What A Winter! (2012)

WINTER RECAP IN PREPARATION FOR THE 2012 SPRING EQUINOX

But first, some whining…

On January 1, 2012 I felt and was affected by another upsurge and big push from Team Dark (the non-physical, non-human Beings and their human puppets). It was mildly depressing and I wasn’t prepared for it, which I should have been, but because we’re so close now my heart gaze is entirely fixed on the finish line and humanity evolving beyond the vibrational reach and influence of Team Dark. I realize I may occasionally jump the gun with certain old familiar polarized 3D issues and belief systems such as the controlled need for money, the controlled need for gasoline, war etc., but this is because I know what’s possible and coming and want all of us to be there sooner rather than later. To reach the next rung on the ladder, you’ve got to be willing to release your grasp on the one you’re currently holding on to.

There we were in the long-awaited year of 2012 finally and all I could feel, again, was the tenacity and determination of Team Dark trying to grab more people and create more fear/war/violence/murder etc. in this world. Needless to say I was a bit bummed from the start of January 2012 as I felt these old dark dudes—human and otherwise—working hard to regain power, energy, control and more of humanities energies and consciousness.

On a personal note I’ve had a whole slew of physical world things, issues, situations that I’ve had to take care of, such as getting my taxes done and numerous other similar old 3D things that I’ve never enjoyed having to do. Since the start of 2012, I’ve spent more time doing these types of old 3D things, making changes, fixing certain things, replacing things that suddenly broke and so on than I have writing articles! I’ve had busy times like this in the past but nothing to this degree. It seems there’s plenty of changes happening on multiple levels and dimensions now and all with a great big rush and push before the spring Equinox arrives on March 19, 2012.

Despite these unexpected intrusions into my life, time, focus and energy by these old 3D situations and necessities, I’ve had a couple of interesting experiences that have reinforced my sense of being assisted by a small group of higher dimensional Unseens. I haven’t sensed Them in my life a long time so this has been a real pleasure feeling Them around me and assisting me once again.

Once in January and again in February 2012, I had some important legal and money-related old 3D type things come up that I had to take care of. In both cases I made a mistake with something I didn’t even know existed and would have had a heck of a time trying to fix or redo both situations and probably would have been fined for my blunder. To prevent this added mess, distraction and interactions with the old 3D systems I’m not and never have been fond of, some of these Unseens literally put things ON HOLD for me so that other things would happen which would prevent those future problems, fines and redo’s.

I’ve experienced the Unseens helping me like this in decades past, but it was usually an isolated event that didn’t affect a lot of other people. In the January situation this intervention assistance by the Unseens did affect a large group of people so I was even more saddened by my mistake, but who knows how that delay actually affected each of them. But, the Universe had my back and literally put things ON HOLD for 24 hours which was exactly enough time for that other thing to happen that I didn’t even know existed which prevented future problems and fines for me. Sorry for being vague with the details but I’m sure you understand the overall gist of these events and why they’re happening to many of us now. It’s get things in order time once again if that’s what you/me need to do now.

So the January potential confusion and mistake was fairly easily avoided thanks to the Unseens literally making computers and printers stop work which forced a stop on everything for everyone for a week. This was done so that something would arrive in the mail the next day for me which I very much-needed to take back with me a week later when this group event was rescheduled…due to the computers and printers mysteriously suddenly not working that first day. Thank you Unseens for having my back and covering my butt with this one because I had no idea about any of those other 3D legal issues and paperwork etc.

The second Unseens intervention to prevent another potential Denise blunder happened in February. Gads I’ve missed these Unseens working away in the background of my life helping me to do what I’m here now to do!

In February I needed to make some changes to my money and where it goes etc., so I did the required paperwork for this change and then waited for the physical changes to manifest. Problem was that I missed them when they arrived because I didn’t recognize them! I suspect it was a matter of more ascension-related brain fog plus those heavy-duty X-class solar energies hammering my head/brain/DNA, plus those increasing gaps between the old 3D linear time and awareness and the growing 5D unity consciousness and functioning in the “Now Moment”. More embarrassment and confusions but again the Unseens had my back and did their best to help me see what I wasn’t seeing that was actually right in front of me physically all along. Oh boy, I see a book-title like…How To Ascend & Balance Your Checkbook At The Same Time. I’m kidding, I’m kidding!

So there I am on the phone calling someone to try to find out why my money isn’t where it’s supposed to be. I’ve called this number before with other questions and there was always a person on the other end immediately. Not so this time. Again I was put ON HOLD on the phone for ten minutes or so. While ON HOLD waiting the Unseens kept pulling my eyes to one sentence on a paper I had in front of me specifically for this phone call. Finally I saw the sentence and realized that what I was waiting for hadn’t happened yet and wouldn’t for another couple of months. Oops. Next the Unseens directed me to turn over another paper I had in front of me so I’d see one sentence on it which would tell me everything I needed to know about why my money wasn’t were I expected it to be and when it probably would be and so on. As soon as I saw that all the little pieces fell into place in my awareness and I immediately hung up the phone and thanked the Unseens for preventing me from further self-created confusions and embarrassments.

And last night and this morning there’s suddenly been a couple other issues pop in that need a small portion of my time and energy at this point. Where this goes, if it even does, will unfold in time or just fall off my radar altogether. My point is that there now seems to be plenty of sudden and unexpected (sounds like Uranus doesn’t it?) events and/or potential events and happenings manifesting after years of being locked-down into what I/you/us have been doing for many years or decades even via the Ascension Process.

