Two Lightbeings Helping Two Starseeds

 If you’ve read A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution then you’re aware that I and my Mom both have had numerous multidimensional interactions with positive Starbeings/Lightbeings/ETs etc. And if you’ve read it and my blog over the years, then you’re also aware that we’ve both had numerous negative interactions (attacks) from Team Dark also. Especially as a Starseed/Lightworker/Wayshower here now on this Ascension Mission transmuting and integrating duality and many other things, it simply means that you’ve been dealing with both extremes and taking a lot from Team Dark because of it which hasn’t been easy to say the least!

I mention this because some new readers will think that the story I’m about to share is a first-time event for me when in fact it’s only one more of many I and my Mom both have experienced throughout our lives, especially during our twenty-one Ascension years living and working together. And because it’s one more of many such experiences, it’s the differences in it that are important and telling to me as an Elder Starseed Lightworker and the real reason behind why I’m sharing it.

Even though this event happened on October 15, 2012 — the New Moon at 22° Libra 32′ which I sensed beforehand would be unique in some way — we both have felt different pressures and probabilities building throughout 2012. One of those building probabilities was the possible, I repeat possible death of my soon-to-be 83-year-old Mother. (Her 83rd Sagittarius birthday is a couple of weeks before December 21, 2012, and my 61st Capricorn birthday is two days after it.)

To be very clear about what I’m saying here, I’ve been acutely aware over the past thirteen Ascension years of the different times when my own possible, potential, probable physical death was nearby IF that’s what I wanted to do at those times. Every time I felt it present as a probable reality I consciously chose to remain in-body and physically complete my Starseed Lightworker ascension work. All of us have these different probable or possible exit points (times when we could physically die very easily and quickly IF we wanted to) come and go throughout our Ascension Process, however, most Starseeds/Lightworkers choose to stay in-body and finish their Contracts on Earth in physicality. When I’ve felt strong potential, probable, possible exit points come and go for myself over these past thirteen Ascension years, it was easy for me to decide to stay and finish what I volunteered to come to 3D Earth now to do. I’ve put way too much into all of this to exit my physical body at this late date! The same has been true with my Mom over these past intense thirteen Ascension years…up until the start of 2012 that is.

Neither of us talked with each other about it this year even though we both were consciously aware of it as an increasingly strong probable or possible reality for her in 2012. Because of this subtle building possibility she and I have been aware of this year — but not talked about with each other which is unusual for us — I’ve been extremely aware of how reality could so easily and quickly change dramatically for her and for me because we’ve lived and worked the very difficult biological phase of the Ascension Process under the same roof since the end of October 1991. [See A Lightworker’s Mission] All of this and more has been our pre-incarnational Soul Contracts we each made for our current lives to embody and live the Ascension Process through our physical bodies on 3D physical Earth; to have each others backs while we did it; combine our individually small finances by living together so we could live and function more easily during the very intense and difficult ascension work we agreed to do.

We both were consciously aware that a possible, potential, probable exit point — physical death — for my Mom was presenting itself this year, but like me, she too has decided to stay in-body and complete her Soul Contract this way. The problem with this however was that Team Dark evidently was aware of this potential exit point too and moved on it in an attempt to separate her from her physical body…and the two of us for the obvious reasons. For my Mom to die now would immediately throw my Ascension work and life into a serious mess because my income would stop which is exactly what Team Dark was after. Divide and conquer is one of their main tactics and always has been. Said another way, many of us older First Wavers who are also having to take care of and/or help our elder parent(s) have experienced this tactic as another attempt to slow us down from doing our spiritual Ascension work during 2012. Team Dark does not care how or who or what; they only care about stopping, preventing, derailing or destroying the Starseeds/Lightworkers/Wayshowers and if they can do that by attacking or killing a family member and/or beloved pet, then that’s what they try to do and why.

The way Team Dark tried to make my Mom sick was to interfere with her remembering to take one prescription she takes at 2:00 PM every day. (Amongst other things she has acute Chronic Bronchitis — COPD.) I help her with all of her other medications, but this one she could easily take every day by herself. But, she suddenly began forgetting to take this one particular breathing med back in early September 2012. Normally I would be at my computer writing and would always know it was 2 PM because I’d hear her inhale this med every day like clockwork. However, in early September I was profoundly exhausted and weak myself and was falling asleep nearly every afternoon, and because of this wasn’t aware for weeks that she was being helped to forget to take this particular medication every day.

Of course it didn’t take long at all of her missing a few days of this medication in the first-half of September to start her coughing again, plus she was suddenly having really serious pains in her chest area. Not her heart, but her whole chest and lungs into her back. Very quickly she became more frail and weak, was running a low fever and loosing some more weight. (Imagine what it must be like being in your seventies and eighties and living the Ascension Process as a Starseed Lightworker! Now imagine coming under repeated attacks from Team Dark/the Negatives because you are from Team Light. Imagine how exhausted and weak you might feel if you were that age in 2012 and being interfered with like this to cause you to become sick or sick enough to possibly die.

FIRST TRIP TO URGENT CARE

Instead of immediately going to Urgent Care we both thought it best to try a few other things first so that’s what we did. Her debilitating coughing only continued, plus she started having a fever too which I knew meant her lungs were infected. It was around this time that she confessed she’d been forgetting to take her 2PM medication in September. I also remembered that I’d forgotten for like the fifth time during August and September to go to the pharmacy and replace another of her inhaler devices (a plastic tube to inhale meds through) because it was old and not working as it should have been. Can we say interference?! But, it was too late, she was sick by this point and getting both of her breathing meds in her correctly wasn’t enough to solve the problem so off to Urgent Care we went in early October.

Long story short, Mom’s female doctor works at this Urgent Care office also (hence the only reason we go to it) so she was already familiar with my Mom, her COPD, her meds etc. Problem was that the doctor didn’t attack her lung infection and coughing really hard like she has in years past when this has happened, but this time gave Mom a lower dosage antibiotic and other lung medication. Translated this simply meant that after taking both of those meds given at Urgent Care for her Chronic Bronchitis in early October, they weren’t strong enough so they only made things slightly better. Frustrations galore and I’m realizing that we’re being interfered with again and need to amp-up our defenses against these Team Dark tactics. Gawd they are tenacious and determined.

During the week that Mom’s on the antibiotics and prednazone I knew it wasn’t going to completely cure her lung infection and coughing so I told her that the day she took the last two pills we were going straight back to Urgent Care again if I heard her cough once! We talked about all of this and what had gone on with her forgetting to take her 2PM breathing medication and my passing out at that time so I’d not be aware that she’d forgotten to take it. We got up-to-speed in other words and realized that we both we being interfered with and that we both needed to go into Light Warrior mode yet again despite the sickness, despite the exhaustion, despite the mental interference.

SECOND TRIP TO URGENT CARE

Mom finished her two prescriptions but was still coughing so the next Monday morning we were at Urgent Care again for a second round of stronger antibiotics and prednazone. Now here’s where Team Dark shows up more physically and through a stranger(s) which I’ve experienced innumerable times.

Because there were plenty of younger adults and young kids in Urgent Care the week prior and they all were sick with highly contagious flu viruses or colds, I was concerned about both of us being stuck in the waiting room with those contagious strangers. (1.) Mom catching some virus like that could make her very sick and weak enough to end up in the hospital and/or kill her. (2.) I have no insurance and pay cash when I need to go to the dentist or Urgent Care…which is extremely rare because I absolutely abhor those places/systems and all other patriarchal ones like them! Because of these reasons I was concerned about Mom and I being trapped in the Urgent Care waiting room with a bunch of highly contagious adults and children. Mom’s Chronic Bronchitis isn’t contagious so that wasn’t an issue.

Whenever we leave our house I make sure we both have done Lisa Renee’s 12 D Shield, and when needed I also expand the Light field when we have to go into especially energetically unpleasant and/or physically contagious places such as Urgent Care to further protect us both on multiple levels. This second trip to Urgent Care I wanted to get there a few minutes before they opened so we wouldn’t have to sit there with other contagious people for too long. As I drove into the parking lot there was one car ahead of us trying to get there first. I parked next to it and the woman in that car saw my weak, frail, coughing 82-year-old Mother and rushed to get herself and her teenage daughter in line ahead of us.

We’re standing in line outside the Urgent Care entrance waiting for it to open and this truly repulsive low-frequency woman and her teenage daughter are in front of Mom and I, which is where I’d rather they were instead of behind us actually. These two people are of the lower frequency and consciousness group and are very easy and receptive human puppets that non-physical Team Dark manipulate to affect other people and situations etc. In cases such as this, no one needs to say a word or physically do anything because the extreme differences in Light/Dark energies and the immediate irritations and repulsion they cause are energetically reverberating like invisible bombs exploding in the space around us all; higher and lower frequencies and consciousness clashing and greatly irritating each other while trapped within the same physical space together.

