privacy panels to keep him out of my bedroom at night.

I heard him outside my bedroom window on his phone telling someone that his two (adult) sons with their two dogs and two mates were arriving from out-of-state in a couple of hours. Because I endured this last year, plus daily intoxicated Happy Hour spent outdoors under my window for a year plus sunbathing, plus dogs pooping and peeing on my things outside and getting attitude from him/husband/Daddy/patriarchy when I went out to try to shoo his son’s dogs away from shitting and pissing on my things…I was NOT happy about having to live through all this crap again for three weeks…and during the spring Equinox no less. See the pattern unfolding with these issues and energies? My guess is that many of you reading this can totally relate.

Suddenly it was decision time for me to figure out what to do or not do with this man. I realized I only had a tiny window to confront him (if that’s what I was going to do) about all the things he’s been doing for over a year and getting ready to do a lot more of as soon as his adult kids arrived. I realize that he’d been planning to have loud outdoor just add alcohol family fun get-together next to my bedroom window because that’s what HE LIKES and I either had to suck it up and let it go, or, quickly confront him about it all and go from there. Now I’d rather have teeth pulled than have a face to face confrontation with a patriarchal, imbalanced egoic numb-nuts who thinks independent, Light infused females like me should be burned at the stake, or worse. However, and after all I’ve been through in this life not to mention just the past thirteen years, I will eventually confront whoever it is that’s trying to push me out of existence either through their own self-absorbed stupidity and mega ego etc. or (and/or) whose intentionally being manipulated by Team Dark to get at me and mine. [See A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution]

After doing brutally honest light speed discernment and peeking into the near future in an attempt to see if my future confrontational actions make this co-existing situation better or worse, I sensed I needed to confront him immediately before his wife, in-laws, sons and their girlfriends dogs and crew arrived in what could have been minutes. Long story short, I go outside and confront him but did so honestly and fairly saying my peace and suggested that he also tries to compromise as I have…and of course he attacks me, insults me, projects onto me, dodges responsibility, blames me, and flat-out lies about everything and I knew he would because he isn’t capable of anything else yet.

He did all those things people do who refuse to take any responsibility for their actions. In mid confrontation his cell phone rings and he can’t answer it fast enough to escape me and what’s happening and immediately starts telling his daughter on the other end what a horrible neighbor I am and what an unhappy life I have and how I only want to bother the neighbors etc. I’m standing three feet in front of him as he’s saying all this to her. He simply would not even attempt to have an honest adult conversation with me. There’s more BS and insanity of course but you get the drift of how this played out between us at that moment. I so need to move to a more secluded location and let these types of people do what they do while I do what I do…

After writing this article I received an email of Lisa Renee’s March 2102 article entitled “How Much Are You Willing to Know” and I had to smile to myself. There was a recapitulation of so much of what I’ve been going through for many months and why. I’ve known why for most of my life, but it’s always helpful and comforting hearing certain information like it from another about these extreme situations and difficulties we Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigo are having because of them—but also those unaware humans that are resisting spiritual growth, evolution and change of any kind.

My situation and question however is still, how do I co-exist with other people such as these neighbors when the gap between our consciousness and everything else is what it is? I don’t want to suffer anymore because of this housing/living situation and am doing what I can to be able to sell/buy/move to a more private rural place where I won’t be assailed by people like this and they won’t have to endure my energies directly either. I’ve been excruciatingly aware of what a miserable situation this has been for me and many of you too, not only during these past 25 ascension years, but our whole Starseed lives. There are many more questions to cover about this situation and how we (by we I mean Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos etc.) can live safely and comfortably during this transition while the other humans go through what they are but at a level that’s suited for them. I know that once I’m fully there this won’t be an issue, but until then, like you I’ve got to co-exist with people who haven’t a clue about reality, energies, consciousness, other-dimensional Beings and their agendas, what’s going on now, and many of them do not even want to know!

Thanks for wading through this weird and different article and I hope you too are getting ready for the coming 2012 Spring Equinox energies and the changes they will bring for all.

Denise

March 10, 2012

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An Astral Thrashing by Ancient Giants

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Before we can talk about the improvements unfolding in 2011, I want to backtrack us a bit for contrast and reflection. I could write a book based on this topic because it’s so amazing and such a profound change to what reality has been on Earth for my almost sixty years. I’m talking about the now steady and increasingly obvious decrease of the Dark Ones/the Negatives/Team Dark from our reality and lives. Here are some examples of this increasing shifting and departure of them from a few recent multidimensional experiences I’ve had.

