First Wave Lightworkers

The Dark Is Lashing Out…Again

Denise Le Fay 50 Comments

OKAY, LET’S DO THIS

I’ve been under psychic attack by the Dark Side of the Force —aka Team Dark as I call them all—for the past month now. My 81-year-old Mom and my much beloved cat have been too, and it’s been horrible as it always is. Those of you who’ve read A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution will be able to understand this post a bit better than those who haven’t. But, this current multidimensional Battle is something I knew would happen and I mentioned this in my post about The Hathors/Tom Kenyon’s “World Meditation”. I said there would be an energetic backlash from the Dark negative Beings over this planetary meditation to remove and free-up the souls who’ve been controlled and used via certain limiting religious beliefs, and beliefs that Earth is just a source for humanity to heartlessly, disrespectfully and greedily use. My problem is that I can consciously know certain things, even write about them and still not instantly catch when I’m under psychic suppression/attack by the Dark… yet again! Embarrassing but true, and something I feel certain some people will benefit from once I share my recent experiences.

Back in October 2010 I suddenly began having difficulties when trying to mentally and emotionally focus and/or intend and Consciously Create certain things for myself and my family and friends. Normally this is an effortless process for me and I should have recognized my symptoms as those of negative interference but I didn’t. There are reasons for this however which we’ll get to. Everything, even these types of negative Dark attacks are lessons, Initiations, stages and phases within the ongoing Ascension Process for many of us (not all however) and they are perfect in their wisdom even though they’re negative and horrible. This is how I learn even more about a subject I’m already well versed in, so I’m grateful to be able to pass this knowledge on to any others who may benefit from it because they too have been or currently are under psychic multidimensional attack by the Dark because they are First Wave Lightworkers.

As the days passed I was having more difficulty mentally and emotionally focusing on certain higher things I’d been working on for myself and family. I began sliding down into a mild depression, frustration, sense of victim-hood, decreased vitality, decreased strength, decreased everything! About this time my Mom and I suddenly started getting frustrated with each other and both of us wanted out, wanted to live alone and not be bothered with each other. My cat also began throwing up his food every few days which is very unusual for him. He also displayed huge decreases in his vital life-force and he looked and acted sad and sick, which was so hard to witness. At one point I even wondered if he was dying. (If you’ve read my book, remember the horrific demonic attacks  and  then the orange tiger kitten.) Again, I should have easily recognized all of this as common symptoms of negative psychic attacks and also of highly focused interference with all three of us, but I didn’t put all the pieces together. This too is another common symptom and tactic used by the Dark against us; they cause us to think that all is well, that nothing is wrong and that it will pass eventually. Remember this powerful tactic as it may save your life and/or sanity.

The tensions, frustrations, and sense of being trapped increased, the desire to physically separate from my Mom and her from me, the cat repeatedly getting sick and obviously suppressed energetically, absolutely NOT being able to mentally and emotionally focus on higher frequency things I wanted and needed to focus on, and constantly being pulled back down into emotions such as anger, frustrations, victim-hood, and all-around lower frequency thoughts and emotions. I could not maintain any higher frequency thoughts and emotions as is normal for me, but kept finding myself  quickly back down in these lower states with little ability to pull my focus in, redirect it and most importantly, maintain it at a higher level.

The next big clue with all this was a lucid “dream” I had on November 6, 2010. I know when I’m having “dreams” that my subconscious have produced for me, and I also know when I have actual other-dimensional encounters with both positive and negative Beings in them. This was not a  subconscious “dream” but an actual encounter with some very real, very ancient, and very Big Bad Old Dudes out there. I’ve been through these types of lucid astral encounters and attacks many times throughout my lifetime, however this one was a first in that these negative Dark Beings interacted with me very differently than they ever have prior. Huge clue this one.

Briefly this “dream” state encounter was with a small group of GIANT non-human male Beings. (They looked like a slightly different version of the negative Reptilian beings.) What really affected me in this encounter/attack was that these Dark negative male beings were so huge. They were giant giants, about twenty-five to thirty foot tall with massive, heavily muscled bodies. They were the multidimensional Bad Asses behind the mediocre physical plane human Bad Asses, and that information came from them. They let me know in this meeting that they are the non-physical Puppet Masters, the other-dimensional Dark beings that run and control the negative humans who in turn run the negative systems and beliefs on Earth. You see, the Dark physical patriarchal human bastards have much bigger non-physical Dark bastards that control them and they’re very, very ancient Dark Beings that are giant giants.

