The Ascension Process & Eating & Digesting Difficulties

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“Dear Denise, Elila, Marilyn, Calliope, Morphqueen, and everyone else here and those commenting on food/eating issues. All I can say is I feel you all. My abdomen, also, looks like I’m about to give birth. No exaggeration – I look about 7-8 months pregnant. I’ve been battling this for years and it gets better and worse but always there. Truly, I can not find pants that fit – it is becoming a nightmare. Today, the jeans I wore to work have a waistband that came down around my abdomen and this big belly sticks out over the top – no judgment – but just to describe – looks like a big beer belly (but maybe bigger). And the eating – I lost about 15 pounds from summer to winter – couldn’t eat much of anything and really didn’t want to. Then I started craving all kinds of food – and I’ve gained some weight back. I mean, literally I am allergic to wheat gluten and soy and lactose intolerant. And most everything else bothers me too… Even water. It is very crazy making and I wish I could just get by without food. However, another issue is that food was always comforting to me – and now, when I often need comforting, I can’t even turn to food, though I’d like to – but the price I pay is too high b/c I feel so awful physically. I went to the movie yesterday and brought my own drink and indulged in some popcorn. This was my big treat for myself – then about 2 hours later felt awful and that lasted the rest of the evening. I look forward to your article Denise. Thanks, as always for all you do to keep this place for us, and thanks to all that write in.  Morgean”

I’ve quoted the Comment above by Morgean about the Ascension-related food/eating/digesting or lack of digesting miseries many of us have and still are struggling with. Thank you Morgean for your super honest Comment about this topic. The reason I used it in this article is because I’ve experienced, struggled with, been frustrated by and made utterly miserable by the identical things you mentioned since my biological Ascension Process started in February 1999. And I’m still struggling with many of them today. Actually, since the Shift I’ve noticed that some of my old food/eating/digesting symptoms have amplified and my body is in ultra sensitivity mode once again. Because of all the Comments surrounding this food/eating/digesting issue, I guess I should have talked about this particular Ascension symptom more fully years ago.

When I was twelve or thirteen I was tested by an allergy doctor and every liquid he jabbed into my arm reacted negatively, informing him and my parents that I was allergic to everything he’d poked into my body. Those things covered certain foods, milk, chocolate (oh dear gawd, anything but chocolate!), dust, pollen’s, and everything with “feathers and fur” (oh dear gawd, not animals!). It was horrible and I was pissed and went on to eat plenty of chocolate and love many an animal anyway.

I’m not one of those people who sneezes or gets congested due to allergies, instead I get nauseous, a sore throat, swell all over like I’m retaining water, get sick feeling like I’ve been poisoned, which I have been. I’ve often been envious of people who only sneeze and have to blow their noses because it seemed less nasty than the way my body reacts, such as vomiting and/or running a low-grade fever. The grass is always greener…

For me food was never something I was much attracted to, other than chocolate that is, and never ate much or wanted to spend much time, money or thought on food/eating/cooking etc. I know many people use food for different things but all of my life — up to the start of my physical, biological Ascension Process that is — food and eating was just something I had to do every now and again to keep my body from getting a screaming headache! In other words, I ate only because I had to put gas in my tank, and never more than a 1/4 of a tank a day. (I was very petite. Not the case any longer however!) Eating for me was never about fun or celebration or because it was super delicious or anything else but because it was a necessity that I put off until I absolutely had to eat something and then it was always a very small amount. I was happy with this system and it worked for me up until about age 40 — Uranus Opposition — when my body began changing for the first time in adulthood. I also entered Peri-menopause at that age which no doubt was another reason for the start of food/eating/body changes for me.

Jump forward to age 47 when my physical, biological Ascension Process began and the ultra super-duper insanity of it all started. The day that the Ascension Process started for me was the day the entire food/eating/not digesting and even drinking water nightmare began… and much more but this article is about Ascension-related problems with foods/eating/not digesting. Literally overnight I went from being one way my whole life to, to, to something else that was very sick constantly, ultra-sensitive to everything overnight, in pain constantly and so much more. I went from always being able to drink ice water to having to drink only room temperature water because anything cold would cause my upper gut diaphragm area to bloat so severely that I couldn’t take a deep breath, and often vomit in the end. It was exactly like being nine months pregnant and trying to eat Thanksgiving dinner; there simply isn’t any room for food or water due to the full-grown baby inside ones body. This is how it’s been for me almost constantly since February 1999.