A GIANT ASTRAL THRASHING

On November 6, 2010 I had one of the most interesting and informative lucid dream encounter I’ve ever had, and I have had some whoppers! I was lucid in this dream from the first moment because the dream had been designed and created by a Dark One. He wanted to talk face-to-face with me so he created this “dream” setting for me to make sure I got his entire message, which I most certainly did. He created this dream setting to look like the old house I lived in during the most difficult years of my early biological Ascension Process where I’d been under constant demonic attack for four horrific years. [See A Lightworker’s Mission]. He wanted me to be very consciously aware that it was he and his kind behind all of the Dark attacks I went through at that house from 2000 through June of 2004.

In this lucid dream, which was not a “dream” at all but an actual meeting in the fourth dimension (4D Astral), this Dark One and about five or six of his buddies were waiting for me in the backyard of this other house. From my perspective I just suddenly found myself in this already started dream, which is usually a sign that something other than you has designed it and intentionally pulled you into it for a specific reason. So there I am all of a sudden, lucid in the Astral and back at this other house looking up at about seven incredible giant Beings; Dark Ones that were not Reptilians but something else. Their bodies were all the same but their non-human faces were slightly different, as human faces are, and they were wearing costumes which were intended to further intimidate and frighten me. They didn’t however but looked rather ridiculous. We’ll get to that in a second.

So there I am standing outside in full daylight in this astral meeting with about seven of these ancient humanoid Dark Ones. They all were around twenty feet tall; I estimated this from marking where the highest peak of the house roof came on their bodies which was around their waists. In other words, they were some HUGE, ancient, giant Dark Ones and they got my attention for sure! Now here comes the funny costume part; they all were dressed in stereotypical biker outfits. Black leather pants, vests with “colors” on the back, chains, spike collars, wide leather cuffs and all the other typical old bad-ass motorcycle biker dude costuming from the sixties and seventies. Seriously, I should get an award or metal or something for not busting into a belly laugh seeing twenty-foot tall Dark Ones trying to look extra mean n’ nasty by wearing old “Hell’s Angels” biker costumes in my backyard! I just stood there staring up at this group of non-human, non-physical Dark Ones trying to further intimidate me and couldn’t believe what I was witnessing. Their size and unpleasant non-human faces alone was enough, but thankfully for me the old “Hell’s Angels” biker outfits took the edge off of the entire situation.

After a bit the head Dark One leaned down, picked me up, and held me close to his ugly non-human face and gave me a good hard thrashing! I was the size of a rag-doll in his huge hand as he shook me, yelled and screamed viciously at me and clearly let me know how much he HATED my goddamned Forerunner Starseed Lightworker ass and how seriously I have ruined his plans, his life and lifestyle, his fun, his ruler-ship over humanity and Earth blah, blah, blah. His buddies watched with great pleasure as their Boss spewed hatred in my face and shook me around in his giant clawed hand. And, as amazing as all this was because it was “real”, was that I wasn’t nearly as frightened as I would have been had it happened a few years ago. I was lucid of how I was emotionally feeling and what I was thinking during this designed intimidation tactic by these particular Dark Ones, but I was rather surprised by my lack of fear.

Of course it helped tremendously having these giant giants costumed in old-school biker regalia, plus it helped tremendously having the main Dark One telling me his secrets and how I (as a Lightworker) had ruined his species way of life and their food and fuel supplies (humanity) and so many other things I couldn’t believe it! I kept thinking to myself while this Dark One was raging in my wee astral face, “My god Denise, listen to everything he’s telling you in his wild rage because he’s revealing tremendously important secrets. Do not pull the ripcord and wake yourself up yet. Wait until he’s done telling you everything.”  So I remained and endured him raging at me about what a miserable day he and his kind were having all because of what me and my kind have done. Instead of fleeing the astral scene as I usually do in these types of astral abductions, I remained until this Dark One had finished his rant at me and then I got the hell outta there and woke myself up!

This was a big deal for me to NOT be so frightened and NOT escape when things got too scary because I do know how to wake myself up and escape when needed. This also told me a lot about how much I’ve personally grown, and about how much the Light has done to cause the Dark Ones to not be able to stay within the still increasing Light Energies here.