This dream attack didn’t last too long but cut right to the chase and eventually the main being in this Group of Dark beings picked me up and tossed me around like I was a rag doll, which I was in his huge hands. He then proceeded to try to intimidate me by holding me inches in front of his huge non-human face while he threatened me, raged at me, and revealed things to me I couldn’t believe he was stupidly doing. However, this is what the Dark does when it’s at the end of its rope; it finally reveals some aspects of itself to some of us which helps us put many more interdimensional pieces together, but also to see that they’re no longer capable of kickin’ my (your) ass as they have been. The why of this is one of the biggest points in this whole story and process.

Normally I would easily exit the dream attack at this scary and dangerous point, but I didn’t in this case because I was lucid and knew something very important was behind this unusual in-my-face high drama Dark threat and theatrics. By having these negative beings showing me what they look like, which these types of negative beings do not typically do unless they’re in a corner, they revealed that the power has recently shifted big time. So, I remained and let this giant Dark alien being shake me around, threaten and intimidate me. He was frightening, but I knew more was going on than all his yelling, intimidations and threats. Once he was done trying to paralyze me with fear, I then intentionally exited the dream and woke myself up. I sat there in my dark bedroom thinking about what I’d just experienced and had to smile because all is NOT as it first appears.

I should also mention that for a week prior to this November 6, 2010 dream I’d been having nightly dreams of integrating, connecting with unknown-to-me human males which I also recognized as indicating something else. By night-three of these nightly dreams I realized that another level of my/our Male/Female, Female/Male selves and energies were being energetically reunited in ways that haven’t been possible for a very long time. To me this was simply another level of my own Sacred Marriage with my rewired male/masculine counterparts (brain halves, selves and energies), but also of my being a First Wave Lightworker and energy Lightning Rod for the rest of humanity and the Earth’s NEW higher 5D Grid Systems. We First Wave Lightworkers/Starseeds/Wayshowers still ground, hold, anchor and enable higher energies to manifest into Earth and the new Grid through our own bodies, consciousness, hearts and beings.

On November 8th Mom and I had to do some shopping and both of us were surprised to see so many giant male people in the grocery store. There were human patriarchal males all over the place and terribly obvious in that symbolic and polarized way. This was just one more symbolic clue in a growing list of clues that things are changing and improving in massive ways now, both in us and through us on multiple dimensions and Earth.

There’s more of course but I’ll only cover the main events. I suspect we’ll get into more aspects of this in Comments. Here’s a short recap of symptoms and clues that you—as a Lightworker and/or Starseed—are under psychic attack and intentional interference by Dark non-physical beings:

  1. You have a dream or dreams of being attacked by Dark negative beings, aliens, creatures etc.
  2. You can’t mentally/emotionally remain focused on higher level things you want to focus on to Consciously Create
  3. You slowly become more depressed, unfocused, sad, angry, frustrated, immobilized, sick, depleted, victimized, weak with low vitality
  4. You want to run away and be alone. You don’t think to call in help of any kind. You just sit, unable to make your mind work like it normally does
  5. A family member and/or friend and/or pet or other loved one also comes under negative psychic attacks around the same time as you do

My friend who lives up north also came under negative psychic attack a couple of weeks ago while in the “dream” state, but it too was an actual encounter and a direct psychic multidimensional attack upon her and not something from her subconscious.

This morning I discovered Lisa Renee’s November 2010 article “The Restoration” in my email box. I printed it out and read it aloud to my Mom and lifetimes of Lightwork (physical and multidimensional) fell into place for us both. I cannot say how grateful I am to Lisa Renee for this particular article at this time. It’s perfect and a total confirmation for me, my Mom, and no doubt for many of you as well, not to mention how relieved my cat is! Sometimes some of us must tread into the Dark yet again so our Work in and of the Light holds more conscious meaning and empowerment for us. If you too have recently been Battling with the Dark Ones again, this is why. We’re almost done because we’re almost there and the Dark Ones are finally on their way out.

