Why Some Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos Experience Negative Attacks & Others Don’t

“Dear Denise,

I’m writing because I am concerned that there may be some of us, and I am one, who believes that I am protected from the Dark, and have always been protected, because otherwise my job here would not make much sense, and so other than breathing in light and breathing out love on a daily basis, I have never felt the urge to do any special ritual or activity with specific reference to keeping Team Dark away from me and those I love, especially my pets.

My life prior to awakening was full of pain, especially physical, and I always handled it without becoming a victim of blaming any other for the condition in which I found myself. Emotionally, I have been dragged through the mud a few times, but again I learned the lessons and was able to extricate myself when I needed to. I’m not saying I was anything special in my younger years, that’s for sure, but somehow I knew that I created my reality and if I succumbed to pressures outside of myself, I would pay a very big price indeed.

Can you tell me, please, and I know you will tell me honestly, am I fooling myself? 

I am comfortable with my awareness and since my awakening, I have had no experiences with Team Dark, and as I read about those who have, I wonder if my turn is yet to come. I don’t sense that, but it would help me tremendously, and hopefully others, who wonder if we’ve being naive. I do not want to infer that protection isn’t necessary, but is it possible that there are some of us who incarnated into this nano-second protected? Thank you. Love to All Here.


Barbara wrote this Comment under another article recently (which I’ve edited here slightly) and because it’s an important question I wanted to respond to it in its own article.

In all honesty I think the majority of Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos have not wanted to fully consciously know and admit (while in their physical bodies and lives on Earth) just how extensive the negativity, atrocities and deceptions on Earth have been and how profoundly handicapped humanity has become due to Team Dark’s multidimensional actions against them. Knowing this at higher, nonphysical levels is very different from being in physicality feeling and living under the negative distortions and interference directly and personally. Also, many Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers haven’t even been consciously aware of when they have been under the influences and attacks of negative nonphysical beings, dark controlled puppet humans (Portal People), and negative forces and energies in general and have incorrectly believed themselves to be beyond them and untouchable. Nothing could be further from the truth, especially for those who are Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers.

Despite my being consciously aware from childhood that I intentionally came to 3D Earth from some place less dense, I’ve resented having to energetically protect myself from Team Dark during this life here. That may sound strange coming from an ultra-sensitive elder Starseed who volunteered to live inside the enemy’s camp to stop them but it’s true. I have resented needing to continually protect myself from Team Dark in this life because it was a daily and nightly reminder of how dark and horrible life on Earth has been and my role in correcting this situation.

Not all Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkers are here to embody the NEW higher frequency blueprints for humanity in the same ways or to the same degree. I know many of my fellow Forerunners/Starseed/Lightworker/Indigo co-workers don’t have a Soul Mission to experience and embody severe polarized Light/Dark extremes in physicality as I and certain others have during this Ascension lifetime. This does NOT mean anyone is more privileged or special than another, it simply means that not all Forerunners/Starseeds/Lightworkes are carrying out identical Mission Work here now. We’re all here to aid humanity, Earth, Home and everything and everyone in between and beyond, but we each have our different talents and Soul Missions within the overall Ascension Process. Not everyone is or needs to be an Ascension Process electrician or Ascension Process framer, plumber, heating and air, carpenters, painters etc., all are equally needed for their important individual abilities.

For a couple decades I wondered why I had so many negative encounters and attacks from Team Dark—the negative nonphysical, nonhuman Aliens plus other negative lower frequency and lower consciousness entities and humans also. During my twenties (1970s) and thirties (1980s) I oftentimes thought that I must be doing something “wrong” to cause or attract such negative nonphysical attention and attacks repeatedly. I believe many of us have incorrectly thought this about ourselves over the years or decades. Back then I considered everything I was aware of at that time and always felt like some major piece of this puzzle was missing. I’ve finally realized that some, not all but some Starseeds have the soul mission of experiencing repeated negative attacks, encounters, face-to-face conversations etc. in multiple dimensions (physical, astral, mental planes) from Team Dark. Why? To experience severe polarity extremes in 3D physicality and our physical bodies so we can embody higher frequency energetic solutions.

This is another amazing Alchemical Ascension formula where Team Dark’s negativity and attacks are energetically utilized by some Starseeds to activate polarity resolution and integration within their bodies. Doing this automatically activates the next phase which is embodiment of higher frequency Unity blueprints for evolving humanity. The Ascension Process had to be embodied in this physical dimension by Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos first as the way to physically, biologically and energetically anchor the higher frequency Unity blueprints or templates into this dimension and timeline for humanity for the next Evolutionary Cycle.

