Please… Is April 2013 Over Yet?!

763x800 journey

Is it just me or was April 2013 an unusually horrid month that just went on and on and on and on…?  My gawd it’s been unbelievable in both highly positive ways, and highly miserable ways throughout April. This simultaneous building of polarized extremes has always been freakishly interesting and frustrating to me during these amplified Ascension years, but in April 2013, it’s been extreme and very trying at times. Things have been both intensely positive and simultaneously negative since the first Equinox (March 2013) energies came in post 12-21-12, which I sense is “normal” for what’s happening until the different multiple worlds and timelines rip apart from each other and go their separate ways later this year.

And who knows, maybe April 2013 was preparation for May 2013, I suspect it was and I suspect once we’re in May we’ll be glad for all we experienced and had to deal with throughout the Twilight Zone-like month of April! But it still amazes me (and it certainly should not at this point) how large the consciousness gaps between people has become and how trying and oftentimes downright difficult it is for most everyone when forced to interact and communicate with someone whose barely within range of being in the same species group as you! The rubber bands are stretched about as far as they can be now and we’ve still got five more months of this before they break free of each other. Get your Zen on and keep it on because this is some crazy weird shit” we’re dealing with!

About every three months now my personal range of who I consciously know myself to be expands a bit more; plateaus for 2–3 months which gives me time to adapt; then it expands a bit more and so on. This is of course wonderful and exciting but honestly, kinda weird too because The Whole Picture expands and shifts a bit more every time this happens. It’s always good to intellectually know something, but it’s an entirely different situation when you actually embody it, whatever “it” is at that time. For me “it” has been about consciously integrating more and more of who I am at quantum and multidimensional levels of being into this Denise awareness, body and timeline.

It’s much like attending a rare physical Family Reunion and meeting your distant relatives that you’ve never met before and/or didn’t even know existed. I’ve been Seeing, perceiving and communicating with other aspects of me/Me/ME that exist in the divine quantum “Now Moment” and some of them are rather amazing. Please don’t misunderstand me here because each and every one of you reading this have these same connections to the other amazing aspects of you/You/YOU as I do—as we all do.

Now that we’re post 12-21-12, it’s time for many of us at the Forefront to start consciously knowing more about ourselves and our extended multidimensional Spiritual Families, and/or Soul Group(s), and/or Star Families etc. and our ever-evolving spiritual Work with each of them and consciously embodying more of these different aspects into this life, consciousness and body.  Said very simply—I’m incrementally (those Stair Steps) “ascending” as more aspects of my Higher Self “descend” incrementally allowing us to meet/merge in this new, higher frequency space. This is all still an ongoing Ascension Process and I’m just reporting on the latest tidbits I’m experiencing and better understanding at this moment.

I know it’s not time quite yet for me to publicly share all of what I’ve been experiencing personally over the past seven months about this but I will when it’s correct to do so. ♥ But know that many of us Forerunners are in the Process of incrementally consciously embodying more and more of our Higher Selves into these bodies/lives/consciousness/personalities/timeline etc., which is as I said before wonderful, but it naturally causes repeated expansions and shifts in my/your/our consciousness which makes it (momentarily at least) a bit difficult to interact and communicate with the people who are not doing this now, or yet, or simply not doing it at all. 

566x800 terrorface

Because not everyone is focused on the same thing(s) or at the same level of awareness or development, there are a bunch of people who are being used, manipulated and directed to mess with those of us who are incrementally embodying more and more of our Higher Selves into our body/being/awareness/lives now. Any person or group of people who are perceived to be a threat to Team Dark are attacked in different ways, and at this point it’s usually through certain humans. In my case, since 2000 it’s been mainly through certain neighbors because I’m at home the majority of the time and don’t “socialize”. So when I’m doing what I do as a Lightworker/Starseed/Creator Being etc., Team Dark directs some human(s) that vibrates within the frequency range they currently do to buy or rent a house as physically close to me as they can to interfere with me, try to derail me or attack me, which is the negative ‘Smash and Grab’ tactic we’ve discussed in other articles.

Having said all that, I also know from many years of personal hand-to-hand combat with Team Dark (nonhuman, nonphysical beings and the physical humans too) that every time I/you/we experience another big upsurge in negative individual attacks and/or larger collective ‘Smash and Grab’ attempts that it means we’re about to make another big positive shift forward and that’s why these last-minute negative tactics by Team Dark.

