In the early AM hours of April 1, 2013 I experienced another layer of my personal Life Review. As I said in another article, the Life Review every human experienced at some point on either 12-21-12 or 12-22-12 or 12-23-12 — the Three Days — happened at a quantum level and state of being with Divine Consciousness. Immediately after this we entered these extended “Nine Months” period for us to, at lower frequency and dimensional levels and bodies, work on and experience whatever it is that each one of us still here on Earth now needs to before the end of this Nine Months extension period.
The Life Review happened in a quantum split-second for each of us at some point during the Three Days; these following Nine Months (the Three Trimesters) are us re-examining, working on, living and fulfilling our quantum Life Review but within these lower dimensions and bodies (this physical one, the higher Astral, and into fifth dimensional levels as well). We are multidimensional Beings and this is more of us becoming consciously aware of this fact and that we’re working very diligently within multiple dimensions during these Nine Months to complete what we wanted and agreed to at our quantum level Life Review during the Three Days.
In the early AM hours of April 1, 2013 I experienced another aspect or layer of my Life Review while asleep and out-of-body in a higher dimension. While there I suddenly experienced a reunion with a elder male human I’d physically known and loved dearly as a friend and fellow spiritual teacher during the late 1970s and 1980s. He physically died in the late 1980s. As was the case in what little I remembered of my original quantum level Life Review that took place in the early AM hours of 12-22-12, this old male friend and spiritual teacher reunion of April 1, 2013 was much the same. He and I were suddenly alone together and terribly happy to see each other again and we poured our hearts out to each other about how much we loved each other and how much we valued each other and so on. We thanked each other for every single thing, every single word, every single emotion the other one gave the other when we were together physically on earth. That was my Life Review with that person, Samuel. It was a great gift and real blessing for me to consciously remember that this event even took place while I was asleep earlier in the AM hours of 4-1-13. ❤
Interestingly, when I awoke a couple of hours after this non-physical meeting with this beloved old friend, I unexpectedly and immediately collided with another memory, and this one was the exact opposite of the earlier one! As I awakened around 5:00 AM on April 1, 2013, I was assailed with the realization that it was the thirteenth anniversary of when two half-brothers moved into a rental house next door to what was my Mother’s old house. If you’ve read A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution then you know that I’m referring to that house and those horrible demonically possessed and totally controlled neighbors. Thirteen years ago today on April Fools Day — how clever Team Dark could be when they wanted to — began the worst and most difficult four-year period of my entire life because those two half-brothers were deliberately moved in next-door to my Mom and I in an attempt to stop me and prevent us both from doing what we were there to do which was protect a portal that existed in that physical area from being taken over by Team Dark during that time, plus help from the physical 3D side, higher dimensional Starbeings anchor a section of the NEW higher frequency Earth Grid System in that location. For more information about this and much more read the book please and thank you. 🙂
Point is, that on April 1, 2000, those two males were intentionally moved into the house next door to us by Team Dark and one of them was the portal person or host for a female demonic entity. She controlled the other brother, their friends and other family members too, and her mission at that point was to take me out of the Ascension picture in any way she/it could and she/it nearly did… nearly. Four years of this battle and it still took us selling that house and physically moving in an attempt to stop the psychic/Astral/physical attacks by the demonic entity and that group of controlled humans. So on April 1, 2013, I wake up with the realization that it’s the thirteenth anniversary of the worst time of my life (and that’s saying something believe me) and then in pours all of those April 1, 2000 through end of June 2004 memories of the years of hell I and my Mom went through while they lived next door and before we sold that house to escape/survive both the demonic and physical attacks.
As I’m laying there in bed this morning being assailed by these horrible memories, I don’t mind telling you that I wanted revenge in the worst of ways. In the next second however, I wanted to be completely free and emotionally neutral about these past events with those people and their controller demon. In those minutes I wanted to not even have to remember what I suffered through during those four astonishing, Ascension-related Grid Worker years in that physical location. As I lay there going through these memories and emotions and wanting to be free of it all, I started to become depressed and then decided to completely surrender to what was happening to me.
