An Ascension Kundalini Process Story

I received this email July 2017, and its generous author gave me permission to quote it here. This persons name is being withheld, but Thank You D****** for allowing me to share your Ascension related experience publicly. ❤ I know we both sincerely hope that your personal experiences, as horrific as they were, may help other readers who already have, currently are, or will be experiencing varying degrees of the unexpected evolutionary Ascension Process which typically includes sudden and completely unsolicited Kundalini activation in the unaware subject.

“I’m in the middle of recovering from a rather traumatic experience that, I’m fairly certain was/has been a particularly extreme and unpleasant awakening experience, if my readings on the topic and intuition have been any indication. I don’t really have anyone I can feel comfortable talking to about what I experienced and am having a hard time convincing myself I didn’t somehow manage to break my mind or end up slowly going insane in some other manner.

My experience has been so far-reaching and also supremely bizarre at its extreme limits that I don’t even know how to properly do it justice. Right up until about February 2017 or so I was basically what one would call an open-minded atheist or perhaps an agnostic, I was open to many possibilities, but at that point my experiences and  primary beliefs were very firmly ensconced in a standard material paradigm. However, things began to fall apart several months after I began some experiments in dietary alteration coupled with fasting protocols of increasing zeal and intensity.

I started personal experiments in fasting in early December of last year. These experiments followed and also built on what was previously a nearly two years process in progressively more robust dietary alterations that had initially been the result of me attempting to find a way to cure type 2 diabetes that I had been diagnosed with. I actually managed to eradicate the diabetes before I even started fasting, but I couldn’t resist the impulse to test the limits of the human body’s innate healing capabilities that are opened up during a sustained fasting state.

The results were absolutely incredible and caused me to start to re-evaluate my stance on just how ‘stupid’ various religious and spiritual traditions where about how they understood the world and the way the human body functioned. I noticed that many traditions appeared to sync periods of fasting and bodily purification to specific seasonal cycles and that these periods were often consistent across traditions, cultures and geographies, so, in a fit of inspiration I decided to try to ‘observe’ lent as an experiment to see what would happen if I mixed a hyper minimalist fruit/vegetable diet with fasting over the Lenten period. This is when things started to get weird. They didn’t get full off the rails weird at that point, but the initial shape was definitely starting to take form.

Once again, I’ll try to cliff’s notes the progression of things and what/why I took certain actions, but, basically, over the Lenten period and the following months my body, the way it reacted to stimuli and my perceptions of things started to change. I started to have these very intense ‘experiences’, visions, tingling sensations in my body, weird intuitive feelings I’d never had before. At one point, during an experiment in fasting without food or water, I had a series of utterly overpowering experiences that resulted in, among other things, large amounts of parasitic worms being ejected from my body. I had wounds open up and then heal more rapidly than wounds normally heal, strange small objects would be ejected from my skin, I’d get random periods of feeling strange electric tingling sensation course over areas of my body and waves of cold would hit specific subsections of my body accompanied by the hair in that specific region only standing right on end.

All these experiences should have been overwhelming, but it seemed obvious to me that I’d somehow stumbled onto some sort of profound healing mechanism and some sort of important and profound array of spiritual experiences that I didn’t understand, but hat also meant I could no longer pretend that there weren’t actually strange and wonderful powers at work in the world.

Up until that point, the experiences where weird and bizarre, but I could handle them alright, however, the magnitude of the experiences started to get stronger and stronger and a series of events resulted in me ending up spending 20 days in a psych ward. I can’t begin to describe what I experienced in that place, but the problem is a fair bit of what I experienced during the three days leading up to my confinement and the 20 days in the ward itself make more sense within the context of what people like you and other ascension writers have described than any other explanation I’ve been able to come up with. There was a period of several days where I was struggling to comprehend time because it had seemed to become nonlinear and I no longer felt properly anchored in it. At certain periods, time around me seemed to slow down to an absolute crawl even while I appeared to be moving at normal speed. During this period, I could bruise or paper-cut myself quite easily by simply gently brushing into an object.