Denise Le Fay

November 9, 2010

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Transmuting More Layers

Denise Le Fay 20 Comments

LAYERING

It’s always amused me how many people believe they’ve transmuted everything within themselves because they had a rough few days or weeks! It takes a whole lot more than just a few days, weeks or months to peel away the numerous layers of accumulated stuff from having involuted into physicality. Sorry but the evolutionary Ascension Process isn’t something that can be accomplished over a  weekend!

REMOVING THE LAYERS, PIECE BY PIECE

In the mid-1980’s a male friend shared an unusual dream he’d recently had. I thought his dream was very insightful for the mid-1980’s, and was impressed by its clear-cut symbolism. His dream consisted of him struggling to climb up a huge steep mountain while dragging along all of his prized possessions in heavy suitcases. The farther up this mountain he climbed, the heavier his many suitcases became, making it increasingly difficult and dangerous to keep trying to drag them up the steep and rocky terrain.

Once he’d reached the halfway point up this huge mountain, he knew he wouldn’t make it if he did not LET GO OF his many suitcases that contained his hard-earned and much-loved possessions. And so, after tremendous physical struggling and painful emotional deliberation over his precarious situation, he decided it would be worth it to release his many suitcases containing his prized possessions and continue climbing that mountain free of them all. If nothing else, just putting the suitcases down would make the rest of his treacherous journey up the mountain that much easier and safer he decided.

I so loved and respected that man in those short fifteen minutes it took him to relay his spiritual dream message. What a profound truth his dream was and is for so many of us decades later, crawling, exhausted and bloody up that steep mountain, many still clutching one or more of their increasingly heavy suitcases containing precious personal 3D belongings.

MASTER IT, RELEASE IT AND MOVE ON

Belly Dance with veil

         (Denise Le Fay 1991)

One of my passions in my earlier Denise life—my life prior to the biological start of the Ascension Process—was Belly Dancing. I spent years mastering the dance steps and intricate body isolationss, the wondrous joy of spinning well, the foreign music and rhythms, mastering zill playing (finger cymbals), designing and making my own costumes and lastly, the fine art of performing and eventually performing well. (The photo above is me from a very long time ago. Time has marched on, and on…)

After nearly twenty years of doing this and loving all aspects of it, once I had mastered all the physical, emotional, mental, psychological and energy manipulation aspects of Belly Dance and performing, within a few short months I needed to retire completely at the ripe old age of thirty-nine (the famed Uranus Opposition)! There would be no lengthy phase of basking in the ease and comfort of mastering performing Belly Dance or anything else. I had achieved what I’d set out to do, had learned all I needed to from it on multiple levels and it was simply time for me to set those much-loved suitcases down, full of colorful exotic goodies and continue climbing the Ascension Mountain.

RELEASING MORE SUITCASES

What’s that old  Piscean Age religious line…? “…it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of god…”

In mid-July 2010 I was suddenly lam-blasted by the necessity of releasing another of my “personal suitcases”. This particular suitcase contained my original passion and earlier Lightworker Service work through TRANSITIONS. In much the same way as my Belly Dancing career (and others), I’d reached the point where I had to let go of how I’ve interacted with TRANSITIONS and why. Once again I’d reached another level of Retirement from an old way of being, of Lightworker Serving, and of intense focus and creativity. Literally overnight in mid-July 2010, I went from TRANSITIONS being my primary place of Service, creativity and passion to zero interest and no one was more surprised by this than me.

Because I still had some personal issues, energies, emotions, Phase One and Phase Two habits and past Service Work patterns stuffed inside my ancient First Wave Lightworker Pathpaver suitcase, I’d taken far more care of it than I had of my physical body and that had to end now.

I’ve known since early 2006, that this day was coming for me (what’s happening in summer 2010 to many of us) and that there always comes a point where I (you, each of us) must yet again let go of and release some particular suitcase(s)  to continue climbing up the evolutionary ascension mountain. More accurately at this point, to die some more and pass through that minuscule eye of the needle portal to the Other Side totally 3D baggage-free.