Urgent Care opens after about fifteen minutes and everyone signs in and sits down to wait to be seen. I seat Mom by the open door so she’s got fresh air and is as close to our car as I could get. The lower frequency Mother and daughter sit down in chairs directly opposite us…of course. While waiting I found an empty spot on the floor to stare at so I could telepath to the doctor, whoever it was that day, to hurry up and arrive. I clairvoyantly located the doctor who was in his car on the way there. He was another of the doctors that works at that medical group and Urgent Care office and he’s treated my Mom before for this same problem. While I was having my telepathic remote viewing conversation with the doctor in his car, the repulsive woman and her daughter were both mentally in their mobile phones distracting themselves that way.

In the midst of my private telepathic conversation with this male doctor I suddenly felt a wave of negativity directed at me from the repulsive woman (Mother) seated across from us. I quickly finished my telepathic chat with the male doctor, lifted my eyes from the small empty spot on the floor I’d found so I could view and have this conversation as privately as possible in a room full of people, and shifted my physical gaze directly at the repulsive woman and made deliberate potent eye contact with her. By this intentional action I let her know that I heard and felt her and I was confronting her about what she was doing energetically to me. She immediately made a facial gesture of utter hatred and disgust and shook her head right and left in a gesture of “No”. I couldn’t believe how blatantly she was being used by Team Dark to try and get at me while we were all waiting in Urgent Care.

I’ve experienced this exact thing dozens of times over the past thirteen Ascension years and I should be used to it by now, but I confess, it blows my mind every time it happens. If humanity only knew how easily and often they are intentionally used and manipulated by the unseen Negatives to cause problems, pain, misery, injury etc. in other people they’d be horrified beyond belief. Well many of them would be, some would think it a great way to harm others.

Unlike many other people who might have only smiled politely at this woman and enabled her to continue this negative crap, I telepathed at her to “Get back in your phone and be quiet!” The repulsive woman dropped her attitude gaze from me, lifted her cell phone back up again and mentally focused on it and remained there until they called her and her daughter in to see the doctor. (My personal decision to do or not do this sort of thing is a complex and lengthy article all by itself, but I’ve learned after years of confusion over situations with many people like this that I’m here to carry Light, not enable the Dark to further use people to harm me and mine or each other.)

We were called next, saw the male doctor, got two stronger prescriptions for Mom, and made our escape from Urgent Care as quickly as we could. The prior Friday I’d talked with Mom about our possibly going to the grocery store after our second trip to Urgent Care ONLY if she honestly felt strong enough to do so. We talked about it and I questioned her repeatedly over the weekend about it and how she was feeling, and then again Monday morning before we left for Urgent Care and again in the car as we left. She said she felt strong enough to go grocery shopping so off we went to do some much-needed grocery hunting and gathering.

GROCERY STORE, MAGIC BANANAS, MOM RUNS OUT OF GAS, TWO LIGHTBEINGS COME TO HELP

As I drove into the grocery store parking lot I located a handicapped parking space close to the entrance/exit door which I was grateful for because I knew that Mom and I would each have a shopping cart full of stuff when done and that we’d both be tired. Off we headed into the grocery store to buy what we each needed.

The last section we go to is the produce section and as Mom and I arrived there we both immediately headed towards the bananas because they were very clearly lit from above with bright white Light and highlighted as if by unseen Angels! Seriously, we both looked at each other with goofy, wide-eyed grins and then back at the showcased bananas and couldn’t believe how utterly perfect every single banana looked under the brilliant white Light. Not one of them had a single bruise or was slightly green and I’ve never seen that, ever! We immediately collected a bunch of these illuminated sheer perfection magic bananas while grinning at each other and repeatedly checking out the white Light mysteriously highlighting them all. We didn’t physically say anything about what we both saw and felt, but unquestioningly bought a big bunch of those beautiful bananas and finished in the produce section and headed for the checkout. Now here’s where Team Dark maneuvers into position, again.

We get to the checkout and Mom is behind me which was my first mistake. I should have, and always will now when she’s able to go shopping with me, have her go first so I’m behind her blocking any interference and attempts to redirect her away and separate us while out in the world. I had about half of my groceries loaded on to the checkout conveyor belt when another store employee grabbed my Mom and, trying to help her checkout faster, pulled her off to another checkout lane. I knew this female cashier was only trying to help, but, I also knew it was the old Team Dark divide and conquer maneuver they use on everyone, but certainly on Starseeds/Lightworkers.

I’m loading my groceries as fast as I can while repeatedly glancing over my shoulder trying to find where the cashier took my Mom. I know what’s coming and I know who’s behind separating us at the end of the shopping trip when Mom is totally spent and exhausted and too weak to unload her unusually full shopping cart after being so sick for September and half of October. My mind is racing, “Hurry, find her, hurry, this is not good, hurry…”

Finally I get my groceries paid for and can see where my Mom is and she’s gone all white and gaunt and I know she’s at the edge of passing out right there in the grocery store. I speed myself and my cart full of paid groceries over to where she is and tell her to just hang on to the edge and not move. She barely hears me and can’t even move. And, of course, all the baggers (employees who bag your groceries after they’ve been scanned) have mysteriously disappeared so I start frantically bagging Mom’s groceries as fast as I can while watching her to see if she starts sinking to the floor because she’s passing out. Unbelievable how quickly and completely she got hit with utter exhaustion as she literally ran out of energy.

Somehow I got all of her groceries bagged and in her shopping cart and paid for while I’m watching her looking like she’s going into shock. I attached her hands to her shopping cart and told her to not let go of it. I got us and our two full shopping carts out-of-the-way so that other people could get around us and exit the store. I was trying to get Mom’s cash (change) back into her wallet and her wallet back into her purse and her purse zipped closed so we could finally get outside and get her seated in the car. As long as she was in the car everything would be okay, but how I was going to get her in her condition and two full shopping carts to the car was another story!

Mom is clutching her shopping cart and looks like death warmed-over and it’s clearly obvious that she’s in serious trouble and on the brink of passing out. I don’t know how she’s still standing actually and she’s not responding to anything I’m saying and she isn’t turning her head to look at me or anything…because she can’t. She’s gone but still standing somehow. “Get her in the car, get her in the car, get her in the car…” my mind is screaming at me.

I got both of our shopping carts steered out the exit/entrance door about five feet and then stopped us. I looked at her in a semi trance-like, shock-like half-in and half-out of her body state and knew we were in real trouble. In the next moment I sensed a tremendous urge to “GO!” which my rational mind thought was utter folly, yet, I instantly followed this powerful higher suggestion to make a run for the car. Just before I took off under this strange and powerful “GO!” impulse I looked at the car across the parking lot and saw a large area between us and it of bright and dense white Light. It was about fifty feet wide and about ten foot tall and looked and felt like a field of white Light had suddenly been manifested to help us get Mom and our groceries to the car without any interference from any human or Team Dark. This area of dense white Light began at the very spot where I had stopped us which was about five feet outside the exit/entrance door to the grocery store, and extended all the way across the parking lot and about five feet beyond our car. This white Light area was amazing looking yet seemed perfectly normal to me in that moment.

As I push-off hard and fast across the parking lot without my Mom at my side — which I simply could not believe I was doing knowing she could barely stand on her own right then — I thankfully simultaneously clairvoyantly saw and felt two slender tubular shaped and extremely tall Lightbeings behind me flanking Mom at her right and left elbows. The two Lightbeings had levitated Mom about 2.5 inches off the physical ground at her elbows with their Light radiating fingertips and were literally steering her and her shopping cart across the parking lot and eventually to the back of our car next to me. They literally were levitating my Mom and her full shopping cart — levitating as in NOT touching the ground physically from what I clairvoyantly saw, felt and heard — across the parking lot and to the passenger side of the back of our car where I could then physically take hold of her and finally get her seated in the car.