I was filled with a strange sensation that I was simultaneously being held by hostile forces and that some sort of incredibly benevolent entities were themselves present within the ward trying to assist me. Light and conductive surfaces in the ward appeared to exhibit unusual qualities, I kept being struck with the feeling that my physical body wasn’t quite ‘real’ and that instead I had another body that I couldn’t see that was the one that I really needed to be concerned about and that this body had qualities that I didn’t quite understand. For some reason, I developed a very strong aversion to plastic feeling that making skin contact with it somehow drained energy out of me in a way that was viscerally unpleasant.

Anyway, I’ve already gone on too long and probably taken up enough of your time, but I’m struggling to understand what exactly was going on, because I believe very firmly that some very real things that don’t fit into my old paradigm or any of the normal ones I’m familiar with were occurring, but I have no idea how to go about finding out what, exactly occurred and I can’t even begin to figure out how to find people I can safely talk to about this stuff.

I look at people like you talking about 3D and 5D consciousness, altered perceptions of time and ethereal entities that exist out of phase with the world most of us are used to and as recently as 3 months ago I would have laughed at how crazy it all sounded and now I’m left with the unsettling idea that either I’m crazy, or the world as I know it is a quite different place from the world as I knew it even two weeks before I was hospitalized. I have no idea how to adjust, adapt or properly account for this change in my understanding of reality the strain of trying to integrate it into my life feels like it’s burning me out. I’m afraid to go out into the world and interact with people or talk to my friends, because I no longer feel like I understand how the world works and I don’t know how to engage with them in a way that will seem natural or functional anymore. I used to absolutely adore science and exploring the world in that way and now, it’s like my entire framework for understanding has been toppled like a house of cards and I don’t know which way is up or how to reorient myself in a way that lets me actually live my life effectively.

I’m sorry for this long run on two-part letter, but I hoped maybe you might be able to offer some sort of guidance or insight into my situation. As difficult as it is for me to accept, the framework people talking about vibrational energies and ascension processes put forward makes a ton more sense as a way of explaining the weird stuff I’ve experienced and seen manifest around me than a more conventional understanding of reality would allow for and so I’m left with little choice but to reach out to someone like you, who seems to know what they’re talking about and has made blog entries in the past that eerily match up to my own experiences over the past 5 months or so. This piece in particular was distressingly on point with my own experiences regarding a series of dreams/visions I had around the published time period that were overwhelming and inexplicable to me at the time.”

Thank you for your time,


My own sudden Ascension Kundalini Process activation began February 1999, and was equally as intense in its own ways as this woman’s, but mine was and continues to be slightly different because I’m a Forerunner/Wayshower/Embodier/ a First Everything-er of the NEW Light and NEW higher frequency evolutionary Codes. [For more information about my physical activation see my ABOUT page.]

Pain, fear, trauma, shock, confusion, self-doubt, negative beings, psychic attacks, higher expanded states of bliss and visions etc. are universal when experienced by humans; intense to the nearly incomprehensible extreme and entirely isolating in its outside the accepted reality box that old lower frequency human patriarchal consciousness, society, the Big Pharma medical machine and all other matching frequency realities and humans clings to as the one and only truth.

But such is the Dark Night of the Soul, and when a person is suddenly activated by the current evolutionary Ascension Process (AP) to evolve into much more than what they have been in all ways, it’s a harrowing and usually lengthy process that literally transforms every person that lives it. Physical, emotional, mental, energetic, cellular, spiritual, psychic and consciousness evolution from as low, extreme and negative a level of Duality and Duality consciousness and external reality and life on a prison planet that global humanity has existed in for thousands of years, up to what’s happening in 2017 and beyond, which is Humanities Global Dark Night of the Soul, is serious and difficult for everyone no matter which different energetic Stair-step (level and phase) each of us are currently at within this evolutionary process.