A couple of hours later I was telling my Mom about my sudden realization that today is the thirteenth anniversary of one of our most treacherous Starseed jobs in these lives. While I was telling her this I suddenly remembered that hours earlier I’d had the wonderful reunion with my long-dead male friend and spiritual teacher Samuel who she also knew. I was immobilized in that moment as these two profound extremes, these two extreme memories of actual physical events I’ve lived through both came back into my full consciousness. I immediately realized that, for me, this was another layer of my Life Review that I was and still am working on. That and the glaring realization of the extremes in duality and consciousness between these two events. I saw them, felt them, and in that instant I was able to ascend into that third higher frequency point ▲ that exists beyond duality/polarity; I was granted my wish of emotional neutrality to the horrors and attacks of those four years at the hands of an Unseen demonic being that totally controlled those two half-brothers and their friends and family.
- Loving, respectful, grateful memory of interacting with another soul filled with LightLove
- Pain, anger, and very sad memories of other souls controlled by Team Dark filled with DarkHate
- Further integrations of issues within my Life Review that still needed more Inner Work so I’d be free to ascend into higher frequency neutrality/unity/High Heart etc.
This is us working on and living through our Life Review issues during these Nine Months before the Separation of Worlds begins fully in this dimension (and others). These issues, these dreams, memories, emotions, wounds, traumas and reunions with loved ones both alive and dead are us working on our Life Review issues so we can further ascend out of old duality energies and related issues and into neutrality which is “unity” or High Heart frequency energies. These emotional and physical pains, old wounds and other such Ascension related PTSD issues we’ve still got within us must be transmuted and this is exactly what so many of us have been and will continue doing from 12-21-12 through 9-22-13. There’s more because I know I’m not done yet but I wanted to share this duality contrast Life Review work and learning I had with you so you’d have it to remind you when something similar unfolds as you work through your Life Review during the Nine Months. Keep up the great work everyone. ❤
Denise
April 1, 2013
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Hi Denise. All I know is that from the equinox thru Easter my experience has been INTENSE. Easter eve I got “tired” and slept off an on all Sunday and I know I was visiting different dimensions, etc. At one point I felt so “filled” that I was desireless which was bewildering to my physical mind! What to do? nothing! ….. as always I appreciate your sharing and teaching here. ……. Hugs to all : )
I wanted to write something positive inspite of what i have experienced since leaving North Wales at the beginning of March and ever since I arrived here in Glastonbury, which has got to be one of the most horrendous, painful shamanic initiations II have had to date. I wanted to share an experience I had in one of the towns I stopped over in whilst being dragged here and still trying to figure out why? I went out one night to find somewhere I could eat in or take out. (i was in South Wales in Brecon). On my way back I lost my sense of direction and as I looked around to see where I was, I saw a young woman (about 19 years old), coming around the corner.. i approached her and asked her whether she knew where I could find my way back to my B@B. She had an incredible maturity for her age which I noticed immediately. She said she would walk with me to the bridge which led to where I needed to be heading. As we walked towards our destination, a group of people walked past and commented on her BOOTS, which were very colourful..When we got to the bridge, I looked into her eyes to say “thank you” and what I saw starring right back at me were the eyes of a cat as it appears in the dark. They were unbelievable and I could not help but say how amazing they were. I just got this real knowing as I walked off, that she wasn’t human. I reflected on this over and over again because there was something about her that experience that left me speechless.I kept on thinking about those eyes and then I remembered her telling me that her name was KATlin and then the incident with those who walked past after commenting on her boots. Well it could only be PUSS IN BOOTS! – of course, my amily there to tell me I was not on my own and whoever it was as a being, had manifested into physical form to give me that message.. The have been different yet equally glaring synchronistic experiences which I could share, to let me know iI was being watched over every step of the way, but that was one of the most incredible. i hope Denise, you don’t men me sharing this. I just think it’s important for us to know that when we think we are alone down here, something comes along just in the nik of time to remind us of who we are and that everything we are going through has a higher purpose to it in terms of what we each need to go through to become the new leaders, teachers etc, during this time of humanity’s transition into Unity/High Heart Consciousness on this Ascending Planet. Love you Denise and all of my beautiful, courageous comrades. Katerina
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Thank you Denise,
Had a really bad cold/flu, went to my chest, releasing huge amounts of sadness and grief, stuck in the physical cells of my body. Just couldn’t shift it before the cold, I was holding on to it all and couldn’t let go.