Yes, unbelievably, I rushed out ahead of my completely incapacitated 82-year-old Mother pushing only my shopping cart because I had to even though I couldn’t believe I’d knowingly left her in such a vulnerable condition unconsciously clutching her shopping cart and unable to move, speak, focus, see the car or get to the car! That lower rational part of my mind was thinking “WTF!” as I physically launched myself and my shopping cart across the parking lot, but the reason I did so was because that “GO!” message I’d felt was from the two Lightbeings. Some part of me knew this before I even clairvoyantly saw them and was only seeing the large section of white Light I’d just stepped into. As all this is happening in that wonderful No Time place/state, I’m acutely aware that I and my Mom have transitioned from lower linear time space frequency range and reality into a higher quantum frequency range due to the two Lightbeings and the protected white Light passageway they created for us. I’ve experienced this state many times before and it’s always so wonderful, freeing and so natural feeling. Linear time simply doesn’t exit beyond the narrow frequency range where it does exist, and getting out of it always feels so natural and great.

When in a higher, faster quantum frequency range the physical world and people in it either looks and feels significantly slowed and very distant, or like its been put on pause, or it completely disappears from your range of perception. To the people back in “normal” linear time space Earth frequency, nothing is happening out of the ordinary because they’re not seeing, feeling, hearing or perceiving these other higher frequency ranges and vast spaces and Beings that exist within many of them. But from a slightly higher and faster No Time place/state frequency it looks like where I’ve just exited from (physical Earth reality) has disappeared from my view…and from my concern for those all too brief moments. That’s what happened again in this experience from my perspective — and as I found out later when my Mom was strong enough to talk about what she experienced — from her perspective too. We both experienced exiting physical 3D Earth reality and it all disappearing from our view; everything except the white Light area and the two tall Lightbeings.

Because this was an Emergency Assist Event it was different from previous multidimensional experiences I and my Mom both have had with other Starbeings and Lightbeings. This was us being aided by two Lightbeings because we weren’t going to make it to the car without some form of higher assistance. Because it was an emergency help event, there were no great insights or lessons to be learned or teachings to be exchanged from Angelic Lightbeing to incarnate Starseed Lightworker. There wasn’t time for it then, it was just what it was in that moment; help from a much higher frequency. Because this was emergency help and not a more typical lengthy higher dimensional educational event or meeting, I knew while I was in the white Light racing towards my car and once there frantically opening the passenger side door and hatchback to load the groceries, that the two Lightbeings wouldn’t allow any other human into that white Light space because it would have harmed them. I knew that these two Lightbeings had created this higher frequency Light space field to help get Mom to the car, give me time to get her seated in the car, let me unload the groceries as quickly as I could while they protected her, get myself into the car, and finally get Mom inside the house.

Once the two Lightbeings arrived with Mom and her shopping cart up behind me and to the passenger side of the back of the car, I took her by her arms and directed her into the car. She was amazingly light and abnormally easy for me to move so this told me the two Lightbeings were still helping us both. I could feel the two Lightbeings in the space directly above me and I could still see the dense white Light, but now with faint images of bits of other cars and people in the parking lot showing through somewhat. No 3D physical earthly sounds at all yet, just brief glimpses of bits of old 3D slowly coming back into partial view through the dense white Light we were in. I knew the other people were being kept busy, distracted, slowed down, or outright paused by the two Lightbeings to prevent them from walking or driving into the white Light space so I was doing everything as quickly as I could, both for Mom’s sake, but also for the two Lightbeings and the other people driving and walking in the parking lot.

While I was frantically throwing the groceries into the back of the car I knew Mom needed something to eat and that it would help her regain some strength. So while unloading both of our shopping carts into the car, my mind was racing trying to discern what I should grab out of all those groceries to give her to eat in the car. I couldn’t find anything except — are you ready? — the bunch of bananas. (It was as if I was being blocked to find anything other than the bananas in those moments which told me the Lightbeings were directing me with that also.)

Yes, the perfection bananas magically lit with white Light from above suddenly made sense so I grabbed one of them and raced around to the passenger side of the car, shoved it into Mom’s lap and told her to eat it immediately. I rushed back to finish loading the groceries and get the two shopping carts out-of-the-way. I checked Mom again because her car door was open this whole time and she literally had one foot dangling out and one hand hung limp down at the edge of the car. I lifted her foot into the car, moved her hand in and helped her get her seat-belt on and finally closed her car door.

By this point I could more easily see through the white Light and saw three people walking slowly towards us so I knew No Time was running out and that the Light Field was about to disappear and that we were going to impact back into physical linear time space reality again. Bummer, big bummer after having these few No Time moments — even though they were stressful and frantic — of not being IN 3D density and having to endure all the matching people, crap, noise, pollution of every type and other frequency stuff that goes along with it. I was about to be impacted from dropping out of higher frequency space and No Time back down into slow motion density and consciousness insanity again and it was going to hurt and frustrate me because it always does when I have to reenter the Snake Pit again. The contrast between just these two levels is almost too much to endure emotionally, and physically too, but mostly emotionally at this point.

As soon as I’m in the car, closed my door and started the engine, in that instant we were completely back in 3D density and linear time space again and “reality” came screaming, roaring, rushing back in all around me/us in that split second and it was horrible. Truly horrible. Imagine going from a protected space of nothing but white Light and two amazing Lightbeings, zero sounds, zero interference, zero humans and human interference of any type such as thoughts, energies, emotions etc.,  zero Team Dark interference, zero crap of all kinds and then in an instant you’re back into it all again. Like I said, the contrast was horrible and nearly overwhelming to me in October 2012.

But, we’re in the car as are our groceries and we’re heading home. Mom and I both are sort of in shock or in some weird traumatic state and she wasn’t talking or moving much so I knew it wasn’t done yet. During the drive home I did not notice that she hadn’t eaten the banana or that she couldn’t move much and was still in a very weakened condition. I was not seeing some of these things because there were things going to happen that were for Mom and not me and so I was purposefully not seeing certain things at this point.

We get home, I parked the car and got Mom out of the car and up the steps into the house. Again she feels abnormally light and easy to maneuver which told me the two Lightbeings were still overhead somehow even though I wasn’t seeing any white Light or them at this point. I could feel them nearby and knew they were helping me get Mom up the steps and into the house safely. I led her to her bedroom and sat her in her recliner chair, got her some water and noticed the uneaten banana in her hand. I told her to not get out of the chair and that I had to unload the car and that I’d do that as quickly as I could and then return. It was while I was doing this that she had some much-needed insights from the two Lightbeings.

TOO WEAK TO OPEN THE BANANA RADIATING WHITE LIGHT

Incomprehensibly to me, it didn’t even dawn on me, and it normally would have, that Mom was so weak that she couldn’t even open the damned illuminated white Light perfection banana! So while I’m rushing like crazy again to unload all the groceries from the car and up the steps and into the house, it hasn’t entered my awareness that Mom hasn’t eaten the banana yet and that she needed help to open it and peel it! Like I said, normally this is something that I would have automatically known and done for her but didn’t even realize this time. So while I’m bringing the groceries in Mom is struggling to open the banana and can barely get one hand up to hold onto it. She told me later that it took her nearly the whole time I was unloading the groceries just to get the banana opened and peeled. But, once she got about three bits of the banana into her, she said she started feeling better and stronger very quickly.

She also told me later that once she’d finished all the banana she had enough strength to lift the peel and place it on the nightstand next to her. She said she could still see the white Light radiating off the peel on the nightstand while she sat there regaining some strength and sipping water.

During this time I briefly checked her and saw that she was getting a bit stronger so I went back and finished putting all the groceries and frozen food away. When finished I went to Mom’s bedroom and got her shoes off, got her more food etc., and then we just sat and talked about what we’d each experienced. This next part is what she told me she’d seen and felt during the white Light and two Lightbeings parking lot event.

She told me that when I stopped us just outside of the exit/entrance door at the grocery store when we were leaving, she knew she was half out of her body and in a very bad way and was worried she’d pass-out and someone would call an ambulance and haul her off to the hospital. She told me that when I stopped us at that point she suddenly saw the white Light field appear exactly as I saw it and described it already. At the physical point where I stepped into it ahead of her, was the same physical spot where she did and it was also where and when she felt that her feet and her shopping cart were no longer touching the ground. She said she couldn’t see me, the car, or anything else except the dense white Light from the same physical spot just outside the entrance/exit door to the grocery store all the way across the parking lot — which was about 50 feet — and the two Lightbeings levitating her and her shopping cart up to where they lowered her back down to the ground next to me at the rear passenger side of our car.

While listening to her describe what she experienced, it was wonderful because I’d seen and felt it too while rushing across the parking lot with her and the two Lightbeings a few steps behind me. In that moment of ultra weirdness where I saw these two Lightbeings levitating my Mom and her shopping cart and literally carry her across a public parking lot in broad daylight, I suddenly remembered a funny pet video I’d seen a couple of years ago of a woman holding her small dog over a bathtub full of water and the dog’s little legs were dog-paddling in the air above the bath water! That was the hilarious thought I had while dashing across the parking lot and clairvoyantly seeing my Mom being levitated by two Lightbeings but her two physical feet still walking…dog-paddling about 2.5 inches above ground in the air just like the little dog in that funny pet video!