This is not a little bit of evolution, not a little bit of progress and change for people and the global human collective, but a massive unimaginable evolutionary leap from complete darkness and global negativity, duality, separation, dis-empowerment, corruption, distortions, lies about everything, weakness and sickness in all ways up to, humanity evolving from negativity, darkness and total separation in all ways up to Light and Unity in all ways individually and collectively. This great of an evolutionary leap as what humanity, Earth and beyond is currently experiencing requires equally large and dramatic individual and species-wide evolutionary changes, growth, repeated releasing of all old lower frequency patriarchal everything and constant evolutionary expanding into the NEW higher frequency Light and matching levels of consciousness, physical body, life and external reality.

And if that weren’t a big enough evolutionary leap, it’s happening in our current lifetimes, as in just one I mean! And it hurts physically, emotionally, mentally and in every other way one can think of. This is to be expected however when individuals—and now global humanity—experience living the Alchemical transformations personally. In late 2017, this living Alchemical Ascension Process is being experienced by global humanity, ready or not, believe in it or not. Earth too is shaking, quaking, erupting, flooding, burning and being torn apart repeatedly by hurricanes, tornadoes, storms and all types of elemental extremes. This is part of the Ascension Process as well because Earth/Gaia has ascended too and is still living this process. We’re all in this fully now and together.

I could talk on and on about the Ascension Process (AP) and the Embodiment Process (EP), which is what the Forerunners have been doing since the start of the AP decades ago. We Embody the NEW Light and Codes within in it first in our physical bodies then anchor them into the physical dimension and ascending Earth world for humanity coming along behind us.

However, what’s most important for the people new to the evolutionary Ascension Process and information about it, is that they realize what it is and that it’s happening globally and not just to them like some weird, isolated case of craziness and extreme. People need to know that they’re not alone in all this, which is why Ascension teachers like myself and certain others have written about, documented what we’ve been personally experiencing, learning, discovering and remembering about all of this online for over a decade. Just knowing that these painful and often terrifying physical, astral, etheric, paranormal, supernatural experiences are “normal” during compressed periods of evolution such as what’s happening now makes it easier to deal with. Just knowing too that the old lower frequency and consciousness patriarchal country/countries falling apart now in accelerated ways is due to the Ascension Process makes things a bit less stressful as well.

Evolving—mind you in one lifetime—from a carbon-based, ego-centered human with separated Duality consciousness and external reality and life to, a crystalline-based, HighHeart-centered human with Triality frequency, consciousness and growing external reality and life of Light that exist within a higher frequency and higher dimensional level of being, consciousness and external physical reality is nearly impossible to wrap ones brain around. It gets easier the deeper into the AP one travels however but at first what most people experience, feel, think, dream, see, hear, smell, encounter is so bizarre, so incredible, supernatural and absolutely nightmarish at times while utterly blissful at other times that the whole business is often way too much. Too much until you read about another person’s experiences with the AP and/or the EP processes then the entire “craziness” and severity suddenly takes on a very different meaning. It doesn’t immediately remove all the ultra-weirdness and pains and pressures compressed evolution causes, but it does help a great deal to know that one is NOT alone in all this and that in fact it’s normal for what’s happening to humanity and the planet and beyond now.

When you honestly think about the bottom of the barrel darkness and negativity that humanity has existed in for thousands of years and that suddenly all that begins Alchemically transmuting all their accumulated dank old “Lead” into vastly higher frequency “Gold”, then much of the over-the-top personal experiences of transmutation people go through takes on a different intensity and overall heartfelt respect from the reader of such things. Is it any wonder that most people evolving now suddenly find themselves repeatedly purging their guts, hearts, minds, bodies, bowels and psyches out for months and/or years? Not really. This is one HUGE evolutionary shift we’re talking about and living.