Realize that some Starseeds/Lightworkers/Lightwarriors/Indigos have intimate and repeated battles with Team Dark and many do not and both situations are normal. Starseeds who experience close hand-to-hand combat with Team Dark do so NOT because they did anything “wrong”; NOT because they weren’t feeling enough “love”; NOT because some were “better” than others; NOT because they’ve been in their subconscious basements and are projecting it on others, or any other such incorrect type of thinking and awareness. And the Starseeds who don’t experience repeated attacks from Team Dark haven’t done anything “wrong” either!

These negative attacks happen to some Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos because it’s part of the Ascension Process of Alchemically transmuting, transforming duality and what we’ve come to call “negativity” into a higher frequency. It’s Alchemically transformed back to a neutral state and then becomes “unified” and exists in a higher frequency range and state. Do not feel guilty if you have or if you have not experienced attacks and battles with Team Dark, or that you have to or don’t have to protect yourself against them. We all do what we’re here now to do; it’s just that some of us have to wear more work related protective gear than others is all. But, no matter what, always be careful please and protect yourself if and whenever you feel you need to.

Gratitude to all for your individual services in the Ascension Process.


May 31, 2012

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150 thoughts on “Why Some Starseeds/Lightworkers/Indigos Experience Negative Attacks & Others Don’t

  1. Hi Denise. Just wanted to say thank you so much. At this point all I can do is ponder and keep asking! Also I wish I had used a spell check or something too!

  2. Hello, Barbara,

    First of all, let me express my condolences for the loss of your brother-in-law and your husband’s twin. I lost my father in a similar way some years ago and, even though they go for the reasons they must, it’s still very hard to be left behind. And I know how you’ve expressed how much you want to go. I hear you, sister.
    I, too, always felt a kinship with Orion and a lesser one with the Pleiades. And I, too, can feel this group growing in strength and beauty every moment as well.

    Love to all here,

  3. Denise — You are an amazing ultra-sensitive elder Starseed whom I respect immensely. Thank you so much for your article — extremely timely and brought much needed clarity. Throughout my Journey, I have consistently been attacked by Team Dark — physically, emotionally and verbally. My early ‘awareness’ of Team Dark’s evil atrocities began with family violence, abuse and addiction. Leaving home at 19, I began a long struggle with depression with involved many suicide attempts. My sister and soulmate was heinously murdered in 1982 suffering from 48 stab wounds, strangled and raped. Newly married at the age of 26, she was indeed a Lightworker full of love and compassion and laughter. Having spent fun dancing the previous evening, the last words we spoke were on the phone one hour before she was taken. My other sister committed suicide 14 yrs ago. My brother and last sibling’s last suicide attempt was 3 yrs ago. The ‘wrong’ men were always attracted to me. Very conscious of my soul’s mission, but fearful of thoughts of suicide, I attempted therapy over the course of 25 yrs. I experienced a breakdown 8 yrs ago, was hospitalized in a psychiatric unit, and prescribed medications, which I fought tooth and nail. I was very healthy conscious and began running the day after my sister’s murder which continued for 25 yrs. 6 yrs ago, I had a hip replacement (due to running) and the surgeon cut my sciatic nerve, which rendered my right foot lifeless — no more running, no more dancing, no more…

    At 10, I became conscious of my soul’s intention — that I intentionally came to 3D Earth to speak Truth and stop the extensive negativity, atrocities and deceptions on Earth attacking humanity. While I was unaware the I was a Lightworker, I knew at the core of my being the I had a purpose. As my Journey continued, I found that speaking Truth is not very popular. People misunderstood me. I was the topic disgusting rumors filled with lies and contempt. Close ‘friends’ backstabbed me to shreds. My reputation with nonprofit groups and volunteer work was destroyed. I was basically run out of town.

    Later along my Journey I became aware that I was a Truthseeker to bring Light to the Darkness. That my painful beginnings prepared me as a Courageous Survivor. That if people were getting mad at me, I must be doing something right.

    As my Ascension Journey continues, now 59, I am still confronted by Team Dark. I recently emerged from a 2 week “dark night of the soul” experience which always is accompanied by severe physical pain. I have been taught that with pain, comes intense and amazing Spiritual growth, insight, strength and courage to continue my Soul’s mission on Earth.