From Mom’s perspective all she saw while levitating/walking/dog-paddling across the parking lot was the dense white Light field and the two Lightbeings. She told me she knew her legs and feet were walking yet not touching the ground and that her shopping cart was also easily moving along not touching the ground. I and the car came back into her range of vision once the Lightbeings deposited her and her shopping cart next to me at the back of the car. She said she could then see and hear me but not much of anything else.

She also told me that she felt the two Lightbeings were with us all the way home and also helped us get her up the stairs and into the house. Once she was safely in the house and seated in her bedroom and had eaten the glowing white Light banana, she said she was aware the two Lightbeings were slowly retreating.

It took us a couple of days to process this whole event and make all the connections and insights and thoroughly share what we each had seen and felt with each other. These types of larger physical shifts out of linear time space (such as this one that happened, again, while out in public!) into other areas and then back again typically takes days to fully process, digest, and get the larger overview of what and why it happened. More about the larger reasons why the two Lightbeings showed up in October 2012 to help us near the end of this very long article.

I APOLOGIZE FOR THIS NEXT PART

This experience with the two Lightbeings (not Starbeings as we’ve both experienced many times in years and decades past but Lightbeings) happened on Monday, October 15, 2012. This next experience happened on Wednesday, October 17, 2012. They are of course connected.

So early Wednesday morning I’m getting ready to go shopping alone and as I walk past Mom’s bedroom I noticed something dark colored on her carpet. She was out in the livingroom and hadn’t seen this when she woke up, and who knows, it may have not even been there when she did get up! But as I’m ready to leave the house to shop, I see this dark something on her carpet in her bedroom so I went in to see what it was. In those moments while I’m looking at these three small very dark spots of something on her carpet, my brain is straining to figure out what in the hell they are. I turned the overhead light on to get a better look and got down on my hands and knees and then I saw that the three dark spots where diarrhea. YES, they were shit spots! Sorry, but they were three small pools of diarrhea in a location in her bedroom that would have been very difficult for a human to produce…even at a run for the bathroom!

Mom hears my crushing and questioning and comes in to see what I’m carrying on about. She looks at them and said they weren’t there when she woke up about an hour earlier. But, because I have to cover all bases, I asked her if she had any accidents that could have caused the three spots and I actually checked her pajamas, her shoes, the rest of the carpet etc. Nope, Mom was not the guilt party, so I next went to the cat and then the cat box in search of signs of diarrhea and I found nothing there either. This cat has never, ever had diarrhea in his life so I know it didn’t come from him. And I knew I didn’t wander into my Mom’s bedroom and dribble diarrhea in there so, that leaves…Team Dark as the most likely source of it.

In case you think I’ve lost my mind entirely understand that in this pre-Ascension world run by Team Dark, it’s not uncommon to have really wonderful and extraordinary experiences as we had with the two Lightbeings followed with some unpleasant shitty something happening afterwards as a way for Team Dark to leave their mark to let you know how they feel about The Light and those of The Light. Said another way, finding some shit on Mom’s carpet two days after such a wonderful connection with those Lightbeings didn’t surprise me that much but it did tell me that that’s about all they’re capable of at this point with Mom and I. That is very positive and telling news.

THE REASON THIS COULD EVEN HAPPEN NOW

Let’s wrap this lengthy story up with the deeper level implications it carries for many of us in October and now November 2012. And, sorry it’s taken me so long to write this but it’s been super intense and exhausting and I expect it will be for the rest of  2012 and maybe a bit beyond too.

After thinking about the fact that it was Angelic-like Lightbeings that showed up to help us in the parking lot and not the more familiar higher dimensional humanoid Starbeings, I understood that this was a message in itself to me (which I knew I was to pass on to you reading this) about how far I and my Mom and many of us actually are on The Bridge out of the old duality patriarchal Earth and into the new ascended Earth world right now. It was also a message from those Lightbeings to me that I was to pass on to all of you who now need a personal, wide awake, fully conscious, direct living picture and/or explanation about what it feels like, what it looks like, how fast it actually happens etc. when you exit out of linear 3D time and space with your physical body and enter into another higher frequency level/dimension/location etc. that’s quantum or within No Time or the eternal Now Moment.

Many people have talked about how certain Starbeings/ETs/”Galactic Federation” etc. are going to come and “save” them or “rescue” them or “lift them off the planet’s surface when things get bad” etc. but that’s not the case in my opinion and I’ve said so many times over the years. Ascension is an individual thing that’s earned energetically, Alchemically by each person because it must be this way. Like attracts like and this is why we each will find ourselves drawn towards a matching external frequency Earth world or other place, location/dimension etc. as the 12-21-12 Expiration Date comes and goes.

In other words, this experience with these two Lightbeings in mid-Oct. 2012 was to help Mom and I, and you reading this, better understand how suddenly, how quickly, how easily and effortless it can be for us now to take just one step out of the old negative 3D duality world and dimension frequency range we all incarnated into in this life with these physical bodies, and instantly find ourselves existing elsewhere with these physical bodies. This experience helped me better see and understand that this grand shift, this final transition out of the dense negative world we incarnated into decades ago, this stepping off of the transitional Bridge on to the new 5D Ascended Earth will be like everything else within the Ascension Process; it will unfold in many Stair Steps so that we don’t kill our physical bodies or blow our minds or central nervous systems or rip our psyches to shreds in the process!

November and December of 2012 is going to be super compressed for many of us with these final Stair Steps energetically preparing us for transition and existence in either the new 5D Ascended Earth world, or another Earth world where duality will exist for all who desire it but Team Dark will NOT be there at all, ever. So expect to have more experiences and awareness of new things, Beings, places, multiple dimensions, probabilities, different timelines etc. for the rest of 2012 and certainly into the new that 2013 will bring.

Denise Le Fay

November 6, 2012

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Certain Starseed/Wanderer Contracts

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“So many things seem to be happening. I will just describe a few. I have had this extreme awareness and knowing of all the “negative” aspects in my personality, in my being that need to be worked on. All that yucky dark stuff that usually make me cringe and want to hide. My usual reaction to the moments when i am digging deep, I mean deep inside myself, where most of us do not want to go, is to stop thinking about it, to dig my head in the sand because I have always struggled with self-worth. I have always felt like I was not good enough. I have almost been trained to hate myself. And to think about the “dark aspects” always made me depressed and loath myself. made me feel like a piece of shit if you will. I have always struggled with anxiety and depression. (raised in an extremely religious southern baptist household which I feel I could write a whole book on the ass backwardness of organized religion but I digress)

The other lifelong struggle has been the negative attacks from the dark humans. At school, in the work place, even friends have been down right nasty in the past. A best friend of mine who for almost 10 years we were together almost everyday (who is one of us she just does not know it yet) has witnessed and has been just as perplexed as I as to why I so frequently get attacked by people, usually male. In my life it made me feel as though something was inherently wrong with me. Even though I have always known I have a big heart and have so much love to give and that I was here for a purpose. I love like crazy. I don’t have a mean bone in my body yet I sometimes am treated like dirt by people. My spirit guides have shown me recently that all the attacks, anxiety, depression, physical and sexual abuse have been Team Dark trying to derail me. Their plan was to keep me so consumed with fear and confusion over what was “wrong” with me and what I did to deserve all the awful things done to me. I am very sensitive and am an empath so living in this world with these people and energies has been freaking awful. Well those little fuckers may have won that battle but they sure as heck are not winning the war! On some level for quite some time it worked for a long time but no more! I have spent the last 30 years trying to figure out what was wrong with me. Why did I feel so different. Why did I feel like an alien on this planet? So now when facing these dark aspects of myself there has been a major shift. In the last few days instead of hating myself I shine the dark corners with love and forgiveness. And boy does it feel good…

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Because faye1234’s Comment question was so important and one that most Starseeds/Wanderers/Lightworkers can completely relate to, I wanted to respond to it in an article instead of getting buried in Comments. Thank you faye1234.   ❤

EVERY STARSEED’S FIRST THOUGHT TYPICALLY IS: “IT MUST JUST BE ME, RIGHT?”