This suitcase contained my scant remaining Phase One and Phase Two ascension survival  items, a couple personal comfort goodies, and a few old habits that at this point I desperately needed to offload. I simply could not do this however until I was triggered to do so, and I was triggered in a sudden and dramatic you’ve-got-no-more-choices-about-this type of Uranian way in mid-July 2010.

Now, midway through August 2010, I’m still adjusting physically to having dropped this particular suitcase like it was toxic, which it had become, and as I said in an earlier post, come fall 2010 I know I (and some of you) will begin the very first stages of re-learning how to be and create consciously as suitcase-less beings.

HOW MANY TIMES CAN A GUY DIE IN ONE LIFE ANYWAY?!

Obviously, plenty of times which brings us back to the seemingly endless un-layering, transmuting and then offloading stair step (mountain climbing) process that ascension is. I’ve said this before but it took some serious Multi-D doin’ and plannin’ to get our  high frequency Light selves down enough vibrationally to fit in tiny, dense, physical container bodies within a dense, polarized physical 3D world. Once here we immediately began collecting plenty of suitcases and stuffed each of them full of our fabulous and colorful travel souvenirs because that’s what it’s been about in pre-ascension 3D physicality; collecting precious soul souvenirs from all the lives, timelines and countries you’ve lived, created, learned from and died within.

But, as it is now with the ascension/compressed evolutionary/Age change process, we do this process in reverse. We must now be baggage-free and clear enough that nothing gets snagged and caught on us as it flows past or as we flow past it. Wheat from the chaff. We must be suitcase-free on all levels, even the earlier and familiar Phase One and Phase Two Lightworker/Path Paver/Wayshower/Starseed levels. Once we’ve reached this new state (lets call it Phase Three for now), we will finally be ready on all levels to be the 5D conscious creators and Aquarian group co-creators of our ascended new earth world.

WHERE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT POINT IN A NATAL CHART?

Thirty-six years ago I asked my elder esoteric Astrology teacher where the most important point or area was in my astrological birth chart. Without skipping a beat he swiftly pointed his index finger at the very center point of my natal chart—where there was NOTHING—and tapped it in Master Yoda-like fashion. I looked at him and did the typically neophyte reaction and nodded in agreement—because I really did understand—but nonetheless asked him again where the most important point in my natal chart was! He looked me in the eye and gently shook his head and smiled then pointed out one particular planet and house in my natal chart.

Point is and always has been that, in the end, the most important point is in the center where there seems to be NO-THING. No precious travel souvenirs, not even any suitcases, just the reduced, refined, purified, integrated and greatly enhanced YOU. Once we have nothing left in us but calm, honest unattached contentment we’ll have access to it all and most likely won’t give a damn one way or the other! Ha, Mastery and Conscious Creating anew draws near.

Denise Le Fay

August 19, 2010

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Dream About Ancient Gods & Goddesses Awakening

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I had an important Ascension-related dream in 1985 that spoke symbolic volumes about what was coming for myself and many others. Of course I didn’t know all that at the time however. Here’s my dream:

embossed diamonds

This dream was set in current time (which was then 1998) and I was with a small group of other people I didn’t know. We’d all headed for the Great Pyramid in Egypt because something was going to happen soon. Those of us who’d made it there were supposed to be there for this mysterious event. We didn’t know what it was or what was going to happen, only that we had to be there when it did!

So there we were, this small group of strangers from around the planet, standing barefoot in the warm sand near the Great Pyramid in current day Egypt wondering what exactly was up. We checked each other out and sensed that something very special and positive was going to happen soon. After waiting there for a while, some local Egyptian males dressed in traditional white Galabeyas came popping out from around the corner of the massive Pyramid stones. (I’ve never been to Egypt physically in this life.) They were slowly and laboriously pushing, rolling out multiple huge metal scaffolds into an open area for us to easily view.

We silently watched the Egyptian men push these six or seven huge metal scaffolds out in front of us and a few yards from the Great Pyramid. On top of each one of these scaffolds were two, three, or four large statues of ancient Gods and Goddesses (not only ancient Egyptian ones) laying on their sides. The Egyptian men worked fast maneuvering the scaffolds into place and quickly left the area again, leaving us bewildered foreigners staring up at the numerous massive ancient statues.

