Please… Is April 2013 Over Yet?!

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Is it just me or was April 2013 an unusually horrid month that just went on and on and on and on…?  My gawd it’s been unbelievable in both highly positive ways, and highly miserable ways throughout April. This simultaneous building of polarized extremes has always been freakishly interesting and frustrating to me during these amplified Ascension years, but in April 2013, it’s been extreme and very trying at times. Things have been both intensely positive and simultaneously negative since the first Equinox (March 2013) energies came in post 12-21-12, which I sense is “normal” for what’s happening until the different multiple worlds and timelines rip apart from each other and go their separate ways later this year.

And who knows, maybe April 2013 was preparation for May 2013, I suspect it was and I suspect once we’re in May we’ll be glad for all we experienced and had to deal with throughout the Twilight Zone-like month of April! But it still amazes me (and it certainly should not at this point) how large the consciousness gaps between people has become and how trying and oftentimes downright difficult it is for most everyone when forced to interact and communicate with someone whose barely within range of being in the same species group as you! The rubber bands are stretched about as far as they can be now and we’ve still got five more months of this before they break free of each other. Get your Zen on and keep it on because this is some crazy weird shit” we’re dealing with!

About every three months now my personal range of who I consciously know myself to be expands a bit more; plateaus for 2–3 months which gives me time to adapt; then it expands a bit more and so on. This is of course wonderful and exciting but honestly, kinda weird too because The Whole Picture expands and shifts a bit more every time this happens. It’s always good to intellectually know something, but it’s an entirely different situation when you actually embody it, whatever “it” is at that time. For me “it” has been about consciously integrating more and more of who I am at quantum and multidimensional levels of being into this Denise awareness, body and timeline.

It’s much like attending a rare physical Family Reunion and meeting your distant relatives that you’ve never met before and/or didn’t even know existed. I’ve been Seeing, perceiving and communicating with other aspects of me/Me/ME that exist in the divine quantum “Now Moment” and some of them are rather amazing. Please don’t misunderstand me here because each and every one of you reading this have these same connections to the other amazing aspects of you/You/YOU as I do—as we all do.

Now that we’re post 12-21-12, it’s time for many of us at the Forefront to start consciously knowing more about ourselves and our extended multidimensional Spiritual Families, and/or Soul Group(s), and/or Star Families etc. and our ever-evolving spiritual Work with each of them and consciously embodying more of these different aspects into this life, consciousness and body.  Said very simply—I’m incrementally (those Stair Steps) “ascending” as more aspects of my Higher Self “descend” incrementally allowing us to meet/merge in this new, higher frequency space. This is all still an ongoing Ascension Process and I’m just reporting on the latest tidbits I’m experiencing and better understanding at this moment.

I know it’s not time quite yet for me to publicly share all of what I’ve been experiencing personally over the past seven months about this but I will when it’s correct to do so. ♥ But know that many of us Forerunners are in the Process of incrementally consciously embodying more and more of our Higher Selves into these bodies/lives/consciousness/personalities/timeline etc., which is as I said before wonderful, but it naturally causes repeated expansions and shifts in my/your/our consciousness which makes it (momentarily at least) a bit difficult to interact and communicate with the people who are not doing this now, or yet, or simply not doing it at all. 

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Because not everyone is focused on the same thing(s) or at the same level of awareness or development, there are a bunch of people who are being used, manipulated and directed to mess with those of us who are incrementally embodying more and more of our Higher Selves into our body/being/awareness/lives now. Any person or group of people who are perceived to be a threat to Team Dark are attacked in different ways, and at this point it’s usually through certain humans. In my case, since 2000 it’s been mainly through certain neighbors because I’m at home the majority of the time and don’t “socialize”. So when I’m doing what I do as a Lightworker/Starseed/Creator Being etc., Team Dark directs some human(s) that vibrates within the frequency range they currently do to buy or rent a house as physically close to me as they can to interfere with me, try to derail me or attack me, which is the negative ‘Smash and Grab’ tactic we’ve discussed in other articles.