Because my natal Sun is in Capricorn and in Capricorn’s natural 10th House, for decades I believed that my downright insane and miserable patriarchal encounters, head-butting fights, and those epic David vs. Goliath type battles with patriarchal persons in positions of power and/or authority were solely due to my Capricorn 10th House Sun… and a lot of it was. In addition, my natal Saturn—ruler of my Capricorn Sun—is in Libra (along with three other planets including the ruler of my ASC) and this Libra stellium only amplified my always feeling at odds with the “normal” patriarchal masses and what to me have always been their negative and seriously crazy belief systems, ways and actions.

These lifelong tensions and squirmy feelings I’ve always had (remember my age) were tremendously amplified whenever I had to interact with (typically) older males in positions of “power” and “authority” in our society; bosses, police, judges, lawyers, doctors etc. (After the 1960s revolutionary battles with “the establishment”, certain females were allowed to publicly wield more patriarchal power too and they became power-hungry, ego-based, left-brained imbalanced patriarchal humans we Starseeds/Wanderers/Lightworkers/Indigos also had to navigate. There were no equal rights for women, there was join the patriarchal Boys Club because that’s all that existed. I’ll spare you my numerous unpleasant and oftentimes insane and ridiculous battles, attacks and showdowns I’ve experienced with the patriarchy during my sixty years on Earth and get into the WHY of it. Natal placements plus this second ingredient are intimately connected and why I’ve repeatedly experienced extreme negative battles and attacks from so many humans—mostly males but plenty of patriarchal entrenched females too—physically manifesting Team Dark’s alien agendas in this dimension and world.

This other energetic ingredient is being a Starseed. A Starseed with a Soul Mission and hardwired ability to transmute, integrate, resolve and transcend density, duality and negativity and return those energies to a higher frequency state of energetic neutrality or “unity” while in physicality. Needless to say this is not an easy, safe or pleasant job to do while within a negative polarized physical world reality, and most Starseeds (and “Volunteers”, Forerunners, Wayshowers, Pathpavers etc.) with this particular Soul Mission and ability (“Polarity Integrator” as Lisa Renee has called them) have had more than our fair share of negative, cruel and outrageous attacks and battles with the physical human patriarchy.

So yes, the answer to our first thought that it must be me is correct, but for different reasons than you and I believed for far too long. It is just me, just you, just us, because we Starseeds/Forerunners/Wayshowers are here now doing what we’re so good at doing with and to polarized (Duality) energies. The real difficulty has always been that most Starseeds/Forerunners/Wayshowers typically don’t consciously remember that they “Volunteered” to incarnate on physical Earth now and why. A rare handful do remember from childhood that they intentionally came to Earth from elsewhere, whereas far more begin remembering later in adulthood. Other Starseeds, and even some Indigos, are triggered by their Higher Selves to begin consciously remembering their larger and more complex identity and Soul Mission(s) at specific times due to a multitude of personal, astrological, cosmic, multidimensional and evolutionary Ascension Process reasons.

But before a Starseed begins consciously remembering their greater identities and/or current physical plane Soul Mission, they typically believe the negative lies and BS that all the negativity, hostility, disrespect, violence, physical and etheric attacks, endless supply of abnormally imbalanced humans littering their earthly lifelong Path are somehow all their fault! They typically and automatically wonder what terrible thing(s) THEY must have done somewhere to create the constant negativity, darkness and cruel attacks from other humans during this lifetime. If you’ve bought into the “sin” and “guilt” or “karma” beliefs because you don’t remember your greater identity and Soul Contracts yet, then you assume that must be the reason for the endless negativity you attract from both living humans plus other-dimensional Beings, Aliens, Entities etc.

You, me, each of us typically runs these negative experiences through our own ego filters and naturally assume it is us, when in fact it is us, but it is only because we’re on Earth now to transmute and transcend the negativity in 3D and 4D primarily and NOT BECAUSE WE’VE DONE ANYTHING WRONG. My dearest fellow Starseeds/Forerunners/Wayshowers/Indigos, we naturally and automatically attract the negativity, insanity and imbalanced seen and unseen populations because we carry more Light here and the Dark instantly sees and recognizes us long before we ever recognize them! That unfortunate truth is simply part of our many different learning curves we must Master while here in 3D. We take plenty of beatings before we put two-and-two together, but once we finally do connect the inter-dimensional energy dots of our larger existence, identity and Soul Missions, we then move through our individual Soul Missions much easier, faster and with far less personal damages and wounds than before.

The farther along we individually go with transmuting polarized energies through our bodies and beings, the more we remember and embody High Heart or Unity or Triality Consciousness which makes our Work, our “jobs”, our Soul Missions here much easier, faster, less painful and polarized. We learn to reach and maintain emotional neutrality which is also greater and higher conscious awareness neutrality, with more and more things, people, situations, events, attacks and all the rest of it. We’re learning or have learned and mastered being and remaining within that third higher frequency space that exists vibrationally beyond (let’s say above for ease of communication) Duality which means we have an easier time NOT being affected or influenced by any physical human, nonphysical Being/Alien/Entity, or trans-dimensional events caused by either of them whether directed at us individually or not. It just is what it is and we simply do what we do with less and less drama, pain, negativity and time spent in those miserable battles and attacks. From my Denise perspective it took me far too long to reach the edges of this state of being and working of my earthly Soul Mission but there it is and what do I know about it all anyway?  😉

REMEMBER THE PRINCESS & THE PEA SYNDROME?

Starseeds/Indigos/Lightworkers are typically ultra-sensitives who FEEL things, people, events, locations, actions, thoughts, thought-forms, emotional energies, negativity, polarity etc. much more intensely than “normal” people do. Added to this is something I’ve become increasingly aware of over the past intense thirteen Ascension years (1999–2012) which is that the more polarized and dark or negative energies I’ve gotten rid of (transmuted and therefore removed), the less of it it now takes to make me feel like ultra crap! Hence, the Princess & the Pea business. This is another reason why our own inner dark, unresolved issues and energies—PLUS everyone else’s—feels so much larger and exaggerated to us than it actually is. The more Light there is, the more it highlights the Dark no matter how small it may now be. Don’t take it personally, don’t go into guilt over it, don’t obsess or fixate on it, remain emotionally neutral about it all and just do what you’ve been doing all along which is integrate it, transmute it, and transcend it back into unified Neutrality.

When we feel the dark or negative now it’s painful in new ways because it’s so profoundly amplified and highlighted by the abundant Light Energies now present. The dark thing only needs to be something small and simple now and yet it feels like a massive boulder under my twenty mattresses! “Consciousness” is rapidly becoming a whole-body and whole-being awareness instead of the old left brained linear only thought process of polarized 3D. We are rapidly becoming increasingly aware of more things but in very new ways which means we’re having to let go of even more and learn many new ways of perception during these last six months of 2012.

“WHY DID I FEEL LIKE AN ALIEN ON THIS PLANET?” 

Because you are one dearest. ❤ Most of us Starseeds/Wanderers/Lightworkers are the positive ETs many people talk about that they believe will come to Earth and fix things! Surprise, but we’re already here and have been for decades, working behind the scenes, doing what we do for humanity and the Ascension timeline. I know that huge self-worth issues are common among the Groups or Waves of Starseeds/Wanderers (and Indigos) but you’ve all got to realize that you’re not here on Earth now to be like the human masses. Not remotely, so don’t use those negative and distorted Alien patriarchal human standards to measure yourself against for any reason. I know how hard and painful that is too but you’ve got to ignore those mind control delusions and distortions and be what you are and do what you do. And I know so many of you have done it repeatedly even when you didn’t know you were.

Denise

July 10, 2012

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10-10-10 REPOST & Connection With 11-11-11

I’m re-posting this particular article to remind, reconnect and align last years 10-10-10 portal with the November 11, 2011 11-11-11 portal. A lot has happened during just the past year and much more will after we pass through the 11-11-11, and yet again with next years 12-12-12. Many Stair-steps have been needed for us to remain in-body while we transmuted and embodied so very much. Here’s to tomorrow and beyond. 

Denise

November 10, 2011

In typical Denise fashion I perceive, receive, higher complex information and large concepts in almost embarrassingly simplified ways. This is why I write the way I do — I cut to the chase and go for the bottom-line because I usually don’t perceive/receive all the detailed filler information such as names, sub-zones, levels and such. It isn’t all that important to me in all honesty. Once I have perceived some main aspects of certain Bigger Pictures, I don’t need all of the names and complex finer details. I perceive/receive the overall gist and feel of what’s happening, why and when.

10-10-10 AND GUESS WHO IS COMING TO DINNER?