MORAL OF THE STORY IS…

It’s getting a bit dicey now and then maneuvering through old 3D events in a world and reality with consciousness that’s shifting so dramatically into something entirely different. This is like years ago during the worst of the worst of my heavy, dense, dark transmuting and the resultant ascension symptoms. When I’d leave the house to grocery shop I’d always stop myself first and look down to make sure I had pants on and hadn’t forgotten to fully dress myself before I got in the car! Seriously, it was that bad back then, and in January and February 2012 I’ve had a couple of potential 3D (3D as in legal, money, banking, taxes type) blunders of equal magnitude due to my expanding awareness and jumping back and forth between linear time and non-linear or “Now Moment” time, awareness, and being and learning how to not screw these types of things up! I’m starting to suspect that we’ve been assigned a special Team of Unseens just to cover our butts and have our backs during this major transition!

“CAN’T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG?” NOT IF YOU EXPECT ME TO CHANGE!

Another event happened the other day when my neighbor whose a self-absorbed, unaware patriarchal jerk was on his cell phone outside where he and the wife live every minute it’s warm outside. Problem is that our houses are like twenty feet apart and he aligns with my bedroom window so I hear and see him/them despite my having spent a few hundred dollars putting up privacy panels to keep him out of my bedroom at night.

I heard him outside my bedroom window on his phone telling someone that his two (adult) sons with their two dogs and two mates were arriving from out-of-state in a couple of hours. Because I endured this last year, plus daily intoxicated Happy Hour spent outdoors under my window for a year plus sunbathing, plus dogs pooping and peeing on my things outside and getting attitude from him/husband/Daddy/patriarchy when I went out to try to shoo his son’s dogs away from shitting and pissing on my things…I was NOT happy about having to live through all this crap again for three weeks…and during the spring Equinox no less. See the pattern unfolding with these issues and energies? My guess is that many of you reading this can totally relate.

Suddenly it was decision time for me to figure out what to do or not do with this man. I realized I only had a tiny window to confront him (if that’s what I was going to do) about all the things he’s been doing for over a year and getting ready to do a lot more of as soon as his adult kids arrived. I realize that he’d been planning to have loud outdoor just add alcohol family fun get-together next to my bedroom window because that’s what HE LIKES and I either had to suck it up and let it go, or, quickly confront him about it all and go from there. Now I’d rather have teeth pulled than have a face to face confrontation with a patriarchal, imbalanced egoic numb-nuts who thinks independent, Light infused females like me should be burned at the stake, or worse. However, and after all I’ve been through in this life not to mention just the past thirteen years, I will eventually confront whoever it is that’s trying to push me out of existence either through their own self-absorbed stupidity and mega ego etc. or (and/or) whose intentionally being manipulated by Team Dark to get at me and mine. [See A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution]

After doing brutally honest light speed discernment and peeking into the near future in an attempt to see if my future confrontational actions make this co-existing situation better or worse, I sensed I needed to confront him immediately before his wife, in-laws, sons and their girlfriends dogs and crew arrived in what could have been minutes. Long story short, I go outside and confront him but did so honestly and fairly saying my peace and suggested that he also tries to compromise as I have…and of course he attacks me, insults me, projects onto me, dodges responsibility, blames me, and flat-out lies about everything and I knew he would because he isn’t capable of anything else yet.

He did all those things people do who refuse to take any responsibility for their actions. In mid confrontation his cell phone rings and he can’t answer it fast enough to escape me and what’s happening and immediately starts telling his daughter on the other end what a horrible neighbor I am and what an unhappy life I have and how I only want to bother the neighbors etc. I’m standing three feet in front of him as he’s saying all this to her. He simply would not even attempt to have an honest adult conversation with me. There’s more BS and insanity of course but you get the drift of how this played out between us at that moment. I so need to move to a more secluded location and let these types of people do what they do while I do what I do…

After writing this article I received an email of Lisa Renee’s March 2102 article entitled “How Much Are You Willing to Know” and I had to smile to myself. There was a recapitulation of so much of what I’ve been going through for many months and why. I’ve known why for most of my life, but it’s always helpful and comforting hearing certain information like it from another about these extreme situations and difficulties we Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigo are having because of them—but also those unaware humans that are resisting spiritual growth, evolution and change of any kind.

My situation and question however is still, how do I co-exist with other people such as these neighbors when the gap between our consciousness and everything else is what it is? I don’t want to suffer anymore because of this housing/living situation and am doing what I can to be able to sell/buy/move to a more private rural place where I won’t be assailed by people like this and they won’t have to endure my energies directly either. I’ve been excruciatingly aware of what a miserable situation this has been for me and many of you too, not only during these past 25 ascension years, but our whole Starseed lives. There are many more questions to cover about this situation and how we (by we I mean Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos etc.) can live safely and comfortably during this transition while the other humans go through what they are but at a level that’s suited for them. I know that once I’m fully there this won’t be an issue, but until then, like you I’ve got to co-exist with people who haven’t a clue about reality, energies, consciousness, other-dimensional Beings and their agendas, what’s going on now, and many of them do not even want to know!

Thanks for wading through this weird and different article and I hope you too are getting ready for the coming 2012 Spring Equinox energies and the changes they will bring for all.

Denise

March 10, 2012

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Going Back Downstairs Part 2

Some of my readers have said how fed-up they are with hearing/reading about anything else that even has the word “Ascension” in it. I totally understand and feel the same way after nearly eleven years living The Process. (Feb, 1, 2011 will be my eleven year Ascension anniversary.) However, we’re still in and living through this Ascension Process and all it’s causing and creating now thanks to the huge changes the summer of 2010 (and beyond) triggered and grounded. Because of these recent  summer and into fall 2010 changes, we’ll need to continue writing and sharing about what we’re experiencing now for the simple reason that it is a new level with new symptoms and increasingly strange side-effects!