Now I feel lighter, and neutral and freer. Hope it lasts 🙂
It’s really been hell, and not having the same insights as you, your confirmation of all that’s happened to you keeps me going.
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Dearest Denise,
Thank you for your clarity that you bring to us. For me, the PTSD that ruled my life for almost 2 decades was broken through in Nov. when my Higher Self removed all fear, anxiety and panic. I can’t even recall what it felt like to live with those emotions now. However, I have been facing certain memories I thought had been resolved these past months. I’ve learned to recognize (as you so eloquently write) that it’s more opportunity to dive in deeper to create enough of a chasm through the chaos and neutralize it with love and light.
This whole season of lent and easter has been a huge PTSD marker in my life for almost 2 decades. Every trigger (that used to be a major trigger by itself) presented itself during these past weeks. I delighted in recognizing that it was a test presenting itself to me, would I still have anxiety? Would I still turn my head away? Would I still quiver and shake? Would I numb myself in whichever way I could? None of these things happened! Those around me who know this about me were completely stunned by the fundamental change.
However, whether by team dark’s meddling, or by design (as you know), my cat has not been doing well. On Friday I worried and I cried because I did not know what to do. I went to the gym finally, and once I was in the water, I felt such relief, so much at peace. I got through the weekend. I do recognize this situation has brought up a lot of old memories, and a feeling of universal emotions about the treatment of animals in general. I’ve allowed the tears to flow when I can; and yet I’m not sad. I’ve “gone there” (worst case scenario) and know that if it’s her time to go, that I only have to ask her to show up in another form to me in this life soon after so we can continue our journey together. I don’t feel this will be the case at this time though. It was a test for myself to see how I would handle the situation emotion wise. My being is muddled right now, all day long with the thought “I don’t know what to do here”. I finally made some choices, and I still feel unsure of what I’m doing, if it’s enough, if it’s the best choice. Hopefully I’ll have some answers tomorrow.
With Much Love and Light,
Chrysalis… ready to fly…
I knew clairvoyantly you had posted, Denise! I’m getting better at knowing when Karen B is posting, too, lol. I came here on the prompt — not seeing the post in my reader nor in my inbox. I just knew… 😉 That was fun to have happen.
As far as this post goes, as for me and my experience, I can sum it up in one word: YUP. *nods*
I am feeling rather pummeled by the extremes. I don’t know what type of energy broke loose today on April 1st, but BAM. All the extremes you experienced are like my own as well on this day.
I’m not experiencing the neutrality quite so much at the moment, but I can say this for myself: each time I have an episode of continued Life Review (so that IS what this has been these past intense days!!), I do have the sensation of taking things in, the good and the bad, the joyful and the sorrowful, the loving and the angry, and “assuming” it into myself. I’m using the French sense of the word as a verb (assumer) — to take on; to hold; to accept. I transmute it within, and then have a sense of letting go, which happens in waves. I used this metaphor in another comment, but it is not unlike the digestive process of taking in both good tasting foods and bad tasting ones, digesting them fully, pooping them out, and flushing away the results (which are kind of the same result no matter what went in, right? LOL). I feel like the transformation of the stuff going in has turned into fertilizer of some sort for Mother Gaia, Mother Goddess. Funny. Transmuted spiritual matter as poo. Heh. But that is just what it feels like to me, from an energetic and emotional standpoint.