ANOTHER MULTIDIMENSIONAL ATTACK BY THE DARK ONES

On February 22, 2011 — 2-22-11 — I started out having a very nice dream but it kept morphing into bad, then into worse, and then much worse. Once the nightmare reached that ultra-icky sick blood n’ guts violent point, I did pull the astral ripcord and woke myself up. Problem was—as it often is—I didn’t leave this nightmare in the 4D astral plane, it was right there in my physical bedroom hovering above me near my ceiling! “It” is what caused my nice dream to morph into a gory, sick nightmare.

Once I was awake from the nightmare I could easily see in the natural night’s darkness this mass of unnatural Blackness hovering about a foot below my ceiling like a large 4D astral oil spill. It was wider than my queen-sized bed and took up nearly the entire square footage of my bedroom ceiling. I’ve had many attacks over the years from this same type of mass Blackness that’s darker than the darkest night, and in years past these attacks would leave me severely ill for a couple of months. My point is that I was well aware that I was going to be fighting for my life and well-being as soon as I awoke and saw this 4D canopy oil spill Blackness hanging over me in bed. What happened next however was an absolute first in my life and that is what’s really important about all of this.

Once awake and aware that I was in for another serious battle for my health, sanity, multidimensional energetic well-being and possibly my very life, I went into hyper-aware, hyper-sensitive Light Warrior mode while simultaneously taking mental notes of the entire situation. The thing with negative Beings is that, no matter what shape, disguise, or costume “It” puts on, you know what “It” is because “It” cannot change or alter “It’s” energy signature to save “It’s” life. “It” is what “It” is no matter how clever or creative. “It” always feels exactly the same no matter what because “It” has not changed one little bit. Nasty is nasty is nasty period.

So there I am yet again fighting my way through another attempt upon my Forerunner Lightworker life by the Dark Ones, but, there’s one HUGE change to this familiar attack; “It” cannot move down any lower to attack or touch me! My god this is a minor miracle and something that’s never happened before. Now I’m not saying this attack was easy because it wasn’t and it lasted for an hour and a half and was very intense and exhausting. However, “It” could not drop down any lower and literally, repeatedly, pound on my head like an actual assault as “It” has in years past. So, what’s changed and why?

We’ve gone deep enough into this battle at this point (2-22-11) that the Dark Ones cannot effect me (a Forerunner, Starseed, Lightworker, Gridworker, Embodier) in the same ways they have because the Light has returned and is taking back and filling up this world and so much more. The Dark Ones are on their way out in other words and I cannot tell you what this means to me after 59 years of having to deal with them and their endless attacks throughout this life. For me to repeatedly and vividly be shown just how much has really changed energetically, both within my Denise self and the Earth world and the Astral and beyond, is so incredibly rewarding… and the best is yet to come!

BEIGE HOUNDS OF HELL ASTRAL ATTACK

Moving right along.

May 12, 2011 I had a dream attack which really amazed me. It’s almost—dare I say—comical. So I’m dreaming early this morning and find myself in some unknown neighborhood in some unknown city somewhere walking down the street at night alone. Suddenly a pack of dogs comes running towards me from down the street. Normally this would have sent me scrambling for that astral ripcord in a hot second, but, my-oh-my how things have changed in a few short months since November 2010!

No I do not escape the dream attack but turn to look at the pack of barking dogs running wildly towards me with the intent of ripping me to pieces in the street. I noticed they were different sizes and breeds but that they all are beige in color. That told me that the Darkness ain’t so dark no more (May 2011) but is now more of a matte beige color. Go ahead and have a good giggle over this symbolism, gawd knows I certainly did.

So as the pack of beige dogs reach me I magically produce — are you ready for this — a large bed pillow to whoop-ass with. Yes, a bed pillow to beat off a pack of attacking beige dogs, alone, in the night. Ya gotta luv it. So there I am in the street pillow popping attacking dogs left n’ right with my Kung Fu Light-infused Bed Pillow of Destruction. I sent every dog that attacked me flying through the air and dissipated them into nothingness. But again, the most important point in all this for me was that I was totally and completely emotionless about this whole business. I had NO fear, NO anger, NO aggression, NO hate, NO nothin’ but poppin’ attacking beige Hell Hounds back to Source. I felt like one of those old rock-solid Kung Fu movie warrior goddesses calmly whoopin’ ass with the greatest of ease. I’ve never ever felt this before in my life and it was good, really good.