Based on what I’m now experiencing—plus what many of you have shared in Comments that you’re experiencing too—we need to exchange these personal experiences and what we’re discovering because of them. Everyone benefits from us doing this type of open and honest sharing about the higher energy and consciousness anomalies, perceptions and multi-leveled symptoms.

[Note: Please read all the Comments people wrote in response to “Going Back Downstairs“. There are many correct new perceptual experiences and phenomena that some people are currently encountering that are far more severe and strange.]

ckck1 and Robin both mentioned not hearing normal physical sounds as one of these new perceptual changes or side-effects due to the summer energy/consciousness changes. I too experienced not hearing any sounds in my weird DMV experience [see Going Back Downstairs], but forgot to mention it. The only sounds I did hear while inside the DMV office were the DMV employee and myself talking, and the young man standing next to me talking to the DMV employee that was assisting him. The rest of the normal noise and sounds that are present in any public building were simply not there. The sounds—like everything else including the building itself, the other people, the other DMV employees, the computers and cameras etc.—were all not visible or audible to me. They simply did not exist to me perpetually or  psychically as energy that I could sense, read, feel or perceive clairvoyantly or clairaudiently, which is completely abnormal for me. So, what’s changed and why are the important questions.

Robin told of her much more severe Oct. 2, 2010 experience while having to venture out to do grocery shopping. What I haven’t told her yet, is that my Mom and I went out too on that same day, a Saturday, which I know to NOT leave the house on the weekends but did anyway. Man did we pay for that mistake! Never again.

Remember as I tell this story that I’ve lived this ascension business since Feb. 1999. I’ve had ascension symptoms and experienced numerous anomalies and phenomena related to MY consciousness, brain, nervous system, body, old familiar psychic and Multi-D changes because of the ongoing Ascension Process. This isn’t anything new to me after nearly eleven constant years. But…things have changed and changed big this summer which naturally means everything else has and will continue changing even more and faster than it has over these past eleven ascension years.

I’m driving Saturday, Oct. 2, 2010 and Mom and I are stuck in an intersection with no left turn light, waiting for the heavy and fast traffic to dissipate enough so I can make the damned left turn safely. But while we’re stuck there in the middle of this intersection with oncoming traffic speeding headlong at my car, I perceived this common driving situation at a level I never had before. I perceived the oncoming traffic as energies and objects literally assailing me, my body, my car, my very existence. I was forced to keep looking at these oncoming vehicles so I’d know when I could make the left turn, but the longer I watched the traffic bombarding my vulnerable little space in the intersection, I was coming unglued rapidly.

From my perspective, the oncoming vehicles felt like energy bullets being shot at me  much faster and more intensely than they actually were, but nonetheless missing me by inches. There’s reality and then there’s reality and both are correct; it just depends upon which one you’re functioning within at the moment. This experience was, for me at that moment, perceptual and psychic energy overload! It lasted probably just under a minute physically, but from my perspective of NO TIME or increasing quantum non-linear time, it lasted for fucking years and it was way, way, way too much for me energetically. I was fried by the event in other words.

I finally got through the left turn (there was no safe left turn signal arrow at this intersection) and a mile or so down the road and into the shopping center where we were headed. Once there and parked, I started crying and could not believe how severely affected I was by that one little experience. Hell, I’ve been driving for a hundred years now, but this was a vastly more severe energy/perceptual reaction to that particular driving situation I’ve been through a million times. It reminded me of the bad old years of Phase One of my ascension where everything was way, way, way too much for my body, my senses, my nervous system etc., except this was worse in its unique and current way.

A few days earlier I’d had my Department of Motor Vehicles (DMV) and Social Security Office experiences, and a couple of days later this. I realize that both things have gotten turned way up on some invisible energy dial. I now literally cannot see and hear certain lower frequency places, buildings and people. But, the flip-side of this same phenomena is that now the lower frequency, noise-making things, people, moving vehicles, buildings, systems and locations have also become far, far, far more severe in how I perceive them and how they effect me. What?! How can things now be BOTH not visible and/or not heard, and only days later be seen, heard, and felt to such a severe extent that it feels like you might not survive the onslaught of them?

Are we having fun yet?

We’ll adapt, we’ll learn, and we’ll keep going because there’s nothing else to do at this late date. But, things have changed again, and this latest summer 2010 change is bigger and more life and reality-changing than we’ve had to deal with so far within the whole Ascension Process! I know there’s even more coming and fast, but we will adapt and figure out how to function and not function in both lower/higher frequency places…until we don’t need to go back downstairs anymore. Until then, we’ve got to adapt to these profound perceptual, consciousness and energy frequency shifts and changes of both not being able to see/hear/feel/perceive certain lower frequency places and people…to…the extreme opposite of only being able to see/hear/feel/perceive certain lower frequency places, people and actions to the point of it nearly crushing us!

And let’s not forget another handy-dandy other thing we’re currently learning how to function within; time or reality jumping and beginning to experience quantum (non-linear, NO TIME) consciousness vs. being back down vibrationally in linear time and reality.

THIS IS A TEST. FOR THE NEXT FREAKING SIXTY SECONDS…

So I sat in the parking lot and cried a bit and needed a moment to wrap my brain and nervous system around how I’d perceived and been so intensely effected by the oncoming traffic. (I suspect much of this may be how Autistic people perceive and feel reality. Good gawd!)  Mom asked if I was okay and I told her I wasn’t. I always am eventually. I wiped my tears and off we went into the store to get what we needed. Within less than thirty seconds inside the building, Mom is in physical agony and sweating and feeling like she’s going into mild shock and going to pass-out. Fuck. I can tell  however what’s happened to her only because I’ve been living with it myself for the past decade. I know that this is an ascension-related higher/lower energy symptom or reaction that she needs to experience for herself and discover that when she exits the building the increased physical body pains will leave and she’ll feel like she’s going to survive. That’s exactly what she experienced. Now she knows for herself why I bitch and complain like I do about how going into the bank to get money (yeah), causes me to feel like a diver being crushed by increasing external pressures. For her that day it was this particular shopping store. For me the bank has been the most severe place that causes me to nearly go into shock and pass-out while waiting there in line. (This has lessened greatly this year I’m happy to report.)