I’ve decided to write this exactly as I perceived/received this information and not do as much interpreting, explaining and defining as I usually try to do. We’re all needing to evolve to where we don’t depend on certain people and/or systems  and/or only our left-brained intellect to define reality for us. After thousands of years of deliberate dark BS, lies and distortions from lower frequency people and  global systems etc., we’ve reached spiritual adulthood now and need to start defining reality for ourselves. The Body and Brain Rewiring will enable us to do this and much more.

I’d like you to see in your mind’s eye exactly what I’ve seen, felt and know about the 09-09-09 through 12-21-12 transitions because I believe it’s how more of us are going to be perceiving/receiving higher Light information/knowledge now; decreased linear words (telepathic and physically written/spoken) with increased visual symbols as large chunks of complex Light information. Below are two highly simplified symbolic visual information concepts about the 10-10-10 energy Stair-step transition that I perceived/received a while ago. Actually, it is not only the triple tens of October 10, 2010. Another level or phase (within the ongoing Ascension Process) was activated via the 09-09-09 of September 9, 2009, and will  continue to unfold quickly and dramatically now through the 10-10-10, and the 11-11-11, and the 12-12-12 and 12-21-12 remaining important energy transitions. See, feel and know these two symbolic visuals and interpret this phase of The Process for yourself.

MY FIRST HIGHER SELF 10-10-10 MESSAGE

In your mind’s eye, envision a massive dense rain forest from overhead as if you were in an airplane looking down on it. There is absolutely nothing down there but dense trees and other thick vegetation. No cleared areas whatsoever, no roads, absolutely nothing but thick, dark, dense, scary and impenetrable rain forest. Do you see it? Can you hear the airplane’s little engine running far up above? Can you see the vast and dense rain forest below you? See it, hear it, feel it and hold it in your inner mind’s eye and heart as you keep reading, feeling and knowing.

The pilot of this small plane has one very important passenger on-board who desires to land in that dense Earth forest. Problem is, there’s absolutely no place to land the plane and this very important passenger must land and step off on to the ground. This passenger will not parachute, but must land and touch the ground in this precise way. So the pilot and his very important passenger continue flying in large slow circles overhead, searching, waiting, searching far and wide, hoping to find a small landing strip somewhere below in the massive denseness.

Meanwhile…

You have a burning, unrelenting, cosmic soul NEED to carve out a landing strip in the middle of a dense, dark rain forest by yourself. WTF! Really? Do you realize how insanely difficult and dangerous that’s going to be? Are you aware that you may not be able to complete the landing strip in time for the small airplane to land? Shit… Hum… No, I can do it. It is what I do and do very well so cheerio, fuck-it-all, I’m carving out a damned landing strip in the middle of a massive dense, dark rain forest alone and by-hand and I absolutely will not stop until it is completed.

Amazingly, you’ve succeeded in carving out a large magnificent landing strip in the middle of a dense rain forest. You are however all cut up, bruised, bloody, beat to hell, unimaginably exhausted, and you just want to sit down and have a good long hard cry and little Pity Party for yourself. Go ahead, you’ve earned it for god sake. You carved out a freaking landing strip in the middle of a dense dark jungle where angels fear to tread! Have that hard-earned, gut-wrenching, snot-flying, deep soul-sobbing cry and be proud because you did it despite the enormous difficulties and dangers involved. (This fellow Lightworkers, Forerunners, Pathpavers represents Phase 1 of the Ascension Process, which I’m sure you recognize.)

So there you are in all your Starseed, Lightworker, Pathpaver dirty, bloody and beat-up glory sitting exhausted and crying on your damned fine looking landing strip in the middle of a dense—but now oh so much brighter open and cleared—rain forest. You wait, and wait, and wait there for months, then years, but no one comes. Insert more intense and dejected crying, confusion, anger and short periods of self-doubt here.

Then one day you hear it, the ever so faint sound of a small airplane flying overhead far in the distance. OMG, could it be? Is The Great Day finally here? You bet your sweet Forerunner, Lightworker, tired Old Soul ass it is finally here!

‘Da plane, da plane!’  your weary and nearly broken mind sings excitedly to you like a spiritual joke from that old TV show Fantasy Island. You hear the small plane finally approaching and you know its going to land on your beloved landing strip. Deep inside you also know that the real fun will start now. You glance at your watch to check the date and time and sure enough, it’s 10-10-10. Oh man, here it finally comes after all these brutal, isolated, painful and dangerous years of intense preparation Work.

MY SECOND HIGHER SELF 10-10-10 MESSAGE

See this next symbolic scenario in your mind’s eye and High Heart too for you already know all this but maybe haven’t put all the puzzle pieces together yet.

You’ve got very special company coming to visit you soon so you start the massive house cleaning, yard cleaning, window washing, buffing and polishing, washing and everything cleaning in preparation. This is so exciting and rare, but it is going to take plenty of time and serious energy-consuming cleaning and clearing Work to get your house, yard, and yourself ready for the arrival of your very special company.

You start the massive cleaning, clearing and trash removal Work on your house—inside and out—and in your yard too. You’ve got plenty of time to get it all done before your company arrives, however, you know your back is going to hurt like all hell doing it all, that you’re going to become profoundly tired and in a lot of extra pain and stress trying to do so much work, so much cleaning, so much polishing and prep Work for this special company that’s coming. It doesn’t matter, you dive into all your cleaning and clearing work despite the extra aches, pains and fatigue that it causes your physical body and everything else. You rest when you can and get back to the intense cleaning and clearing work day after exhausting day. On top of all this however, you still have your daily “regular life’s work and chores” that need to be done too but you somehow manage to get it all done.

It’s slow going and there’s far more dirt and mess than you initially realized was there but you keep at it because you’re so excited to have this particular company coming. It makes the long and difficult cleaning and trash removal Work worth it when you think about how much fun it’s going to be once this particular company arrives.

Finally, you take a long careful look around your house both inside and out, and check the yard to make sure it is clean and beautiful. Most all the cleaning Work is done now, and despite your being absolutely exhausted after endless months of cleaning and prep Work, your house, yard and everything else is looking and feeling exceptionally nice, clean, tidy and ready for your very special company. You glance at your calendar one more time to check the date to see how long before your company arrives and you discover it’s only a few days now. 10-10-10 is right around the corner and your very special company will begin arriving then. (This represents an aspect of Phase 2 let us call it of more Ascension work during 2009 and 2010 up to now.)

THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THIS VERY LONG TUNNEL

You smile in anticipation and joy over having succeeded in carving out the difficult landing strip in the middle of the dense and nearly impenetrable rain forest on time. You smile in anticipation and joy over having succeeded in cleaning and clearing your entire house, yard, and everything else in preparation of the arrival of your special out-of-town company. And importantly, you finally understand WHO the special passenger is in the small plane that’s getting ready to land now; you understand WHO your special out-of-town company is that’s arriving with the 10-10-10 energies. You finally understand WHY you were so obsessed about carving a landing strip in the middle of a dense rain forest by yourself (the old physical 3D dense world of Duality). You finally understand WHY you were so obsessed about cleaning and clearing your entire house and yard (the transmuting and resolving of polarity, karma, and all lower frequency energies within yourself, mind, heart, and bodies that was Phase 1 of the Ascension Process). All of this long, painful and incredibly difficult prep Work was absolutely necessary so that higher aspects of YOU could even “land” and then start to merge with, be embodied by you physically.

10-10-10 is the start of this intense phase of us embodying, continuously and increasingly housing within our physical bodies more of what has always existed at higher dimensions. You know why this can finally happen because you’ve done all the insanely difficult and painful Work, cleaning and clearing for over a decade. Since 09-09-09, we’ve been inching our ways towards finally having these next particular transitions happen. The 10-10-10, the 11-11-11 and the 12-12-12 and 12-21-12 Stair-steps or portals or gates are the last three important Ascension Process transitions we have to journey through. There’s more than just these three but they’re huge in what and why.

The plane is finally landing, our special company is finally arriving via these remaining 10-10-10 and beyond incremental energy Stair-steps. Guess how amazing and easily creative it’s going to be to embody so much more of YOU—the pilot, his special passenger, your special company, plus you who did all the cleaning and landing strip prep Work—in your physical body on the new 5D Earth from here on out? Hey, that sounds like your doorbell ringing, you had better get it.  ❤

Denise Le Fay

October 8, 2010

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Kundalini Rising & the Rewiring Process

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This article is for the people who may not be familiar with how Ascension related Kundalini energy feels and also how the Rewiring Process feels in the body. Many of you have already lived through these stages so it’s old-hat to you. There are however increasing numbers of people in 2011 (and beyond due to those Stair Steps) being activated who are suddenly living with some very weird energies and sensations inside their bodies. This information is primarily for them, but I hope you too will enjoy this recap.