Another aspect of this Ascension-related food, eating and not digesting misery is that I could eat one food one day or week and not have any negative reaction to it at all, but eat the same food two weeks or a couple of months later and have it nearly kill me. Since February 1999, eating for me has literally been like playing Russian Roulette. I never know despite my abilities to sense energies, discern, sense toxins etc., when some food is going to react in my body just like a poison and make me sick for anywhere between six to fourteen hours straight. I’ve gone through this so many times since 1999 it’s embarrassing, yet this is exactly what many of us have lived with due to needing to eat foods that are — no matter how pure or “organic” — still vibrating with physical and energetic toxins in them that our transmuting bodies have constantly struggled with. All that plus constant incoming higher frequency energies that amplify every lower frequency thing in and around us. No wonder it’s been so hard and painful a Process all these years.

And it hasn’t made any difference if I didn’t eat solid foods or any liquid foods, if I cut back on the amount of room temperature water I drank, or what foods I stopped eating altogether; nothing made the upper gut diaphragm area deflate back to what had always been normal for me before the Ascension Process started. Nothing. It’s still this way almost 14 years later. I suspect it’s a case of just get over it and adapt to this seemingly unending adapting!

On the other side of the “Three Days” — 12-21-2012, 12-22-12, 12-23-12 — and very much so since we entered 1-1-13, I’ve noticed another level of this food, eating and digesting misery has been reached (for me I mean, your mileage may vary) because my old symptoms have escalated, again. I also want to eat nothing now even more than I did before, yet, I still have occasional food cravings. After resisting them and seeing no improvements from that suffering, I’ve experimented diving into the bag of chocolate candies or potato chips or whatever it was then. Sometimes I got away with such a food indulgence and other times not. I so want to not need to eat anything at this point! I want to eat Light and Love again and have that be the NEW food source, which is coming.

Depending upon which phase one is in at the moment, one goes from needing to eat more high protein foods than one usually ever wants or needs. I went through almost a decade of needing, craving high protein foods. My big faves were Pot Roast and Peanut Butter, not together I mean! But it was so convenient to thrust a teaspoon into the Peanut Butter when my body was needing a quick boost of protein but I was too exhausted to cook anything. Before this period and after I almost gag just at the thought of either but this is how it’s been. One day, one month needing lots and lots of heavy high protein foods because your body is rapidly burning through it all because it’s transmuting tremendous inner density and unresolved old inner emotional stuff and junk etc.

Other days, other months, we go through Ascension-related phases of needing to eat much less food and when we do eat, much lighter density foods because we’re not transmuting like we were the weeks or months before and so on. (Same thing with the amount of pure water we’ve needed to drink during all this hot Ascension-related transmuting. Now that many of us are done with that intense phase, we’re not needing to drink as much water to help flush out the toxins and reduce the inner body Kundalini heat.) And back and forth it’s gone year-after-year. Weird food cravings one day or week or month to not wanting to eat anything and being literally repulsed by foods and the need to eat anything. Back and forth between wild and seemingly crazy food junkie-ness, to near abstinence of any food(s) completely. Eventually we’ll reach a sane, neutral point with this too.

Just like I didn’t care much about food/eating in general prior to the start of my physical Ascension Process, I also don’t personally care about the different solutions to eating/foods/digesting etc. either but that’s just me. I just want to get the transmuting done and move on to what I know is possible after this difficult transmuting phase.

I spent the first 40 years of this life being able to get by eating very little physical food and really filling myself up on Light and Creativity, which some people call “Love”. Being highly creative was for me, prior to the start of the difficult physical aspects of the Ascension Process, one way to eat, to ingest high frequency nutrition. I created in different ways but I was never physically hungry while in a highly creative state.

We’re evolving back to being totally self-contained and self-sustainable, within our own bodies I mean. Just you and Source recycling pure, undiluted God/Source/All That Is juice — Light and Love. No more parasitism, no more vampirism, no more opening an emotional vein for another person to energetically feed off from you and/or vice versa. Just you and Source and your Higher Self feeding one another freely and honestly. And if you want or need to ingest some physical food then you can do that too if you desire but it won’t be your only source of food; the Light (knowledge) and Love (creativity) frequencies will also be your NEW ascended nutritional food sources.