Are you seeing how we’re literally exiting these old lower world places, systems, and people because we cannot hang out for long down there without being crushed by the lower dense energies, or driven nearly mad by the lower frequency consciousness and systems? These things will eventually disappear entirely from our lives, perceptions  and reality because they’re too dense, too negative, too polarized, and just too crazy for us to even quickly run into and run out of. Pay attention to all of this and how it affects you, your body and mind, your psyche, and the different frequency levels of perception both in and outside of “time”. Our consciousness is consciously going multidimensional now and we’re jumping into and back out of linear time/space and probable realities, and it feels and is perceived as really, really strange! (This is why I recently suggested Jane Robert’s Oversoul Seven books.)

There’s more to all this but my brain is fatigued it so I’ll wrap this one up. I do know that we’ve reached the point now in mid to late 2010, where we’ve got to learn how to NOT get our asses deep-fried in either direction. Either by going back down vibrationally, and/or by possibly getting fried or scorched by increasingly higher and faster incoming solar, galactic, astrological and other cosmic Energy Waves. We’ve reached the point now where we’ve seriously got to learn how maintain a higher perception and state of being and not get pummeled by swinging to far in either higher/lower direction. We’ll get it…we always do.

QUICK NEW SYMPTOMS RECAP:

  • Seeing things, places, people, inside certain buildings, but it looks to you like a white fog or heavy mist is partially covering everything you’re viewing. You can still see but it’s like a misty, slightly blurry filter is covering what you see sometimes. Often getting back outdoors solves this visual phenomena.
  • Not being able to see anything at all. It is literally gone due to you now existing at such a different level energetically. Aspects of lower “reality” are literally blacked-out from your current higher frequency perception. You know they still exist, but its getting increasingly difficult for you to actually reenter them and perceive them.
  • Being able to see only a very small section of the old lower frequency world, the people in it, buildings in it etc. Everything around the outer edges of your tiny focused tunnel-like view is totally blacked-out and seemingly non-existent to you now.
  • Not being able to hear the normal noise and human sounds in certain public buildings and places. This is the same as not being able to see them. Your perception exists so much higher and faster that you’re literally out of sync and range vibrationally with that reality, so you do not hear and/or see it.
  • Hearing strange sounds and/or voices that are not there physically. You are hearing, clairaudiently, non-physical sounds and voices. This is of course the total opposite of not being able to hear physical sounds sometimes.
  • Being profoundly affected by lower frequency things, places, people, noise, lights, smells, movements, buildings, locations, systems etc. Lower frequencies literally overloading, over stimulating your nervous systems and awareness to the point of you needing to not be anywhere near them. Don’t get fried!

And we haven’t even reached the 10-10-10 portal yet!

Denise

October 3, 2010

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If Lightworkers Did What They Did Why Is The Dark Still Here?

I imagine some people may wonder why there is still so much darkness, negativity, and downright evil on the planet manipulating and working through so many people. If the First and Second Wave Lightworkers have transmuted so much negative energies across time around the planet during Phase One (1999–2009), then why is there so much Dark/negativity still present in the lower falling world?

Another aspect of this same situation is the lower vibrating energies, feelings, thoughts, stuck emotional energies and unresolved stuff in our own multiple bodies; our mental body, emotional body, spiritual, and physical body. How can we still, after everything we’ve been through during our excruciating Phase One ascension transformational work, have some crumbs of lower frequency stuff/emotions/energies/issues  inside of us now?

Answer—simply because not every single crumb needs to be transmuted for ascension to be completely successful. It’s a percentage thing. If you and I get, let’s say, 75% (just to make this easier to express) of our personal lower frequency, lower vibrating junk/stuff/crap we’ve been hauling around for Ages and Ages, then that remaining 25% automatically goes dormant. We’ve transmuted enough so that we’ve vibrated up and beyond the remaining lower 25% frequency energies, consciousness, emotions and it has gone dormant within us. I think of this sort of like carrying around a germ or virus that has gone dormant inside our physical body—it’s still there but is harmless because its gone dormant.

This same rule applies to the world in general. That 75% of lower negative, Dark, what we call evil energies that were in the old lower world and the fourth dimension have already been transmuted and released. The remaining 25%, which is currently still running around the planet doing it’s best to survive the planetary and human ascension process, will also go dormant and disappear from humanities consciousness, and faster than many of us would have ever guessed. As long as we remain within the 75% higher transmuted space, consciousness and frequencies we’ll be fine. If and when we drop back down vibrationally for whatever reason or reasons, we then run the risk of reactivating that remaining 25% in our bodies and having to deal with it once again. This is why many teachers say that we’ve got to learn how to remain in “the eye of the storm”; that we’ve got to learn how to be “Keepers of the Frequency”; that we’ve got to learn to “remain in our centers or hearts and in the NOW moment” etc. These spiritual messages about different frequencies and levels of consciousness are all saying the same thing; once you’ve transmuted the majority of your lower, dense, stuck, polarized, karma, unresolved energies, emotions and issues, it is very unpleasant going back down vibrationally and having that dormant 25% of junk become active again. Same with going back out into the  lower frequency, lower consciousness, highly chaotic and negative locations in the world that are still very much within that old lower frequency range. Very uncomfortable and unpleasant!