Having said all that, I also know from many years of personal hand-to-hand combat with Team Dark (nonhuman, nonphysical beings and the physical humans too) that every time I/you/we experience another big upsurge in negative individual attacks and/or larger collective ‘Smash and Grab’ attempts that it means we’re about to make another big positive shift forward and that’s why these last-minute negative tactics by Team Dark.

Another VERY important aspect of these negative Team Dark ‘Smash and Grab’ attacks on us individually and collectively now are actually VERY positive. Don’t forget that we’re still within the profoundly important Nine Months period which is—believe it or not after all many of us have been working on internally for over twenty years—a grace period, an extension period of our Life Review that happened at a quantum level at some time during the ‘Three Days of Darkness’ of 12-21-12, 12-22-12, 12-23-12. Because so many still needed a bit more “time” within physicality to consciously connect more of our old inner issues—wounds, fears etc. and transmute, integrate and neutralize them—we were given these profoundly valuable and important Nine Months (from 12-21-12) to continue our individual Life Reviews to get ourselves more clear energetically and neutral before the time do such extensive Inner Work winds down from the intense level it’s been at for so many years. So, despite whatever you have gone through since 12-21-12 and certainly since 3-20-13 looking and feeling and actually being genuine attacks from the Negatives/Team Dark, understand that they also are at higher levels the means for me/you/each of us to fully resolve, transmute, consciously realize and understand whatever it is that me/you/each of us needs to during this Nine Month extension period.

So yes they are ugly, nasty, stupid, repulsive etc. ‘Smash and Grab’ attacks upon many of us individually, and/or collectively, BUT at higher levels they are our individual Gifts to get ourselves free and clear enough to embody more… much more! Use the negative attacks to heal yourself; to transcend it all; to transmute, understand, and know so much more. Use the negative crap and attacks etc. at higher levels to literally propel yourself right out of Duality and Duality consciousness. Don’t make the mistake of believing that the unpleasant negative crap and attacks that have been happening in your life since 12-21-12 are only about whoever or whatever it is that’s causing you pain and/or frustrations because it is not. At lower levels it is a hand-to-hand combat situation, but at higher levels it’s really our personal ticket to freedom and empowerment so USE the miserable shit n’ crap n’ junk n’ idiots that at first glance looks, sounds, and feels like it’s something else entirely. It’s Initiatic, so take advantage of the “tests” popping up on your Path to get yourself where you need to be during this Life Review extension period and beyond.

If you too have experienced amazingly positive, uplifting, soul satisfying inner growth and conscious re-connections with some of the higher aspects of yourself and your extended Spiritual Family or Soul Group — AND have also been experiencing being attacked again by some unaware dumb-ass human(s) on autopilot being controlled by lower frequency ego, emotions, awareness and nonphysical Team Dark beings — then know that this means we’re making tremendous progress and some really great stuff is about to manifest because of it. There’s more to come but we’re “golden”… even when we forget that fact. ♥


April 30, 2013

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72 thoughts on “Please… Is April 2013 Over Yet?!

  1. Hi Denise
    Really excellent post – thank YOU!
    April was something else wasn’t it. For me it began with the first week in bed in incredible physical pain, weird dreams .. including one which featured Jimmy Savile … and other weird things … followed by a build up to an almighty `smash and grab’ … which, if I do say so myself was handled pretty well 😉 ( thank you to you for your support during that time ♥) and, as you say, ended up being a positive jump in many ways…. at the same time there was outer stuff going on too ( as we know) .. which had a knock on affect to the collective …. then at the same time things opened up and there were new and amazing things too.
    April was a bit like the weather here … all things … all seasons in one day …
    Happy May Day Denise … looks like we made it!
    Much Love