Is it any wonder that some people suddenly experiencing the AP would look, act, sound, talk and behave like they never have before? Not really. I remember the first decade of my AP and how obvious it was to strangers that something was wrong with me” because I looked so strange, red-hot, toxic, angry, sick and borderline deranged at times, not to mention fighting for my physical life and soul at times as well. [Those who go first (Forerunners) encounter the swift and automatic countermeasures from Team Dark — negative nonphysical beings, aliens, entities and Portal People physical humans that are puppets of the nonphysical, nonhuman aliens and beings etc.— in a long attempt to stop us, derail us, drive us mad or kill us.]

At first all this is about clearing out all the accumulated density, negativity and separation etc. we’ve each collected on our lengthy travels through physical incarnations across time on Earth and elsewhere. As if that weren’t enough however, as the old lower everything is being removed from each of us in every way imaginable by evolutionary Light and much more, we also go through the equally painful and confusing process of Embodying the NEW higher frequency Light and NEW Light Codes. So first it’s out with the old lower stuff and very quickly after that, often simultaneously actually, it’s in with the NEW higher stuff so the whole AP becomes one big ongoing mashup of ugly negativity and density being purged while Divine NEW Light and other marvels and glorious freedom enters and you just feel all beat-up and exhausted for a good long while. Again, this is normal so fear not and just keep living The Process as willingly as you’re capable of. Surrender to it in other words because it hurts less to do so and these processes can unfold within you more quickly when you stop resisting or fighting or being in fear and self-doubt over all that you and your body and central nervous system are going through.

Thanks again to D****** for allowing me to share her email with the rest of you. Light is information so the more Light we all share with one another the more consciousness is lifted higher and expanded and everyone benefits from that. ❤

Denise Le Fay

September 24, 2017

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18 thoughts on “An Ascension Kundalini Process Story

  1. Thanks for your personal reply, Denise! It says a lot about you and your empathy and understanding of the process. I’ll go through your earlier blogs and replies. Is there a community forum available for those going through this?

  2. Elizabeth F.,

    I’m glad you’ve found your way here as there’s over a decade of evolutionary Ascension Process (AP) and some additional Embodiment Process (EP) information here. I suggest you read through my older articles here, plus read the Comments under each article to see information from other people living the AP for many years now. It helps so to hear from others about what they’ve experienced, how they felt, the difficulties, the moments of bliss etc. and the variety of strange side effects/symptoms caused by the AP and so on. See LIBRARY in the Sidebar area and you’ll find the different topics there.

    “My husband says we can still get back together, but that seems like going back into an old skin. And, really, can we go backward after this experience?”

    In a word, no. We can try but it will make you feel horrific and like you’re being crushed by the density and negativity of the old lower frequency and consciousness world and reality. Your husband or anyone else can (and hopefully will) evolve up and join the rest of us but it’s their choice to do so or not. For them to remain at that old lower frequency will only increasingly become painful and miserable to them which usually causes them to begin this AP themselves. We cannot and aren’t supposed to do for them as they’ve GOT to go through these evolutionary changes themselves, and we’ve got to continue at the levels we’re each on/at currently too.

    This living Alchemical Process of compressed evolution is physically and every other way painful. We’re going from a profound state of density and negativity and Darkness up into the Light, and eventually we’ll each be capable of entering what the Ascension Community calls crystalline/Christ/Unity energy. Said another way, you (and me and all of us living, doing and Embodying this now) are the famed “second coming”, and we’re doing IT in and through our physical bodies. That’s a very important aspect of all this so please keep it in your HighHeart consciousness as you find yourself having to expand your old religious beliefs. ❤

  3. I started this journey (I had no idea what I was doing or that there’s a name for it) a couple years ago as an experiment in spirituality, i.e., Would the Universe/God/Source catch me if I let go of everything (beginning w/my relationship) and fully trusted? Trusted in a life of my choosing rather than default living?