This is why we’re currently having to learn how to hold and maintain this higher new energy and space within ourselves no matter how wild and chaotic the rest of the world becomes as it transmutes and transitions now in Phase Two. Eventually this won’t be an issue for us because the entire 25% will have gone dormant everywhere thanks to the higher vibrating 75%. Until that day arrives however, we’ve got to become experts at housing/holding/being/maintaining the higher dimensional, higher consciousness, High Heart energies and consciousness within ourselves, our homes, our space, our energy fields, our cars, our workplaces etc. The whys of us doing this will become increasingly apparent and in our faces (and hearts and bodies) as the falling apart and dying of the old patriarchal world and planetary systems, earth changes (earthquakes, volcanoes, extreme weather, unusual weather changes, storms, flooding etc.) continue at an increased rate now in Phase Two. The fear and chaos generated from people who do not understand what’s happening and why can easily effect those of us who are ultra-sensitive, empathic, and  already very connected to earth, humanity, and the ascension process. We are and will feel them, their fears, their pains, their hatred  and projections and all the lowly rest of it as the old system and patriarchy dies away. High Heart means you feel it all, but it also means you know from a much more evolved and integrated position why it is all happening. Be strong, be wise, be YOU through and through and keep the higher frequency until we don’t need to any more. 10, 11, 12.

Denise

May 17, 2010

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Rage & The Ascension Process

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One wouldn’t normally think of RAGE and ASCENSION in the same sentence. However, the two go together very intensely for many of us living through the ongoing ascending, evolving, shifting process.

I’d never felt rage in my life prior to the start of my Ascension Process so it was a shocking and almost embarrassing feeling to have suddenly. There I was all the sudden, raging and hating certain people, certain systems and belief systems with such intensity that I wondered who I’d become overnight! It was a totally foreign feeling for me and I wasn’t much impressed with it.

But, I learned over time that RAGE was just one more aspect of the ongoing Ascension Process that many of us really need to go through. The big question is why of course. So many people believe that if something is “spiritual”, then it’s going to come in a stereotypical lofty Christian colored package because that’s all they’re familiar with after the past 2,100 years. Many people expect ascension and its many symptoms and feelings to be kind and gentle and turn the other Piscean Age cheek type of business. Let me tell you that they’re in for a huge surprise and awakening!

RAGE and INTOLERANCE go hand-and-hand with the Ascension Process and it’s normal so don’t panic. Many of us need to realize that if we don’t finally become enraged over the negativity, the corruption, the greed, the insanity, the lower negative everything and everyone — even lower aspects within ourselves — then nothing changes, improves or evolves.

To help us reach that state where we simply cannot and will not stomach or endure or continue being co-dependent with and enabling of all lower negative things, people, situations, beliefs and systems etc., the Ascension Process gives us intense RAGE and INTOLERANCE of all those systems, objects, beliefs and people still vibrating much lower. This is good, this is positive, this us growing beyond those lower old patriarchal systems, greed and ignorance. The rage Ascension Process produces is a symptom of our evolving beyond those lower frequencies and consciousness. Don’t beat yourself up over this one as it’s a normal aspect of your ongoing stair-steps of the Ascension Process. Feel what you’re feeling, but more importantly, know why you’re feeling it and then be ready to release it all back into neutrality.

Remember the story about Jesus “going postal” in the market/temple all over the money changers? Exactly. winkglasses

Denise

August 11, 2009

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My Lightworker Strike

♦ This article is in response to Karen Bishop’s WINGS report, The Re-Calibration With a Very New Plan’,  July 28, 2009.

Karen Bishop starts her latest report off with the line — “A very new plan is in the process of being put into place, and it is a much needed plan indeed.”  I couldn’t agree more.

Things haven’t been “perfect” for a long while now and I was really tired and frustrated repeatedly hearing that it was or soon would be. It hasn’t been “perfect” from my perspective for a long time and I’ve kept my mouth shut about this for many years because I didn’t feel it should be said publicly. I always tell my truth, I just don’t always tell all of it for reasons like this.

I’ve sensed for all of 2009 that the old lower world (vibrationally below me) and the new higher not-yet-manifest world (vibrationally just above me) had both reached some strange energetic stalemate, some massive pause or blockage in them. There’s been some very positive changes within the lower “falling” world recently which was naturally met with much negative resistance, name calling, ego low-blow and all the typical negative comments and reactions that lower consciousness and lower energies have when confronted with higher energies, higher consciousness and positive change. They attack because they don’t want to change, grow, evolve or give up their control, wealth, power etc. They don’t want to die, they don’t want to change, and they don’t want anyone else to change or grow either because who would they have power over then? This is old well-known shit and not the point of this post.

On the other hand there’s been, for a long time now, a huge hold-up and endless waiting for, as many people still down in the lower world, lower old energies and lower patriarchal polarized consciousness, to get the hell on-board finally. We’ve been waiting and waiting and going back down energetically repeatedly year after year, usually getting repeatedly attacked verbally, physically and psychically,  as was The Plan among the real ‘system busting’ Lightworkers and Starseeds etc.

Since 2006, I’ve been well-aware of the fact that despite how much effort, energy, assistance, writing, LINK sharing and pointing out the energetic ascension Exit Door and all the Light shining through it I’ve personally been doing in multiple places, there are simply a lot of people who are not interested at all in any type of higher way, higher consciousness, higher energies, a new astrological Age or any of it. These people are very happy with their egos and left-brained patriarchal intellects and have no desire or intention to evolve or change or grow no matter to what degree the Universe, the astrological transits (the Planets, Eclipses, Solar flares and all other cosmic help), plus all the Lightworkers, Wayshowers, Starseeds etc. open energy doors for them to simply walk through. They’re not interested — not at all. They thoroughly enjoy what they have and I totally understand that and even why. Problem is however that it’s time to change, evolve, ascend and shift to a new higher level of being and consciousness and world now.