I mentioned in a Comment on another article how I enjoy viewing refracted Lights and pure colors because I gain energetic nutrition from viewing them. I also gain nutrition when I hear a baby or young child laugh, or watch animals playing, running, flying or swimming with each other. I also gain nutrition when I hear certain music that moves me, or when someone says something that I find very funny. I gain nutrition when it rains, when the sky and Sun looks so pristine and glorious. I gain nutrition when another person gains more freedom, more understanding, and more self-empowerment. We can do nine more months to reach this and much more like it can’t we? Of course we can. ❤

Denise Le Fay

January 23, 2013

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The Princess & the Pea Sensitivities

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I don’t remember the entire Princess And The Pea story but I do remember her suffering because of some wee little pea under her mattress that felt to her as if it was the size of a huge boulder. From your current perspective, what have you been feeling lately that feels boulder-sized?

I’ve repeatedly gone through this phase of feeling things, energies, emotions, other people’s emotions, weather changes, earth changes, astrological energy changes, solar energy changes, cosmic, galactic energy changes and having them all feel—to me—like the Princess’ boulder-sized pea! I know many of you can relate to this miserable phase of our endless Shifting or transitioning. The freaking little pea/peas feel to us like boulders and they make it nearly impossible to sleep, or much of anything else for a while.

Once I/you/us transmute the majority of our inner stuff (by stuff I mean lower frequency unresolved, polarized, stuck emotional energies, our inner wounds, fears, hates, guilt, low self-esteem, ego aspects that hang us up in different ways and so on), the tiniest little thing, issue, emotion, thought, or word spoken or written by someone can feel to us not like a pea but a hot, monstrous, boulder-sized pain that trips us up and sends us reeling back into some lower unpleasant state for however long it takes me/you/us to energetically crawl our ways back out of it, yet again.

In other words, once you’ve transmuted the majority of your personal lower frequency inner stuff via the Ascension Process, you literally cannot tolerate being back down in a lower frequency or emotional or mental state for long at all. Even if what you’re feeling and reacting to is pea-sized, to you it now feels boulder-sized, and utterly intolerable for more than a few minutes. Once you’ve gone energetically clear as crystal, it’s a real painful mess when something comes sailing past that effects you in a lower way and now you’ve gotten a little pea-sized section of lower frequency dirt and density back in yourself again. It feels like a freaking boulder and hurts now even more than it ever did before, but this is where higher evolved/ascended 5D responsibility, consciousness, and conscious creating REALLY becomes my/your/our new higher reality under our feet. Being more conscious of your consciousness is just a great sentence until you actually have to do it, live it, be it constantly. Aah, more spiritual growing pains. Feel those seriously high-powered Cardinal T-square/opposition energies creating a new higher reality inside of us? Little peas and huge boulders; keeping a higher frequency, and then not keeping a higher frequency; pressure and more pressure to maintain our clear as crystal-like state even while having our backs seemingly broken on that damned little pea under our energetic mattresses; not getting pulled out of the quiet eye of the storm into wounding lower frequency debris flying around at 500 MPH!

We can intellectually understand the whys of different things, but typically we still become emotionally wounded or effected in some way by someone else’s pea-sized tidbit of lower emotional debris that flew close to us and temporarily knocked us out of alignment. No blame at either end as this is how we learn to maintain a higher frequency of energy internally and externally — by “falling” out of it a few times. We’ll do this more than a few times to really learn how to NOT have it repeatedly happen and to eventually NOT have those peas feel like boulders and effect us at all.

Another aspect of this that I’ve had for years now is when some pea-sized something does get in under my emotional skin, later that night I will unintentionally dream about the irritant—whatever or whoever it was—to immediately resolve the energetic discord I’m feeling caused by both my reactionary lower frequency energies and the original irritant energy. Thankfully, only hours later while asleep the lower frequency pea-sized energies are transmuted and fully cleared during dreaming. One way or another, one dimension and body or another, we now very quickly transmute the lower energetic pea/boulder irritant and get ourselves back into higher alignment and crystal clarity once again.

Denise

July 24, 2010

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