We glanced questioningly at each other, then back up at the massive ancient statues of Gods and Goddesses when suddenly the sky overhead started to change. Clouds suddenly blew in and thunderclaps shook the ground around us. The tension was building and we all wondered what in the world was going to happen at the base of the Great Pyramid. What high drama! Suddenly I knew it was the last day of 1999 and this was the activation of something very big and incredibly important for everyone everywhere.

In the next second the massive statues on top of the scaffolds began to wake up and slowly come to life! Those of us on the ground below them watching this strangeness unfold became very excited and happy and we all started applauding. Slowly and carefully these sacred ancients became animated, and as they did, the outer statue crust material around them all fell off, turning to dust on the Egyptian sand below. We small humans watched the giant statues come to life through this amazing Process, with great excitement and fascination. Eventually these ancient Gods and Goddesses fully woke and came down from the tall metal scaffolds each one had been on.

It was at that moment that those of us who had been watching this event suddenly realized that we were the ancient Gods and Goddesses who’d awakened and were the only ones actually standing there!

End of dream.

embossed diamonds

Another very potent, and at the time difficult personal experience that started around 1995 for me was, some of my dearly beloved Star Family from Orion, Sirius, and the Pleiades leaving me! I’d never mentioned this before because I didn’t want to worry or frighten anyone who was still having an ongoing, long-term, love affair co-worker partnership with some of their own higher dimensional Stellar Family and Friends.

What I mean is that these three much-loved Starbeing kinsfolk who’d been telepathically, energetically and clairvoyantly connected to me in this life and timeline from the age of three that I’ve consciously remembered – and also in a “past” life in 12,600 b.c. Egypt that directly connected to this current life – were in the process of slowly retreating from me at the start of my physical, biological Ascension Process.

These three and a few others have always been nearby energetically so I could call on them for further insights, guidance or suggestions whenever I needed. This was normal to me all of my life, but, as the start of my physical biological Ascension Process neared (it activated fully on the physical level February 1, 1999), these beloved Starbeing Family I’d known for so very long began to retreat.

After paying attention to this retreating for about six months I finally telepathically called on them to explain why they were slowly backing away from me energetically. As always they were instantly there and telepathed their response saying that the time had arrived where they had to leave me on my own to live through this very important Process that was coming in about two years. At that time around 1996, and later in February 1999 and for a few years after that, I didn’t consciously know about the coming Ascension Process.

They told me that nothing would ever cause them to intervene in any way with my going through this coming Process. They said I had to go through it on my own and without any support or guidance. It would ruin everything if they did and they would never interfere with a soul’s growth or mission, such as the one I was preparing to begin.

And so my three primary Starbeing Family and support team retreated energetically until I could no longer feel or clarivoyantly See them. By the time my Ascension Process began in February 1999, they were long gone. I love them even more however for leaving me to go through all that I did—and still am all these difficult years later—without them nearby to call on for help or guidance.

At critical points in our spiritual growth and soul work such as the current Ascension Process, we are left on our own for the purpose of triggering us to become more ourselves. I now have more of myself and Higher Self as my “guides” and “teachers” that I access when I desire more information/Light about something. Gods and Goddesses waking up and walking the new higher frequency ascended Earth as new higher Beings of Light — and they are you and me.

I know this is accurate because I’ve been living it for many years and my three beloved higher dimensional Starbeing consultants have indeed moved on also. I’ve seen this retreating of some very ancient higher dimensional Starbeings before thousands of years ago in ancient Egypt. Evolutionary Stairsteps for all of us in all of the different dimensions. I’ve also seen that some of us Starseeds who’ve embodied the Ascension Process and anchored the new blueprints for the next Great Cycle of learning will become the new “guides” and new spiritual “teachers” to others, much as my three Starbeing Family were to me. Everyone evolves into new levels and roles at these grand transitions.

As a Starseed there were so many times in this life where the Homesickness I felt was so great and so painful emotionally I didn’t think I’d be able to do what I volunteered to incarnate now to do, but I have, and so have many of you reading this. We’ve all done a remarkable job no matter where we’ve each been stationed during this Universal Ascension Process.

Denise

April 23, 2008

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