Because I’ve been conscious of being a Forerunner Lightworker since childhood, and I’m 57 as of this writing, my view and attitude about all this is probably a bit different and less warm n’ fuzzy and fluffy than some others. I’ve half jokingly referred to myself in years past as a Cosmic Janitor or a Blue Collar Lightworker meaning that I don’t mess around with any of this. This is hard, dangerous energy work and there’s nothing fluffy or gentle or easy about one fucking bit of any of it — at least not over the past 15 years or so. It’s hard, painful and dangerous Work that’s been done through many of us and our physical bodies and beings, as is the case with real Lightworking.

However, I’ve always believed that the entire population incarnate on earth now will NOT all go holding hands and skipping into the new higher Light together! Many people have believed this however so the rest of us Lightworkers have willingly waited and waited and waited and gone back repeatedly to allow more numbers of people to get on-board since 2006. I’ve personally taken a few beatings because of my doing this, and when we had to go back down a few energy stair steps during 2007–2008, that was absolutely it for me personally. When that last hold-up and go back down again to try to help, point out, or just leave bread crumbs of higher Light for other people down there ended in December 2008, I was so freaking exhausted and frazzled and ALL DONE with getting kicked in the nuts by the disbeliever’s down there. As far as I was concerned, they’ve had more than enough time to get with the higher evolutionary program and higher energies literally flooding the planet for this very purpose. I will no longer wait or go back down for them. It’s shit or get off the pot time humanity, and because of the “Free Will” business with this place, it’s totally up to you to do or not do, to get on-board or not get on-board. No right or wrong with any of this, simply Free Will and individual choice. BUT, we Lightworkers won’t forever be going back down energy stair steps just to point out a better, higher way of perceiving, living and being to the rest of unaware humanity. You’ve made your personal decision to not get on-board with this current evolutionary Ascension Process and that’s perfectly fine.

A couple of weeks ago I was so done, so finished with all of this, so done with the waiting, the going back down again and again to assist or spread information which is higher Lightso done with certain people, channelers, ascension teachers/writers etc. and their fluffy attitude about the ascension, shifting and Age change that I went on Strike! I shut down and energetically went on Strike and informed the higher levels and beings therein that if I’m supposed to be ‘...wearing my One Hat…’  then by freakin’ gawd you better get some assistance and help in here for us Elder exhausted Forerunner Starseed Lightworkers because I won’t wear all these hats anymore! It’s not my Job any longer to wear multiple cosmic hats for lower vibrating people who are infatuated with their egos, their intellects and their utter dis-empowerment and I am going on Strike until a newer NEW Plan is created and activated that frees us beat-up, exhausted, repeatedly attacked, invisible, disrespected and misunderstood Lightworkers. That’s it. I am done. It’s up to you Guys to re-work this thing now for those of us incarnate Lightworkers, Starseeds, Pathpavers etc. living in freaking no-mans-land for years and years and years waiting and working and waiting and working and waiting…

Karen said in her latest – “The chasm will be much greater than was planned.”  Also – “Everything had to stop in order to be re-set once again.”

That was my Lightworker Strike that everyone involved heard and discussed at higher levels. That was the end of this endless and exhausting waiting and going back down energetically for others. Like I said, I’ve always believed that the numbers who could ascend, who could make the jump to evolutionary light speed, who could and wanted to make the ascension “Harvest” this time around would be much less in number than many had believed. This isn’t anything new. It’s always been like this in past great cycles and again, there’s nothing wrong with this and no one on either side has “failed” in any way. It’s simply time to get the show on the road now is all. No more waiting, no more suffering fools, no more attacks from the unaware, no more living without a world under my ass! I want and deserve my NEW higher world now so let’s get this thing finally happening because no one else wants to get on-board for a higher ascending way at this point. And as is always the case, everyone will end up exactly where they each need to be. This one is impossible to screw up actually. Thanks for listening to my rant about this and my Lightworker Strike is now over.

Denise Le Fay

July 28, 2009

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PRIVATE CLUB: No Light Energies Tolerated Here!

Occasionally I’m impulsed or called to go back into lower vibrating forums (where angels fear to tread) for the single purpose of dashing in, writing a couple of posts, thereby holding up a lit Lantern for anyone there who’s ready to see it, who may resonate with what I’ve posted, or who were already looking for something vastly higher, and then get the hell out as fast as possible! I do not want to go back down into those types of lower vibrating “spiritual” forums at this point and normally I don’t unless I’m called or drawn there for very specific reasons.

You know some of those forums with the words “SPIRITUAL” and/or “LOVE” in their names? You know how they instantly manifest the polar opposite energies every time you, me, or anyone posts anything that they don’t believe in? You know those certain “spiritual” forums where they preach, rant, endlessly debate for pages and pages, intellectually masturbate over every topic, and instantly, viciously, attack anyone who thinks or perceives differently than they do? Someone who actually has the nerve to post about it on their energetically closed circuit forum! Those so-called “spiritual” forums where a few forum members and even Mods/Admins attack anyone who actually is vibrating faster than they are and is using something other than only their left brain intellects to perceive other levels, dimensions and states of awareness and being. There’s nothing more repulsive to me than when people use their tiny left brain intellects to try and investigate their right brains! It does not work that way no matter how many decades or lifetimes you try to make it so.