    It has been spiritually magical and. . .it’s been one of the most frightening and painful things I’ve ever experienced. It’s not at all what I expected; it’s so confusing. It’s become more intense in the last few weeks. My husband says we can still get back together, but that seems like going back into an old skin. And, really, can we go backward after this experience?

    Last night in meditation, I visited what I call The Place of No Words, where I imagine (or is it real?) I do somersaults of joy in space, and am part of so much love and joy, I don’t want to leave. I can experience these euphoric times, but then I come down and have overwhelming pain in my heart area, intense fear and worries about being crazy during the day. I “self-arrest” by doing guided meditations, listening to music or watching an uplifting movie, which isn’t conducive to getting work done.

    I reacquainted with Jesus a couple of months ago, much to my surprise (decades-long, former Catholic). He/it has been my steady bridge to Source within.

    My questions: If so much of the time this feels painful, what is the purpose of that pain? Does it get better? Can life on earth be lived as we hoped and imagined it could be?

    Thanks for your blog! I’m glad to find a site that seems to be on the same page (how many people in the world are going through this?). I wish everyone all good things on their journeys.

  4. Denise…
    Sudden flash…when we “die to ourselves” was the dark the anomaly that became the clean up crew? I ask because I was shown long ago that the dark…not Team dark…but Source dark ( Denise we need another word:) was originally the border between the womb of creation and the light. The vultures, flies, lower creatures that live off the death of others are Necessary to the physical 3d world and that unless we do the proper housekeeping ( transmutting our junk) our spirit becomes over run with Creator dark or spiritual carrion. Im shown half formed, unfinished creations using up the negative leftover energy we leave behind as we grow into the light of love. This is one of the things left over from the ancient days I’m still grappling with. Thank you for your patience Denise, there seem to be only a few of us that worked on the edges and no one else I know has lived the answers to some of my questions.

  5. “…and yet there was this being, Jesus, that changed the world through his high heart (thank you…best description ever!)…”


    Thank you dearest, I am proud of that NEW term I created years ago.

    The old 3D “heart” was, like you’ve so beautifully said in your comment, as distorted and of a lower frequency and what we’ve been evolving/ascending up into was SO vastly elevated from all that, that I knew it was our HighHeart within a completely NEW higher level of Being that we were moving into. The other thing about it that’s always been a subtle but potent indicator is that it, the HighHeart, is located physically above the old lower frequency/consciousness/reality/dimensional physical heart plus it’s CENTERED in our chests, high above the old physical heart.

    “This morning it occurred to me how many ecstatic/hellish experiences must have been taking place in the beginning of Christianity. Inviting the Christ in must have awakened kundalini in many. Is it possible that was part of the reason priests came into being?”

    In truth, every astrological Age change out of the one ending and entering the new one has always been “hellish” for most of humanity because they just don’t do well with change of any type. What’s happening now is not only an astrological Age change, but a dimensional change, a massive Evolutionary Cycle change and on and on and on. Is it any wonder…

    Things are so, so much easier to comprehend overall when everyone remembers that “Christ” is a specific frequency, NOT a single person, alive or dead.

    So yes, when individuals begin opening to this vastly higher crystalline/Christ/unity frequency and consciousness, their body and being starts this Process of ascending from a lower frequency and state of being, consciousness and reality up into a higher frequency, consciousness, level, state of being and all else. And because Team Dark has run planet Earth for eons of the past Evolutionary Cycle, (please everyone notice I said past ) they’ve done whatever they needed to do to humanity to PREVENT this from happening. Why? Because when an individual human begins this Process of evolving from one level of frequency up to a higher one (and others too), that individual becomes untouchable, ascended up and out of frequency range from all Team Dark beings and humans which means that lifelong supply of human produced life-force and Light is no longer available to them to feed off of. To prevent their own starvation and deaths, they’ve done anything and everything to PREVENT humans/humanity from waking up and evolving beyond that old lower frequency range. To help them with this priests were created as another way to intentionally interfere with or completely derail and PREVENT individuals from directly accessing higher frequencies of Light and LOVE, one of which was and is crystalline/Christ/unity frequencies. Whenever there’s a middleman, middlemen, it’s because someone or a group of someone’s doesn’t want people to have direct personal access to something because they cannot be controlled, or charged etc. then.