I said a couple of months ago that one of the things I wanted for myself now was to finally evolve beyond reacting to lower or negative frequency situations, attacks, and people etc. I no longer want to respond in that old lower emotional way and my dream of fighting off attacking beige dogs with ZERO emotions one way or the other was a huge symbol for me personally. When I look back over the past few months like this to get a better understanding and perspective, I see just how much has really improved on multiple levels for me personally, but also with how much has improved collectively in this dimension and others. I also know that this is just getting rolling now in early 2011, and that it will unfold exponentially week by week and month by month through to the end of the Mayan calendar on Oct. 28, 2011, and then the great transition through the 11-11-11 portal of November 11, 2011. Reality will be increasingly unrecognizable and in completely positive ways.

From a direct and intimate face-to-face rage-fest with what I believe were an ancient group of giant Nephilim beings, to unemotionally popping attacking astral hell hounds back to Source in seven short months is pretty impressive, especially after nearly six decades of living in a totally Dark controlled world. Hang in there everyone because the best really is right around the corner at this point.

Denise

May 12, 2011

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Negative ET Abductions From the 4D Astral

I’ve briefly mentioned this before on a few forums I used to post on. It’s about the phenomena of being “abducted” by negative ETs/Aliens but, having this happen from the sleep state while one is dreaming. Years ago I experienced this a few times and it’s not very pleasant. I wasn’t always aware of negative “ETs” either; sometimes yes, other times no. But after a few times of this happening I learned the hard way what was what, and how this phenomena usually works…for me at least. Please remember that what I’ve experienced is not what everyone else who may experience this situation, will encounter. I do know there’s certain tell-tale signs in both the sleep/dreaming state, and the awake, fully conscious state as well. It’s these common signs that I’d like to share so people know what to pay attention to. And of course I’m talking about only some negative, lower vibrating ETs and not about all negative ETs. Not all negative ETs have a desire to snatch sleeping humans from their dreams or sleep state and place them within crazy, ridiculous, frightening, emotionally and psychologically intense soap opera type dream scenarios! Some do however, and it seemed it was to primarily measure my emotional reactions to their carefully designed dream stories they placed me within.

Here’s a brief list of common signs that this is happening:

  • Suddenly your dream morphs into an epic staged Soap Opera-type ridiculous thing
  • Your dream has real friends/family/loved ones in it but they don’t exactly look or act like them
  • Your dream feels contrived and manipulated only to induce specific emotions within you
  • Certain characters in your dream are posing for you, again to induce specific emotions in you
  • Your dream turns really frightening and just keeps going and going like it’s trying to keep you in a state of intense fear
  • You make yourself wake up from the dream only to be pulled back into it as if you’ve been drugged and cannot remain awake/conscious
  • You wake yourself up because the dream became a nightmare, physically get up out of bed, move around the house a bit, then go back to bed only to feel that pull and going unconscious sensation again…meaning they’re still there and are pulling you, abducting you, back into the astral

These are some of the common and repeated factors I experienced with this particular phenomena when I went through it in the past. As I mentioned, they, the negative ETs, seemed mainly interested in creating and directing fearful emotions within me in those manufactured dreams and then they tried to increase and direct the fear, frustrations, repulsions, horror, anger, confusion etc. etc. for as long as they possibly could.

Some of you may be wondering how I would know that some of my dreams were created by negative ETs. I know because I’m honestly familiar with how the fear within the deeper aspects of me really functions. I know pretty well how my subconscious functions and how my personal fears, worries, unresolved emotional issues and energies typically manifest in MY own created dreams. I’ve learned how to tell the different types of dreams I have and where they’re coming from. I also can feel negativity anywhere and I mean anywhere! It’s a highly recognizable energy signature and I can sense it easily from other energy signatures.

It was fairly easy for me, after a couple experiences with this, to come awake or lucid within my dream when I realized it wasn’t MY dream after all. I sensed I was being controlled, directed, manipulated within the dream state for some negative Others to take notes from my personal reactions and behaviors to negative dream images. It was actually rather silly and immature in my opinion, once I got myself out of the emotional drama. Once I realized the dream was staged, I became angry and just got myself out as fast as possible. What did surprise me however was that in some cases, despite my waking up and physically getting up out of bed to try to break the connection, they waited for me to get back into bed and go to sleep again! That did surprise me and freak me out a tad as well. It taught me a lot about how to read energies both while in-body and out of my physical body, and how to discern dreams and break free when I really wanted or needed to and then maintain that break. That for me was the hardest part of all this; learning how to not get pulled back and Astrally abducted again after I’d intentionally escaped a negative dream scenario. It’s a very real battle that spans both the physical and astral dimensions.