See and feel all their “SPIRITUALNESS”?  See and feel all their “LOVE”? Feel their intellectual patriarchal beliefs, egos and lower vibrating energies repeatedly trying to bludgeon you and your Light/Information, hammer you endlessly into a puddle of bloody mush?  Feel their  real Spiritualness and Love? All that is nothing more than the lower old world version of what they honestly perceive as true spirituality, knowledge or wisdom and love. Repulsive, scary and profoundly sad isn’t it?

This situation is exactly like an addict who’s stoned or drunk out of their skulls, but they honestly believe that no one is aware that they’re stoned, drunk, both and/or addicted! Or like someone who’s mentally ill but knows without any doubt that they are perfectly sane. These sorts of people honestly believe that the rest of us are so stupid we just do not see that they are drunk/stoned/mentally/emotionally ill/or still vibrating at a lower slower frequency! Self delusion. Grand and terrible self delusions. The truth is that far more people do see that you’re stoned or drunk or existing at a lower vibrational rate than you’d ever suspect. But how could you possibly know any of this being so self involved, so self-deluded, so disconnected, and so utterly NOT about “SPIRITUAL” and/or “LOVE” anything? The rest of us see this as clearly as we see everything else plus, we know why you’re still the way you are; why you still perceive what you do and why you do. Because we’ve walked through the transformational Alchemical Fires and have become more than that ourselves. You might reread that sentence again.

At the end of every Astrological Age—especially this one—the new higher incoming energies, consciousness and human carriers of it get attacked, killed off if possible, beaten and battered, distorted, lied about and so on by the people who fear actual spiritual change and growth. Remember the last Age change and how it supposedly went then? Today isn’t any different.

Another aspect of this is how quickly that dark violent gang mentality comes rushing in when a vibrational outsider posts something that’s beyond their forums lower vibrating Members Only Club frequency. Certain forum members and Mods/Super Mods/Ultra Fab Group Mods quickly rally around the vibrational outsider to literally take him/her/them down as quickly as possible to show the other forum sheeple members how “powerful” they are. “Off with his/her/their heads…” the call goes out across their forums and the alpha Mod Pack quickly comes in to kill off the real Light.

“Hey…we only intellectually preach and debate about things here! Nobody can come in here and actually claim to be living them themselves! What the hell do you think you’re doing here huh? Who the hell do you think you are anyway? Get the fucking hell outta our closed-off and totally energetically controlled Spiritual Forum Club!”

Of course none of them openly and fully says that to me or you. No, they dip their verbal negative shit in sweet sounding pious religious and/or “new age” poison and then sling it at me/you/us in open forum posts, PMs and emails. All the while feeling ever so “spiritual”, smug, and holier than thou. You’re going extinct and you don’t even realize it. We know who you are even if you don’t.

Denise Le Fay

July 30, 2008

The ‘American Dream’ Morphing Into A Nightmare

Well the so-called ‘American Dream’ has been revealed enough finally to see that it’s actually more of a nightmare. The lower falling is well underway across the country and you can easily see and hear the ‘American Dream’ crashing right and left from coast-to-coast, border-to-border. The sheeple people in the USA, and hopefully everywhere else too, are being rudely awakened from their deep, trance-like unawareness about the American Dream and asking, “Where’s my house? Where’s my job? Where’s my money? Where’s my savings? Where’s my security? Where’s my freedom?” Where has that long-promised, wonderful home owning, decent wage earning American Dream’ gone to anyway?

The numbers of people who’s American Dream was to own their own home is, has and will continue to rapidly become a nightmare I’m afraid. In the ongoing failings and falling apart of the old patriarchal world and its lies about the current ‘American Dream’, many more people will be forced to give up their homes and create an entirely different way for themselves.

I read something yesterday saying that the current governor of California is trying to get the minimum wage for state workers reduced to $6.55 an hour. That and so much more of course. Maybe someone needs to tell his royal Hollywoodness that gasoline in California is still around $4.40 a gallon. Not that his multimillionaire heartless lizard-self cares.

Oh well, stand back and let the falling of all that vibrates so much lower continue as needed. Just don’t forget that there’s a higher way, a higher plan being manifest now well above these old lower falling patriarchal layers, leaders and global systems.

Denise Le Fay

July 24, 2008

Fallout From Not Playing THE GAME

It’s amazing how upset some people get when you publicly don’t play the GAME with them. The game being the mindless and uncomfortable but expected lie of just smiling politely and saying “yes” to someone out in public when you don’t really want to. Kind of like when you get asked, “How are you?” and you lie, smile and say “I’m fine thanks and how are you?” when really you feel horrible. Mostly it’s automatic mindless banter that’s expected but holds no heart or real worth.

For me this all depends upon the person/persons involved, the entire situation and lots of other things as well, including what condition I’m in at the time. There are lots of reasons really why one day I’ll just go with the social flow out there and then, how on other days, I won’t sit still for much crap at all. Today was one of those days where the later applied.

I was in-line at a checkout in Wal-Mart unloading my cart when this woman, without a shopping cart and nothing in her hands, came up behind me. She immediately gave me the up/down eyeball thing a couple of times while I was unloading my shopping cart. She was sizing me up for her GAME plan. Now here’s were it all gets tricky for me.

Being a sensitive/psychic I could hear what she was thinking about me, at me, and that she was sizing me up as to how she’d ask me if she could cut in front of me to buy a pack of cigarettes. She was pushing so hard at me energetically and yet physically she didn’t move or say anything at this point. And during that minute I could, unfortunately, also psychically see some things about her and her life. Understand that I do NOT want to see into other people’s beings and lives…ick! But in cases where the person is blasting energies, emotions and thoughts at me, I hear and feel them and at the same time I then see into them and parts of their lives as well. So it’s not a case of me psychically trespassing because I have a huge issue about this, but about just picking up on someone because they’re blasting things at me.