It’s exhausting, and it’s getting hard to explain to people. “Oh my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is flaring up,” “I’m so sad from my marriage breakup and not feeling well,” “I think I maybe ate a food I’m allergic to without knowing it — you know that hidden gluten…”
I mean, all of the above is or can be true, but this is off the charts and I KNOW it is Ascension stuff, but I keep having to say the other stuff is to blame. And people in my life are starting to look at me and say things suggesting they think I am just being lazy or unmotivated to get a job I badly need, or “really you should be starting to get over the breakup by now. Life goes on after all,” or I imagine the thoughts that “Surely she cannot be allergic to ALL FOOD. Jeepers!”
The excuses are holding up in the meantime, but by a thread, it feels like. I’m sure that the rest of the good folk here know exactly what I’m writing about here, and Denise, I know you do. I’m glad you have the mom that you do is what I have to say about that, haha.
BTW, that part of your book about the neighbors from 2000-2004 impacted me *so very much* even just reading about your experience here practically sends me into PTSD on your behalf just because of having *read* those stories!! YIKES. What an intense time that was for you. I am glad that you had some healthy contrast in the form of Samuel to balance things out, but wowzers. That part of your book really got to me. I can only imagine what hell that was to live through.
*EXHALES*
So. We have more to go through, huh. I’m buckling up my seatbelt for the roller coaster ride. I have noticed I am experiencing “mirroring” with parallel events in 2007. If that is indeed a mirror of what this year is to be like (and so far, it really, really is parallel for me) then OY. I know exactly what is ahead because of what was before. It was INTENSE.
Well, in a multidimensional existence, it is already 5 pm somewhere. I mean, the September Equinox. Hahaha. I don’t drink booze anymore, but now I am kind of wishing I did. 😉
Love to all here, and thank you for this post, Denise. *hugs*
Calliope/Karin
Reblogged this on Spirit In Action and commented:
As always Denise is a few steps ahead and explaining the terrain;-) I know everyone has different paths and experiences so there are many leaders, teachers and guides around so what works for one, may not for another. For me, I have usually been the leader, teacher and guide with rarely anyone in the physical 3d world to look to for guidance-just sort of flying by the seat of the pants, so Denise’s blog is a constant source of awe and amazement, gratitude and joy for me.
Denise, I am in complete awe and gratitude of how much your experiences often are so similar to my own, and how reading your discussions about them so often illuminates my own such that they make more sense to me.
Thank you for having the courage to get thru those experiences AND the courage to share them as you are doing.
I am in the midst of year 5 of my own demonic-controlled attacking neighbor experience. Tho I am sure it is different in many ways from yours, it is so healing and comforting to realize I am not as alone as I feel experiencing it. It really is “part of the job” we came here to do.
I have also been experiencing the polarity of that situation juxtaposed with so many other beautiful, loving, spiritual experiences-and was struggling in my own sort of chaotic way to integrate that into something.
Reading your experience makes it so much more clear what that “something” is, which is very good-hitting the target is so much easier without all the fog and smoke in between;-)
I have also been very grateful for some of your older posts on team dark attacks and interference, which have helped me to realize that SO many things I took as grievous personal failings were in fact aspects of team dark’s interaction with me. As you mentioned the devil’s best trick is to convince you he doesn’t exist;-/
I was recently given a gift that was of sacred/religious design and upon wearing it, suddenly the *noise* and voices etc that I have constantly had to deal with, try to ignore or counter for many years just stopped. Total Silence in my Head!
Having just read one of your posts I immediately realized that rather than being a failure at overcoming my limitations as far as my neurologic setup-I had actually done amazingly well for being under constant attack.
This is making it a LOT easier to do that whole love yourself/accept yourself part of the ascension process than it has been for the last 29 years. 😉
Its almost comical that had team dark not stepped up their insanity lately, I might not have gone seeking the info in those posts, so even their attempts at harm are being turned to good;-)
Thank you for sharing your experiences and making it so much more possible for many more of us to sort out our own confusion. Indeed there is a lot of re-experiencing and transmuting going on, and it works a lot better when we recognize it for what it is rather than getting stuck in the emotions!
Love and Blessings,
Ohnwentsya