Denise Le Fay

October 1, 2008

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The Reptilian Beings

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In 1961 at the age of ten I vividly remember pouring through a large Time Life book my parents had. As a kid I found all the beautiful oil paintings and other images in it quite magical. There were paintings by talented artists about what they thought the ancient civilizations might have actually looked like. It was however one particular oil painting that rocked my childhood world when I first saw it in 1961. It was of dozens of sea iguanas laying on huge rocks at the ocean. At age ten, they were ‘monsters’ sunning on rocks, but the longer I scanned over the whole painting I discovered one thing that triggered a memory… a realization I’ve never forgotten since that day.

In the painting the artist had drawn many of the iguanas’ shoulder and arm muscles just like  large, strong, well muscled human male. The split second my ten-year-old eyes landed on this one iguanas heavily muscled should and arm, another mind’s eye image came rushing up and out into the light of my young consciousness. It was the image of a huge male Reptile Being. A ten foot or taller massively muscled humanoid Reptilian male that stood upright. (Look at the knee and leg muscle of the sea iguana in the photo above and also the shoulder and upper arm.)

The reality of non-physical, non-human, other-dimensional Beings that look like 7 to 12 foot tall bodybuilder Lizards instantly became another strange and scary aspect of my childhood reality that day. I didn’t have a “past life” memory of what we today call the Reptilians; their existence reentered my consciousness because the sea iguanas were a close enough match and therefore a trigger for me to remember their existence. It was just another of many bizarre memories and knowings that I’ve carried for most of my life in silence…until now.

Then one evening about six years ago I’d gotten into bed and turned out the lights. I was laying there feeling peaceful in the dark when suddenly this vivid clairvoyant image intruded into my mind’s eye. Using psychic terms, a nonhuman, nonphysical, other-dimensional Reptilian Being deliberately made conscious contact with me clairvoyantly that night.

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I was used to having meetings and conversations with certain higher dimensional Starbeings/ETs, but this was very different. This meeting was about this particular Reptilian Being WANTING me to psychically see him so he made a clairvoyant connection with me. (I spent 2 days searching for photos and images that come the closest to what I’ve seen of “him” popping in like this three different times during that year. These are pretty good photos but of course not completely accurate.)

What I found extremely interesting about all of my encounters with this one male Reptilian Being was that he was easily able to prevent me from psychically reading him and his thoughts. He had cloaked his thoughts and intentions so I couldn’t perceive or sense anything other than what he was allowing me to see and perceive then. I got the sense he was intentionally showing me that Reptilian Beings do indeed exist, but he only allowed me to psychically see his right eye and portions of the right side of his face up very, very, close. This clairvoyant image was exactly as if he were only 4 inches from my physical face! It was very intense, even with him blocking out all emotional and telepathic contact between us. He knew I was trying to psychically read or scan him and he simply remained steady with his psychic barricade up which prevented me from doing so. I guess he felt it was only time for a conscious re-reintroduction and not much else as yet.

A few months after these nightly in-my-face meetings with him, I saw massive, full-body Reptilians etherically superimposed over some well-known American and foreign world leaders and government officials on the TV news one night. No, I won’t name names, but it’s very easy to discern which of these humans is being controlled and manipulated to carry out Dark agendas on physical 3D Earth. I took these clairvoyant TV images I saw then to mean a couple of things:

1) That either those human politicians and world leaders were themselves direct aspects of different Reptilian Beings existing in non-physical dimensions

2) That certain negative Reptilian Beings are psychically, energetically possessing and manipulating certain low-frequency, low consciousness humans, certain politicians, world leaders, military, physicians, bankers etc. and many other people around the world for very negative reasons.

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It wouldn’t surprise me at all if both of these are the case and probably much more that I’m unaware of at this point. Things are far more complex and multidimensional than we fully realize as yet, and there are so many more players both positive and negative within this vast cosmic Plan.

At any rate, I feel that the Reptilian Being that deliberately revealed himself to me six years ago did so for different Ascension related reasons. It was also time for me to connect the dots from my early childhood memories with today and all that’s happening on the planet and within humanity via the Ascension Process. Humanity is horribly unaware of the many different long-term multidimensional players that are invested one way or another in our narrow band of 3D Earthly reality in this neck of the Great Cosmic Woods. Soon this too will change as we ascend/evolve back into conscious “Universe Society”.

Denise

October 10, 2007

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