    As you, resentment has definitely been part of my story. Gratefully, I experience it less than I used to but it is still there. The pure feeling of human joy left my soul with my sister’s murder. As an extremely sensitive empathic, sadness, isolation, darkens my days. What I do have is Divine Inspiration and Guidance from the Spirit World that strengthens my mission.

    Thank you for allowing me to share. May the stars of the Universe continue to shine on your Spirit.


  4. This explains a lot. I have always resonated with Lisa Renee’s Polarity Integrator info and thought it so curious that a number of my lightworker type peers did not experience energies and transitions the way I do.

    Thank you for posting this insight, Denise.


  5. Hi Aya, thanks for sharing. I have been enduring lots of pain in my left side and in my gums, etc. Now I am not going to believe it is the same thing, but you have given me a new perspective to explore and I thank you! I have been using Reiki for days on the pain in my head, gum, throat, etc…neck, shoulders… I am now hoping my pain will talk to me!

  6. Denise and all,

    I haven’t read all of these other important recent messages here… but I couldn’t wait to share my most recent experiences… started in the wee hours of this very morning.

    I was in bed awakened for some odd reason I couldn’t really put a finger to… but there I was: awakened. All I remember was feeling the need to be on the guard for something evil and dark on the prowl. I have no logical explanation as to how I come up with this… but my instincts (or intuition or Higher Self) was alerting me onto something. Last night was somewhat humid and mosquitos were aggressively out and about, so the fan was still on as usual. This fan was a low ground and short fan, as it was humming away, while my eyes were drowsing off to sleep. Between awake and asleep… I saw two fans: one the regular short one on my usual right… and one that was tall, and white… and long… similar to the obelisk (?) at the WhiteHouse DC… right in front of me. I paid no fright to it. That wasn’t was alerted me (I’m assuming so).

    Buy my alertness was still heightened and increasing gradually and quietly, as I went steeper and deeper into slumber. I was in a long corridor, similar to our familiar, family-home one… but at the same time, not like it. It reminded me of the ones at a railway station. Probably close to it… but I was looking at myself alerting my OTHER self of something dark and evil on prowl. I saw my other self scouting out and about.

    Then suddenly above my head at left… this very dark and evil “thing” left out a sound of “haaaaaaaaaaaaa”… on me… like deliberately exhaling… but no exhaled air… just a sound. I didn’t feel any air from this being… but rather a distinct, no-nonsense EVIL energy… deliberately saying “Here I am” by just that “haaaaa” sound… with a nasty verve of attitude. This thing… I remember saying to myself on the spot… the name “Imp”… had one BIG, nasty, mean, convulsive/repulsive dark attitude on me… like it’s playing and toying with me.

    This is my FIRST encounter of this nature in a looooooooooooooong ass time. O.o

    My Instinct made no lies to me: there WAS a dark “Imp” and it came and went in a blink. But I’ll NEVER forget IT. Had me awake right on the spot… because my Instincts said so. I instinctively looked up to my upper left to find that creature… hovering over my pillow. Obviously IT wasn’t there… but IT’S absent presence was STILL there… even for a moment. I was so disturbed by this “thing”… I couldn’t sleep properly… but eventually a few more hours I mustered the nerve to get some sort of rest.

    Because of its nasty attitude and the timing of it… I swear… I SWEAR by my very Life IT (and it’s other minion friends) are laughing AT ME… because I cannot see them. I can FEEL them… but not see them clairvoyantly. Something wicked “something” this way comes…. and I don’t know what IT is.

    And by God/dess…. my own Higher Self is still whispering to me that this is the SECOND time I’m having this evil encounter… but I simply couldn’t remember when.

    I KNEW deep deep deep down I needed Lisa’s 12D Shield… every single night… even though I never ever had such attacks like you ladies and gents have. Not ever. But like someone else has said… you may never know.

    … And by gawd: my message is so damn long. Sorry about that… and take your time reading it. I too have a hard time reading long word lately. My eyes are still tired.

    Thanks much,
    Lou Ann
    P.S. I am still disturbed by what went down early morning… even though it was a split second.

  7. Thank you for sharing Lou Ann. It’s one tough learning experience, eh? That’s why I feel I can speak for more than just myself when I say Denise, Lady, & all who have be dealing with this for a long time have my (our) deepest respect.

    Stay strong and with love,

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