THEY’RE ALL CAUSED BY THE EVOLUTIONARY ASCENSION PROCESS

February 1999 my physical Ascension Process suddenly began and I mean suddenly! Literally overnight I went from being and feeling one way all my life, to the next morning having my body producing some very strange physical symptoms. It was a horrible and difficult time and it lasted for many years. Your mileage will vary at this late date within the Ascension Process so don’t panic. The worst of the worst has already been done by Lightworkers over a decade ago and they’ve created a huge, wide open roadway for everyone to energetically travel down, meaning that what you experience now won’t be as long or as difficult and painful.

Before the Ascension energies were available, people who wanted to activate their kundalini energies would typically have to fast, meditate, remain celibate, and in most cases do so for years just to get their inner kundalini energies to budge or wiggle! But, with the start of the biological physical Ascension Process around 1998–1999, the need to do all those old school things went out the window. Now you don’t have to “do” anything to activate your kundalini energies and have them repeatedly burn and flash up and down your spine and work within each of your chakras to transmute the stuck energies in them. Now all you have to do is try to keep up with the Process!

You don’t need to fast, meditate, remain celibate or do any of the old past esoteric things in hopes of activating your kundalini energy. At this point within the global Ascension Process you’ll automatically be triggered or activated at exactly the time you’re supposed to and all by the perfect and flawless design and timing of your own Higher Self. So, don’t worry about any of this because it’s all been meticulously crafted by your Higher Self to unfold at the most beneficial and appropriate time for you to transmute and evolve via the available energies of the Ascension Process.

Because kundalini risings are being triggered now by your Higher Self and the cosmic, galactic, solar and astrological energies and cycles and not by a desire from your left-brained consciousness and ego self, the physical, mental, emotional and etheric symptoms they cause are not the same as old school Eastern esoteric knowledge has taught. Most all old school esoteric teachings don’t work for us now or reflect what we’re living through in our current lives and times because of the Ascension Process.

KUNDALINI SYMPTOMS

Kundalini risings activated by the Ascension Process typically do so suddenly and unexpectedly, making you instantly feel like you’re on fire from the inside out. Hot flashes are common even in male bodies, as are night sweats, which are just “hot flashes” that happen at night while you’re asleep or were sleeping! Once activated kundalini energies don’t conveniently turn off each night so we can get a good night’s sleep. Oh if only that were the case! Nope, you’re kundalini risings and inner fire, heat, sweating, emotions and purgings will be with you day and night for however long it takes for you to work/burn/transmute/release the emotional energetic junk you’ve stored in your trunk—and you’re guts, your belly, your heart, your brain/mind and so on. Oh happy day huh?  🙂 It really is a miraculous Alchemical Process of you going through the transmuting of your inner 3D Lead into higher frequency, non-polarized and integrated 5D Gold via kundalini fires activated by the ongoing Ascension Process.

  • Inner heat or kundalini fire that radiates outward and extends a good foot or more beyond the surface of your skin and physical body.
  • This same inner heat/fire in your spine/back repeatedly moving partially or completely up and down your spine/back.
  • This same inner heat in your spine/back stopping at different chakras to work on the emotional energetic junk you’ve got stored in each of them, some more than others.
  • Kundalini fire stirs up the emotional/mental/etheric issues you’ve stored and/or suppressed in each of your chakras which you will now FEEL emotionally and need to resolve and eventually fully release. This is a Process and is typically done repeatedly, layer-by-layer so we get the majority of our inner energetic junk transmuted and gone. It doesn’t happen in a couple weeks or months. Give it time to do all it must within you.
  • Strange, vivid dreams because we do the majority of our Inner Work while asleep and dreaming on the Inner Planes. We can discover, FEEL emotionally, resolve and integrate so much more in a vastly shorter time while we’re asleep and out-of-body doing this Inner Work. Expect strange but informative or symbolic and archetypal dreams and pay attention to what they reveal to you about yourself and what you’re transmuting.
  • Physical sweating…lots and lots of sweating day and night. I’d suggest you stop using chemical deodorants so you can sweat out the toxins. Try using a natural deodorant like a crystal stick or stone instead.
  • Emotional imbalances and difficult almost “crazy” periods due to past emotional issues/wounds/pains/fears/guilt etc. and their energies being brought to the surface of your consciousness and transmuted in and through your physical and emotional bodies primarily.
  • When kundalini fire is working in your solar plexus chakra, your physical belly/gut area will oftentimes bloat due to the intense energies and transformational Inner Work taking place inside. Fear not and know it will eventually decrease. Know too it will return a few times before you’re done with this Alchemical process.
  • When kundalini fire is working in your heart chakra you’ll often feel a heat, pressure, and possibly movements in this area of your body along with intense and uneven heart beats or thumps and poundings. You’ll also emotionally FEEL plenty and cry and rage and be moved by very simple and beautiful things, and very evil things too. Fear not as this is your heart being cleared and expanding to feel and house so much more of the higher energies, Light, and consciousness.
  • When kundalini fire is working in your throat chakra you’ll often feel a heat and pressure radiating out of the back of your neck. Aches and pains in your throat and jaw is common. You’ll also find yourself speaking (or yelling and demanding) things you’ve suppressed or have not been allowed to verbalize before. Finally give voice to what you’ve not so far and take your power back.
  • When kundalini fire is working in your two lower chakras, old sexual issues, feelings of guilt, and suppressed energies will demand your attention. Also fears and/or a sense of being a victim and so on will come to the surface to be consciously recognized, felt emotionally, finally dealt with and integrated and eventually released.
  • You know where each chakra exists within you and it’s pretty easy to know which physical organs exist in those areas. Those are the organs that will have more stress in them while your kundalini fire is burning and surfacing old emotional energies you’ve stored in them. Take care of yourself during these intense transformational periods. Drink plenty of water to help with the heat and fire, the constant sweating and potential mineral loss, and the constant detoxing and purging that this entire Process creates.
  • When kundalini reaches your head, just let it do what it does and don’t intellectualize the process much because you can’t and don’t need to! You’ll feel the fire and pressures inside your skull pushing and changing things in there and it all pouring up and out of the top of your head  (Crown chakra) too. Let the kundalini fire transmute your brain glands and clear and expand your Brow and Crown chakras for what will happen next.

There’s many more kundalini symptoms but this would become so long it’d be boring. Let’s move on to the Body Rewiring Process which can now happen more easily and quickly because Kundalini Fire has burned through and transmuted the majority of emotional energetic junk that had been stored, stuck throughout your physical and emotional bodies.

BODY REWIRING PROCESS

The Body Rewiring doesn’t hurt as most all the other Ascension symptoms do. It does however feel rather strange because you can actually feel energies vibrating, buzzing, and shaking deep inside your physical body. Thankfully no pain, just a sensation of inner vibrations that typically begin in the lower section of your body or in your core. I first felt them many years ago in my lower gut or core area. Over the years this inner body electrical-like vibrating would move slowly from one area to another and another and so on. Over the years it slowly inched its way upward in my body and lastly made it to my head and brain. At that point the Brain Rewiring took place which did and still does today cause me headaches, pressures, pains and aches both inside my head and also on the surface of my skull and scalp and Crown chakra area.

BODY REWIRING SYMPTOMS

  • Typically feeling inner body vibrations that feel rather like a mild electric current running inside you. It vibrates, buzz’s, and even mildly shakes you from deep inside your physical body. It is painless and isn’t that a nice change!
  • Over the months and years this inner body vibration will move around inside your body. You’ll feel it low in your base area, then higher in your belly area where it moves around and doesn’t remain in just one area in each section of your body. It will slowly move around your core, typically from bottom to top.
  • It’s easiest to feel this inner body vibrating when you’ve been asleep and suddenly awaken. While laying there quietly in the middle of the night it’s easy to feel a strong vibrating or buzzing energy inside your body. It runs in on/off cycles of a few seconds on and less seconds off. This perfectly timed pattern will repeat until you can safely cope with the vibration running for longer and longer periods.
  • Eventually this inner body vibrating energy increases to the point where it runs or is “ON” constantly inside your body and there’s no more periods where it’s “OFF” at all. This will take time however. At this point know that you are running and housing within your physical body and self a much higher frequency Light Energy than you ever could have done and survived before.
  • Once your whole physical body has been Rewired, it enters your head/brain and then that process begins. Stair steps remember or we wouldn’t survive The Process.