  2. Dear Denise,
    Oh my gosh! :You’re so Right On as always! I’m pretty well house-bound these days, so I dont’ get out imuch in this small town. Our neighbors are all gone working during the week, and gone shopping out of town, visiting relatives, or doing chuch work on the weekends. Not much trouble there, except for their lonely, barking, whining dogs.
    Our “attacks” seem to come through computer glitches and website malfunctions.. daily!. Household appliances breaking down, things disappearing, or lost and never found again. Phone calls day and night with “nobody” there. Demands from banks, corporations, utilities, etc., regarding our “failure to pay” or “respond”, that after umpeen calls to them, it was all their mistakes! It’s fix, fix, fix, around here. LOL
    We decided it’s to remind us to GET OFF THE SYSTEMS, which we’re doing slowly.

    On the up-side, I find the 3-D world is fading away. There’s a different quality of light in the rooms. I’m forgetting little bits and pieces of old habits, duties and obligations taking place regularly, and surprisingly, I don’t care!
    As those “Stair Steps” are slowly climbed, I find I’m living in higher states of awareness and in other dimensions more and more. I’m somehow “becoming” my Higher Self. I meditate most every morning, typing my questions and HS’s responses on the computer word processor. One day, I realized I was no longer closing my eyes while doing this. Next thing, I realized I was moving around the house, thinking of a question to ask HS when suddenly I was answering myself outloud! I’ve merged completely with HS.

    I tried to maintain an attitude of unconditional love and Oneness with All Life Everywhere, as often as I could, and this did occur for entire days at a time now and then.
    I first noticed that any people (mostly family) around me seemed more mellow, happier__ and even more intelligent. By this I mean they solved crossword puzzles more quicky and won more games of solitaire than before, noting the differences themselves.
    And when the U. Love and Oneness remained for days at a time, the “answers” to my “questions” arrived before I even asked them. Everything began to occur “apriori”__ i.e., all needs, and many desires, were met before I even realized I needed them, or wanted them. Hard to explain, but it seemed the “effects” arrived before the “causes” occurred.
    Figures began appearing in my bedroom at night__ people I realized were other versions of myself in other lifetimes &/or dimensions. It was amazing, wonderful. All the messy, “attacks” and interruptions have been prodding us to move forward into a more beautiful and wonderous world.
    I’ve also noted, the energy downloads are gentler and shorter-lived than before, and NO MORE “CLEANSING”! Hurray! HS says the photons in the sunlight are upgrading and healing our DNA automatically now. I’ve also noticed some positive health changes,as well.
    Thank you, Denise, and all you Commenters…. you have helped me to realize the miracles of our new lives.
    Love and Light to All,


    “But it still amazes me (and it certainly should not at this point) how large the consciousness gaps between people has become and how trying and oftentimes downright difficult it is for most everyone when forced to interact and communicate with someone whose barely within range of being in the same species group as you! The rubber bands are stretched about as far as they can be now and we’ve still got five more months of this before they break free of each other. Get your Zen on and keep it on because this is some “crazy weird shit” we’re dealing with!”

    This is how I have felt also. Until April my world was going fairly smoothly then a little bit of chaos in terms of resistance and lower frequencies from others; and I asked myself “is it just me?” Am I being in-considerate toward others, but No, I knew that I was mightily struggling to keep “sane” or civil and supportive amongst an increasingly “maddening crowd”. My patience was stretched thin and I was on the way to being “burnt out” but luckily, I am now on two weeks of leave, which I really need to get my Zen up again!

    In September I will turn 50 years of age. Looks like the final 5 months of my 50th year is going to be a good “test” for me personally, in terms of both laying out my own boundaries (in a firm but civil manner) and being aware that the negativity around me is merely a reflection of some people choosing to stay stuck in the old time-line, and is NOT a reflection upon how I am. I mean there’s a whole world out there, and I aim not to get dragged down into workplace anitcs, or into any other “dramas” of the world, but to hold my peace and to continue my “light work” in every form I can. Namaste, Celine

  4. Thanks so much for the post Denise. I have had a heck of a time this last week. I have had so many past hurts brought back to me! I was shocked at what I had to deal with and let go. Yes, maybe test. Glad I am not alone.