Another VERY important aspect of these negative Team Dark ‘Smash and Grab’ attacks on us individually and collectively now are actually VERY positive. Don’t forget that we’re still within the profoundly important Nine Months period which is—believe it or not after all many of us have been working on internally for over twenty years—a grace period, an extension period of our Life Review that happened at a quantum level at some time during the ‘Three Days of Darkness’ of 12-21-12, 12-22-12, 12-23-12. Because so many still needed a bit more “time” within physicality to consciously connect more of our old inner issues—wounds, fears etc. and transmute, integrate and neutralize them—we were given these profoundly valuable and important Nine Months (from 12-21-12) to continue our individual Life Reviews to get ourselves more clear energetically and neutral before the time do such extensive Inner Work winds down from the intense level it’s been at for so many years. So, despite whatever you have gone through since 12-21-12 and certainly since 3-20-13 looking and feeling and actually being genuine attacks from the Negatives/Team Dark, understand that they also are at higher levels the means for me/you/each of us to fully resolve, transmute, consciously realize and understand whatever it is that me/you/each of us needs to during this Nine Month extension period.

So yes they are ugly, nasty, stupid, repulsive etc. ‘Smash and Grab’ attacks upon many of us individually, and/or collectively, BUT at higher levels they are our individual Gifts to get ourselves free and clear enough to embody more… much more! Use the negative attacks to heal yourself; to transcend it all; to transmute, understand, and know so much more. Use the negative crap and attacks etc. at higher levels to literally propel yourself right out of Duality and Duality consciousness. Don’t make the mistake of believing that the unpleasant negative crap and attacks that have been happening in your life since 12-21-12 are only about whoever or whatever it is that’s causing you pain and/or frustrations because it is not. At lower levels it is a hand-to-hand combat situation, but at higher levels it’s really our personal ticket to freedom and empowerment so USE the miserable shit n’ crap n’ junk n’ idiots that at first glance looks, sounds, and feels like it’s something else entirely. It’s Initiatic, so take advantage of the “tests” popping up on your Path to get yourself where you need to be during this Life Review extension period and beyond.

If you too have experienced amazingly positive, uplifting, soul satisfying inner growth and conscious re-connections with some of the higher aspects of yourself and your extended Spiritual Family or Soul Group — AND have also been experiencing being attacked again by some unaware dumb-ass human(s) on autopilot being controlled by lower frequency ego, emotions, awareness and nonphysical Team Dark beings — then know that this means we’re making tremendous progress and some really great stuff is about to manifest because of it. There’s more to come but we’re “golden”… even when we forget that fact. ♥


April 30, 2013

copyright dk blue Copyright © Denise Le Fay and TRANSITIONS, 2013. All Rights Reserved. You may copy and redistribute this material so long as you do not alter it in any way, the content remains complete, credit is given to the author and you include this copyright notice and link.

72 thoughts on “Please… Is April 2013 Over Yet?!

  1. Everything I had just text was erased ugh!

    Ok im gonna keep it short and simple. Im tired and I’m in tears after reading this post. I cant begin to share all my dramatic attacks, but in short, they tried killing me in the accident 2/9 they are trying to make my sick (infection in uterus and ovaries) they are trying to break up my relationship with my partner (distance relationship if he has to stay in LA for work) they have declined insurance claim so our car may have a lien sale ($4k +) 30 days to pay we have no means of transportation now. We arent paying it!!!! They can keep the car and shove it!!

    We are trying doing everything we possibly can, it is trying and its very sad at times depressing almost to see the light.

    Im trying to get zen in the home too. Suggestions?

    Now as to all the positive I sent a text to guy who hit me and forgave him, amongst those other humans who were being used and still are being manipulated, i forgave them and shared my love.

    They try sooo hard…im not going nowhere!!! Thank you for this post Denise…

    Love and hugs…

  2. Yes, April was a huge challenge and a gift. Just when I think that there are no good endings in sight for a relative, he gets it together and a miracle of grace shows up….and then it happens all over again…Extreme anger and hopelessness to sudden sensibleness. Very odd to witness and manage, and a great practice for keeping my center. Not always successful, but strangely enough I feel myself growing more sane throughout all the craziness.

  3. Thanks, Denise. Well you just descibed the month of April perfectly. Today’s blog came at the perfect time, as things for me have been just as you described above. I must admit that the last couple of days I really have felt like I just can’t take this anymore. I have felt very depressed and hopeless. It makes me feel so much better that you understand.