THE BRAIN REWIRING PROCESS & SYMPTOMS

When this Rewiring Ascension Process reaches your head and two brain halves you can feel and sense that you’re running a much higher, faster, undiluted Light-filled Energy throughout your whole physical body. You’ve been rewired, upgraded, and have a NEW 5D Body Grid system (central nervous system and much more) just like Earth now does. This means you—like Earth—can now run and constantly house 5D energies through your body and not fry or go mad or die because of it! You’ve succeeded in transmuting your Alchemical 3D Lead into 5D Gold and now have the latest and most energy-efficient, self-sustained model on the market. 😉 Congratulations! But, not to burst your hard-earned bubble of joy, there’s more…much more but it will be worth it so let’s continue and Rewire the head and brain—hence consciousness—so it matches your newly rewired body.

Once these transformational Rewiring Energies enter your head and brain you are going to have to deal with some pains and pressures inside your head and skull. I’m not going to pad this and say it doesn’t hurt occasionally because it does. But if you honestly think about what is happening inside your  physical head/brain, it’s SO worth the occasional headaches and pressures.

The two separate brain hemispheres will now begin being Rewired into one unified whole brain that functions without the old lower 3D polarities of left and right brain consciousness and terrible disconnects. We can’t as yet fully perceive of how we’ll be able to perceive reality with a Rewired or Unified brain. Soon however.

  • The Brain Rewiring is occasionally painful and causes headaches, pressures and pains inside the head, pains and pressures in the external skull and scalp. These pains and pressures also move around inside the head and outside on the skull.
  • It often causes a sense or feel of twirling or rotating, spinning and/or tipping over or dropping through the floor. Not “dizziness”, but a rapid rotating movement.
  • It often triggers seeing lights, colors, sparks, points or explosions of light, shadows moving, movements of energies, non-physical beings and discarnate humans etc. Just observe the weird clairvoyant show but be aware too. Everything is not always as it seems. In other words, “all that glitters” with light doesn’t mean it is of the Light. No fear just pay attention and discern.
  • You’ll feel pressures and pains in your Brow chakra area and even more so in your Crown chakra area and the top of your physical skull/head.
  • You may smell scents like burning smoke or incense very close to your body for days, weeks or months on-end. You may also have a grossly exaggerated sense of smell with certain scents that nearly choke you and/or make you nauseous. This is caused by the Rewiring happening within your brain glands, the Pineal and Pituitary glands primarily and their being connected or unified also.
  • You will find yourself perceiving, or more accurately knowing things instead of linearly thinking and intellectualizing as you’re used to. This is due to the Kundalini clearing Inner Work, the later Body Rewiring, coupled with the current Brain Rewiring. We’re evolving/ascending now into what I call Spherical or 5D High Heart Consciousness—what others call “Unity Consciousness” or “triality” consciousness. To get there tho, all these previous Ascension-related stair steps and Alchemical processes have to be gone through first. Soon we’ll know things from our Conscious High Hearts instead of having to linearly think, speculate or guess and hope for the best! We will simply know.
  • All this stuff going on in our heads and brains also causes hearing changes, inner ear pressures and the occasional inner ear stabbing pain. You will also hear strange non-physical sounds, voices, possibly words or your name being said etc. Again, no fear just realize that your two separate brain halves are being Rewired and billions of NEW neural Light pathways are being wired, connected between the two hemispheres that are becoming one unified whole brain. Of course we’re going to see, hear, smell, sense, perceive and feel all sorts of brand NEW energies, lights, Beings and dimensions etc.

Again there’s far more symptoms with the Brain Rewiring process because there’s far more happening than what I’ve written above. I’m not intentionally withholding information about these Ascension-related processes, it’s just that I haven’t completely figured out yet how to articulate what I perceive in geometric symbolic Light forms. As soon as I can better interpret into linear written words these geometric Light symbols I see over human energy and physical bodies, I’ll write about it too. I do know they represent Multidimensional, multiple layered Bodies we all have and how ALL of our different Energy Bodies from the densest to the mid-range to the highest frequency bodies closest to Source are ALL evolving/ascending simultaneously now.

Denise

February 21, 2011

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New Chakra Pains & Pressures

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GOOD GOD WHAT’S THAT PAIN IN MY SPINE?!

Around 2000, I started feeling a new physical pain that felt like my spine/back was breaking or broken above my heart, high up between my shoulder blades. Because I’ve had mild (although it sure doesn’t feel that way) scoliosis all my life, I assumed it was another thin disk and/or pinched nerves between vertebra in that particular area of my spine. Eventually however, I realized that physical area was the same location where I knew my energetic 5D High Heart was birthing itself. I then started understanding more about the connections between this particular place on our spines and our new 5D High Heart manifesting. In the diagram above this is number 6—the Thymus chakra. I prefer calling it the High Heart because it exists and functions well above the old lower 3D physical Heart chakra.

This physical pain in the back/spine right behind this Thymus High Heart chakra can, at times, be really painful and miserable and I’ve noticed that it causes a few other physical reactions or side effects which I think many people have been having for years now or they’ve started recently. One of the new 5D High Heart Thymus related symptoms is having our esophagus spasm painfully at or near this particular location in our spines. I never had this physical pain or symptom before my Ascension Process started, but I’ve had this painful spine/back and esophagus spasms off and on ever since. Usually eating food will cause it to spasm closed and hurt, especially if I’m hurrying, multitasking and not relaxed while eating. Other times I can be rested and relaxed and simply drink water and suddenly have my esophagus spasm and feel like there’s a stone stuck in it right at this High Heart Thymus chakra area.

Another related and very common side effect of this new 5D ascended High Heart Thymus chakra is heartburn from hell and/or acid re-flux on those super intense days.

GOOD GOD WHAT’S GOING ON WITH MY DIAPHRAGM?!

Other exciting Ascension-related new 5D chakra pains are connected to number 4 in the diagram above—the Diaphragm chakra. Other people have called this lovely bloating, bulging, never-ending expanded upper belly/gut/diaphragm situation the ‘Buddha Belly’. I’ll never forget the first time I ran across this term online about a year and a half ago because it immediately reminded me of my dear old past-life Master Teacher and much-loved friend Master Hotei, aka the Laughing Buddha. [See The Temple of Master Hotei: A Unique Past Life Memory ]. I remember in that past life wondering why Master Hotei’s belly was so distended when he really wasn’t overweight or fat. Now I know, intimately!

The first minute my Ascension Process started on February 1, 1999, my diaphragm bloated up like I was nine months pregnant and has remained that way ever since. It doesn’t matter if I don’t eat anything for days, my upper belly area doesn’t deflate and become con-caved like it always was prior to the start of this process. This Ascension-related symptom and new 5D chakra feels just like being nine months pregnant and you tried to eat a large meal. My vertebra in this particular area will often go out-of-place too, which I believe is directly related to the birthing of this new chakra. Also your diaphragm is so bloated, so distended that you sometimes feel like you can’t get enough air into your lungs. This symptom is about as much fun as the new High Heart/Thymus chakra side effects are! And, my already bloated diaphragm gets much worse the minute I physically leave my house and go into the lower vibrating world out there because entering any place where there’s more density creates an immediate reaction in my body from all lower frequency energies. Keep this in HighHeart mind when your body suddenly lets you know that you’ve entered a lower, more dense negative frequency physical location.

GOOD GOD WHAT’S HAPPENING TO THE BACK OF MY NECK?!

The next new Ascension-related 5D chakra is number 8 in the above diagram—The Well of Dreams. Again, due to my lifelong spinal pains and problems, this particular area of my spine has always been a wreck. Because of this it’s taken me longer to discern the symptoms that accompany the birth of this new higher chakra. I haven’t read or heard anything about this new chakra, but I sense it has something to do with—and this may sound really weird even for me—the integration of our male and female energies within our body and two brain hemispheres. I sense there is a new higher octave with this new Ascension-related 5D chakra to both the Throat chakra below it and the Brow chakra above it. I sense  at some point with our DNA re-connections and other higher energy changes, we will have the ability (again) to use vocal sounds (7D) to Consciously Create certain things and manifest them into our reality. This is a really ancient ability we lost, along with many others, that will eventually return due to our going through the Ascension and dimensional shift Process. I also sense that there’s more to this particular new chakra but I haven’t perceived it yet.

The Galactic Male and Galactic Female chakras speak for themselves, except that I wonder why they would be separated or polarized like this again? Maybe we’ve got some more integrating to do at even higher levels within this Process? Or, maybe they mean something very different from male/female as we’ve known it at lower levels of consciousness. At any rate, I suspect our current brain Rewiring Process will solve this confusion or outright distortion and fully reveal some truly amazing insights, abilities and memories to us again.

Denise Le Fay

June 1, 2010

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