    “I always believed that I didn’t need an intermediary between me and God.”

    We know so much more than we understand or remember… yet. 😉 ❤

    Thank you for your clear, ego-less teachings. There are so many of us out here that Bless you each and every day for all you continue to do.”

    Thank You again for saying that, I needed to hear that right now. ❤ ❤ ❤

    Lately there's been such profound change and progress, which means everything and most everyone has been evolving/changing more quickly than ever before. I feel this as many of us do and the now constantly changing multidimensional landscapes both personal and collective are kaleidoscope-like in their ever-changing beauty and complexity. Said another way, I feel when people come and go and shift and change and relocate energetically, and sometimes like the past 5-6 months of 2017, huge energetic migrations we could call them have taken place. Aka, the Separation of Worlds. It takes some getting used to each one of these NEW locations I find myself and some others in and out of etc. Thanks again for your wonderful comment oldsoul2017. ❤

  6. Sweet Denise,

    I read this post with a compassionate heart remembering my own awakening. Mine was in 1985, back in the dark new age.

    I always believed that I didn’t need an intermediary between me and God. Not the bible god of course, but the Source of all that was good and loving. I wasn’t, however, sure…about which God/god really existed or if I was just remembering a Love that never really was. I also had no words for what I was grappling with. The new ones hadn’t been invented yet and the old ones reeked with pain and suffering.

    Looking through history, certainly wasn’t a good argument for the Love side and yet there was this being, Jesus, that changed the world through his high heart (thank you…best description ever!) and so follow him I did, hard headed and broken hearted by this life and the multitude of others I kept glimpsing.
    Kundalini Rising!!! And life was Never the same thank Source!

    This morning it occurred to me how many ecstatic/hellish experiences must have been taking place in the beginning of Christianity. Inviting the Christ in must have awakened kundalini in many. Is it possible that was part of the reason priests came into being? That instead of teaching people about there Being a Process that was spontaneous and overwhelming (mostly seen in women I suspect) they saw it all as dark and dangerous and actually created the opening that the dark crawled through?

    Im guessing no one at the beginning of our Judeo Christian experience would have understood how to “hold space” the way some mystics and master teachers in the East did.

    Anyway, just thinking out loud. No need to post this as its ancient history in so many ways. Occasionally I just still Oneder how we got here?! 🙂
    Thank you for your clear, ego-less teachings. There are so many of us out here that Bless you each and every day for all you continue to do.


  7. Sonny,

    If you honestly believe what you’ve written in your Comment, why are you even here reading anything I’ve written about the Ascension Process and related topics?

    You obviously do not believe in this current natural evolutionary process of ascension, and repeatedly say in your Comments, that I deleted before this one, to go to another website that has old lower frequency 3D information by someone else that you believe and keep trying to promote on my site.

    If you believe that’s what works for you great, use it, but you cannot come into my site(s) and try to redirect people living the Ascension Process to your old lower frequency and lower consciousness belief systems. None of your Comments will be published so stop trying and happy yoga trails Sonny.

  8. Most people mess around with spiritual without knowing or it is your time to awaken check Siddhanta yoga video she could set you to the correct way of wakening she did for me unless you are really ready to face yourself you shouldn’t mess with Kundalini it is not all love and divine it is another maze you have to do the work.heal and get to know your true self first before you can help other.Do not go anywhere stay where you are and understanding the process She is really give you the correct answer no hallucinations just fact and truth

  9. Thank you. The procedure went well. We as fellow sojourners walk through many dark night’s of the soul. Glad to know it is not solitary.
    Much love to all.

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