By the way, this woman was in her mid-60’s and had been around the block a few times and had a lot of fun doing so…if you get my drift. She was not some sweet little old lady just wanting to buy a pack of smokes.

So after I hear, feel and see all that I did while I’m unloading my shopping cart and having hot flashes mind you, and she’s all up in my wee little space screaming at me in her head….which I can hear only too well; she finally physically asked me if I’d mind if she went in front of me to buy a pack of cigarettes. Imagine that! 😉

Now, because I’d been tolerating her screaming at me telepathically, blasting her ugly lowly energy all over me and my body, eyeballing me up and down the whole while I was working to unload my cart while energetically invading my tiny, little, three-foot space in line…I was not in the mood to politely smile, lie, and say, “Oh of course, just cut in front of me and get what you need.” Nope, I sure wasn’t today. I turned to her and said that if she needed to get those cigarettes that badly to just go ahead of me and hurry up about it! Grrrrrr. 

Gasp, stare, shock, mega feakin’ high drama!!!

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She was offended by my tone of voice and attitude and she let me know it…loudly. I couldn’t believe that because I didn’t buy into THE GAME and tolerate all of her previous energetic trespassing, blasting and rudeness, that because I didn’t immediately LIE and just take it all as I usually do, I was going to get even more crap from her now out loud  and with others watching and listening too. I guess that’s what’s to be expected when one dares to not play the GAME out in the lower world with some folks.

It got worse when her female friend joined her and she instantly began telling her, loud enough for me and everyone else to hear, about what a horrible thing I did to her. I couldn’t believe she was that loud about it all. Of course she’s going to bitch about my not playing the GAME, hell I’m blogging about her, but she had to push it further, louder. So I turned to her and told her I found it amazing that she was complaining about it loud enough for me to hear and then, try to project it all onto me and tell me to “calm down!”

If she only knew the whole truth. If she only knew how “calm” I must be all the time while perceiving loads of other data, emotions, horrible crap and visions that aren’t even mine! If she only knew…I’ve been more “calm” and tolerant and patient and understanding than most of humanity could comprehend for many, many decades already.

 

The learning for me as a sensitive and psychic today is that from here on out, whenever I sense it’s correct to do so of course, I’m going to just turn and look the invasive GAME playing trespasser in the eye and answer them before they open their mouths! I’m going to say “No, you can’t cut in front of me” BEFORE they’ve said a freaking word. I’m done letting them believe that their thoughts, feelings and energies are theirs alone and totally private! I’m done playing deaf, dumb and blind just to make them feel comfortable and leave their silly little reality intact. And if they choose to get more in my face, then I think I’ll just share some very personal information I’ve psychically seen from them because they were all up in my little space in the first place! That should at least get them thinking about playing THE GAME don’t you think?

Denise

February 29, 2008

Totally Different Now

I try very hard to dodge any and all things having to do with the Presidential Parade on TV. I do not like having to look at or listen to those horrible people (all the candidates) and they all are horrible people to me. Same old BS and cheesy lies n’ cons just coming out of different patriarchal mouths and faces is all it really is. It’s so deeply repulsive and downright ridiculousat this point that I avoid and override all of it. Besides, they have their agendas (not for much longer however) and the Light has ours.

Consciously and intentionally creating reality and it’s easier and manifests faster now than ever before. Heck, I could end this post right here.

As we sit here now teetering between the ending of the last 1-9 year cycle and jumping up to the next higher rung to begin a very new cycle of 1 (2008=1), I’m realizing just how dramatically so many of us have changed over these past 9–10 years! It’s stunning really when you stop and do a little review of yourself, your life, and everything else that’s happened since 1998–1999. Utterly incredible and I feel the Universe smiling very warmly because of it. Big “changes” are indeed coming, just very different ones than what the presidential pimp parade promises those foolish enough to still believe them.

I don’t think I could easily discuss all the changes I’ve personally lived through since the beginning of 1999 through to January 2008. I’m literally not the same person, not the same being, and that’s exactly what that 1–9 year cycle was all about. Lately I’ve been realizing what this new (1) cycle is indicating for me, for you, for earth, for humanity and it makes my heart smile and my soul greatly pleased. There are so many Unseen Beings who are in awe of what we’ve done in such a short period here. They knew…but we’ve gone farther faster and that is exciting the galaxy and beyond. The real fun is right around the corner and the corner is only months now instead of decades! Wow, it’s been a long time coming but it’s here finally and it’s us.

I understand how easy it is now (the new 1 cycle) to simply override all the things and situations that repulse me in the lower world and consciously create over it all. Honestly, it’s that simple now and it’s what this new 1 cycle of energy and consciousness is about for those of us who’ve done the work of the previous 1–9 cycle. We’ve cleared away all that needed to be and we now have a blank canvas to consciously create upon only what we want at this much higher state of being and consciousness. It won’t remotely resemble what we’ve left behind either! No no no…there is no comparison between what we’ve come from and where we’re headed right now, and I ask all of you to remember this and don’t make the mistake of recreating aspects of the old lower world in our new higher one. It’s an easy mistake at this point as we straddle these cycles; not completely anchored in the new 1, yet and shaking off and releasing the past 1–9 years of intense dark transformations.

Try to always realize that it’s wide open now and imagine and consciously create (intend, desire) a world reality that’s so beyond your highest greatest fantasies. Give yourself plenty of extra room to create/intend/desire even farther than what we can comprehend today. As an old beloved Master Teacher—Master Hotei the “Laughing Buddha”—told me a couple thousand years ago, “Always leave that door of eternal possibilities wide open.”

Denise

January 10, 2008

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