  5. just a quick note, I had acupuncture for back pain as well but had to lay on my stomach or on my side as the needles were placed in the area of the pain. The person was trained in Eastern tradition. I had 10 sessions and mostly they only lasted for 30-40 mins each. I received much benefit and remain mostly pain free now………unless I do something stupid and hurt myself. I have 5 herniated disc and stenosis so I feel really blessed to find this healer who helped me so much. I wish you success on you new adventure in this healing mode.
    oh I forgot to add, I received some emotional benefit from my sessions as well, this was maybe 7 years ago.

    As far as April goes, what is that anyway? Or where was it? Seems I have lost all touch with anything related to time. Love to all here 🙂

  6. OMG! The “Me’s”! In one dream I was in a station wagon (for those of us who remember station wagons!) full of “Me’s”– and the crazy-ass “Me” was driving! What a wild ride that was. 🙂

    Kidding aside on that one… the other two “Me’s” in the front seat were the cautious, sensible “Me” and the I-can-fix-anything mediator “Me” who was trying to reconcile an argument between the other two. All the other “Me’s” were in shadow in the back seats.

  7. Denise —

    I started reading this on my phone while I was away from my computer earlier today, and just started laughing knowingly as I read. I could not wait to get home and sit at my laptop and type up a response.

    My response to this month of April has been that it has just been nutso, bipolar, and yes, weirdos coming out of the woodwork to try to trigger me (and in some cases succeeding, but only momentarily as I have gotten more and more savvy to the tactics!). For me, everything peaked this last week with the full moon, lunar eclipse, and as Laura at the Oracle Report noted, the conjunction of Mercury and Eris and the Black Moon transit. Oy vey!

    Not to mention for the US, for other places on the planet… It has been “cray-cray” as the kids like to say.

    And I found in my own personal version of this bipolar nature of the month that it was primarily male energy that was hitting me negatively — from some supposedly spiritual males as well. I have to say, with the goddess energy that is surfacing since the Venus Transit last year, which has continued to work in balancing things out this year, I do feel sorry for our males on the planet, as I think that they are being challenged so much. The status quo has been male dominated for so long, and I believe Team Dark has used masculine energy to suppress and harm the divine feminine aspect — part of the whole control system, eh? So now that it is crumbling, and moving into a very different energetic space, males are bound to be experiencing this as feeling like their entire underpinnings are coming out from under them. The ones I am encountering seem to me like they are going through menopause or something, lol. Hormonal men! If you can imagine that. But it also gets more expressed in male energetic signatures. I understand all this would be causing men to freak out. And the ones in my life have been!! Big time.

    *shaking my head*

    Part of me just wants to hide out under a rock until it is safe to come out!

    On the good side of it, I have felt the energy of this month clearly loosen the things of the past for me, and the energetic ties to the past have really been broken. Some of the events that happened to me that were so challenging definitely had the effect of breaking even further with the past, and I do feel I am on that bridge having gone even further forward, and the things on the past side of the bridge are really receding into the background. I am straining to look ahead and see what is ahead of me. But it’s like being on the longest bridge I have ever been on, and I cannot see what is up ahead at all. However, in this month, I also FELT for the first time, so strongly, the energy signature and frequency of what is ahead, and it was really COOL. So many of the hurts and dark things from the past are becoming less painful, and I can feel that there is something good up ahead. If I can make it across the bridge, that is, lol.

    It’s still a struggle, though, and so I responded so much to this post and the feeling that we have had some of the best of the best, and the worst of the worst in this month.

    Tonight and tomorrow with Beltane in the northern hemisphere and Samhain in the southern, I feel it is an important marking point for us. I so remember May of last year, and that one was HUGE for me. The energy of this one feels like it could really put that experience last year to shame in intensity.

    I’m buckled up.

    With love,
    Calliope the Muse/Karin

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