    In love & gratitude,

  4. Denise, I was waiting for you write today, for I was feeling the intense energy that I haven’t felt for awhile, in the last 3 days.
    It is very difficult dragging one’s self through the day trying to get necessary things done while feeling so many unwanted symtoms.
    I have sat here the last 3 days, trying sooo hard to clean the house with no energy and then want to cry becuase I can’t. I don’t except people to feel sorry for me, it’s just I am so tried of THIS state, and the lonliness..
    I try and not freak out becuase I don’t sleep until 3:00am, That the vibrational energy is over the top and that most people aren’t experiencing what I am and don’t have a clue.

    However, I haven’t been able to work very much in the last 3 years but have noticed lately when people call for(Soul) readings that I am spot on. Greater clarity and expansion.
    Once again thanks so much for checking in…definelty and reality check. I am so tired of being tired.

  5. Dearest Denise,

    Thank you, thank you for your talent of expressing in “limited” words some of my experience. Just today I was trying to express to my therapist how for a few weeks I’ve been here, but not really here, or rather here but not disassociated, but…. and bless you, there it was: it’s this process of embodying more me/Me/ME. I feel expanded, floaty, tired but not tired. I sense that this is preparing Me for the next step of awareness/embodying. One thing my therapist mentioned today is it sounded like I’m in an “incubation” time, or her other thing she references: adpating to the new elevation as with mountain climbing… how you need to rest at a base camp to aclimate before moving further up (ah hah! stair steps!).

    I’ve been guided to do acupuncture, something I’ve never done before. I’ve only had 3 treatments (to help relieve really bad sciatic pain), and everytime, I lay in the recliner for 2 hours! It never feels like 2 hours, never feels like I fall asleep, that I’m aware of people coming and going, the music, etc. It occurred to me today that me/Me/ME are all working together intensely during this time, although “me” doesn’t remember a lot of it. I also am experiencing various memories, pictures and thoughts that are releasing during the treatment. The acupuncturists both said to me, after I was shocked that 2 hours passed, that my “body must have really needed it”. And I completely agree.

    I’ve reached a place where dealing with emotional, past, “triggered” issues are really “in the past”. Now my focus is on the physical. I need to focus on healing my body, building up stamina so that I can truly go forth and “live”. In the “now” time, I’m listening to my body and other pieces of wisdom that guide me to what is important for me to know/learn, as well as sharing and opening up with people that cross my path.

    And by the way, thank you for cracking me up!!!

    “AND have also been experiencing being attacked again by some unaware dumb-ass human(s) on autopilot being controlled by lower frequency ego, emotions, awareness and nonphysical Team Dark beings”

    Bless you for sharing your experiences/observations in increments throughout this “time”. As with everything, as things unfold, the time will be right to hear and know about more of this process.

    With Much Love and Light,
    Chrysalis… ready to fly…

  6. wow, yes, april has been mighty dark. lots of pissed-off bullying controller types (nonphysical) making their near-constant presence known to me. and my physical health is worse than it has ever been, ever. they’ve loaded this weight on me and i’m in such poor condition, can’t feel my heart, they just pummel the life out of me, hurl insults at me, stab me in the head, and so on. geesh! really, no shame or compassion at all.

    holding onto a very thin thread here in the hopes that this is all truly for a great big huge wonderful purpose. my conscious faith falters, i feel abandoned and betrayed at times, in a state of horror and panic, asking “how could this happen? are you fucking kidding me???” but inside i’m still me and calm and centered at the same time. but that’s not life. this is not life. it’s a moment-by-moment survival. my guides call it “staying in the Divine Present,” no matter what is going on, no matter how awful i feel in this beleaguered form.

    oh anyway … i just wanted to say thank you for your love and support here, for all that you give and all that you are, with us and for us.

    much love,

  7. THANK YOU so much for this Denise! I’ve still been a target, & it’s been close to my demise :), but know I’m about to break through. And I’ve actually started to get the feeling that these attacks now are mirroring the buried parts of ourselves that are scared or embarrassed to come out. We are all ONE anyway (yet that’s not the “reality” in duality). But we have this amazing opportunity to welcome those parts of us and embrace them and love them. Not necessarily to welcome in Team Dark, but to use them as a reminder that we are really so powerful and just have the last deep bits of clearing to do. And there is no reason to be scared of them or constantly on the lookout and protecting from them. The focus is to be on the Light and, as you said, healing ourselves so we may embody more of it. So Team Dark at this point can serve as a pain in our body does…just a reminder or a message that there’s more Love to Be.

Comments must be On Topic to be published

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s