Messages from my Higher Self


When I was a young child I had an Astral Plane tutor or guide assigned to me until age 28–29 (the first Saturn Return). Unfortunately I didn’t immediately realize that’s what he was as a child, only that some strange male Being my parents couldn’t see waited each night behind my floor-length bedroom curtains for me to get out of my physical body to teach me how to consciously maneuver in the Astral plane. In the beginning he was something that scared the heck out of me each night before I got out of my physical body. However, once free of my 3D constraints this always faceless male Being in a brown hooded monks robe was my personal tutor/guide to flying safely—and with style I might add—in the 4D Astral.

For the first couple of years my transitions between awake in 3D to lucid in 4D, I needed to create a series of steps to get free of the seeming gravitational pull and density of 3D physicality even while out-of-body. For a young child these inter-dimensional steps were clever but of course they’re down-right silly and humorous now, but this is what I went through as a kid to get myself astrally airborne.

First I’d clairvoyantly see the etheric male guide standing behind my physical bedroom curtains waiting for me to leave me physical body. Next I’d feel some minor pain and/or pulling sensations in one side of my body as I exited it. I’d then immediately float up towards the ceiling and oftentimes let myself go all the way up until my nose gently touched the ceiling and float there awhile playing.

A few moments later I’d find myself outside and always during the daytime so I knew I was out-of-body and “dreaming”. This step of my transitional process always began with me in our driveway then quickly walking down to the curb and gutter area. For a couple of years this one-and-only location was my important astral launchpad area. Now here’s the funny part. Once I was in this particular area I’d squat down and then jump up as hard and high as I could and frantically begin clawing, crawling, pulling and fighting my way up to a height of about six feet above astral ground-level. It was always a great effort getting myself above this invisible astral barrier but as soon as I did I was free from some weird gravitational pull and could then easily fly in the astral plane. This would be the point where my astral tutor/guide would appear, always wearing his brown hooded monks robe with the face area blacked out so I wouldn’t attach too much to him. Talk about evolved ego-less Beings. ❤

I remember being embarrassed that I looked so foolish and had to struggle so to get myself beyond this strange invisible barrier, yet my astral tutor told me he thought I’d done well in figuring out how to get myself across that subtle energy barricade. He didn’t care what methods I created at the time to intentionally get myself from 3D physical to 4D etheric, he was just glad I could do it on my own. As I progressed I no longer needed to go through these steps to transition between 3D and 4D but this is how I did it from around age six or seven.


Jump forward to 1977, I believe it was when the first Star Wars movie opened in theaters. I went with a boyfriend and watched it for the first time in a packed theater. There were so many scenes in it that were instantly and deeply familiar to me as a Starseed; scenes like flying quickly and closely past huge planets and crossing vast amounts of deep-space in a split-second. But there was one scene that moved me in a very different way and I sensed it was a symbol for something else. What that something else was I didn’t fully know or remember in 1977, but I certainly do now and my Higher Self uses it often to drive the point home and for me to share that knowledge here.

My Higher Self has repeatedly shown me this one scene from Star Wars where the small positive Group—the elder Jedi Master, his neophyte student, plus the crew—is in the Millennium Falcon spaceship trying to outrun a Group from the “Dark Side of the Force”. As the Dark Group gets way too close for comfort, at the very last second the jump to Light-speed device finally works and the stars stretch out and pull long in front of the Light Group in the Millennium Falcon as they make the transition to Light-speed and escape the determined evil on their tails.


My Higher Self has been using some of my past experiences to show me—in typical symbolic visual imagery—that Phase One of the Ascension Process (January 1999 through the end of 2009) was much like my needing to squat down and then jump as hard and high as I could to get myself free of the dense gravitational pull of polarized 3D. It was for me and many of the other First Wave Starseed Lightworkers the profoundly difficult phase of offloading—aka transmuting and integrating—what felt like tons of crushing dense personal and collective negative Dark Side of the Force 3D physical earth and 4D etheric astral trash.

Now in Phase Two of the Ascension Process (January 2010 through October 28, 2011), some of us have been repeatedly tweaking the “hyper-drive” systems within ourselves so we can make the jump to Light-speed—the transition of all transitions—which is rapidly approaching now as the remaining minutes of the Mayan calendar countdown to the very real Expiration Date. As we make these last-minute adjustments and adaptations to our inner hyper-drive systems during the weeks and months of 2011, our doing so naturally Creates a Way and Pathway for any and all humans that honestly desire to live in the unified Light instead of the polarized Dark to make the last-minute transitional jump to Light-speed this year too.

In really simplified terms, Phase One of the Ascension Process began when we (and by we I mean the First Wave Starseed Lightworkers) entered the Mayan calendar’s Eighth Wave on January 5, 1999, and began the intense Physical Plane biological transmuting and polarity integrating of our bodies and brains phase—the dirty, difficult, and dangerous polarity resolution phase.

Phase Two of the Ascension Process fully activated when we entered the most compressed and accelerated Ninth Wave phase on March 9, 2011. This completion phase of the Ascension Process has accelerated each week and month since March 9, 2011. However, from the June 21, 2011 summer Solstice until the Expiration Date—the end of the Mayan calendar on Oct. 28, 2011—this five month-long acceleration period and process will additionally accelerate each hour, each day, each week and month! The planet and every human on it who truly desires the Light over the Dark are increasingly offloading to get up-to-speed energetically to make the last transitional jump to Light-speed. We’ll then transition through the powerful trinity 11-11-11 portal on Nov. 11, 2011 and full separation from the old lower polarized 3D world, reality, dimension, people and Dark Ones will be complete.

Think of the remaining compressed days of this five month-long period from the 2011 summer Solstice through to the end of the Mayan calendar as vibrationally spinning faster and higher internally/externally via Light each day; everything and everyone that’s still dense and polarized simply is not capable of hanging on to anything or anyone else in this incredibly accelerated pre-launch spin cycle! They’re not willing to change now and are literally spun-off and away from those that are. Both Groups will have matching like-frequency worlds in like-frequency dimensions and locations to continue learning and evolving in. The great Expiration Date that the Mayan calendar represents means very different things to both Groups; to many it IS the horrible “End Times” because their parasitic free-ride/lunch is over. To others it is the start of living in peace, abundance, unity High Heart and being free in a world of Light for all for the first time in a very, very long time.


May 27, 2011

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32 thoughts on “Messages from my Higher Self

  1. Gerry, thank you, and wow! I was brought up Mormon also! It’s funny how I never related the changes to that. I don’t recall anyone from church ever trying to keep me quiet, but there are pieces from my childhood that I don’t remember. I have a feeling that this year it will be coming back to me.

    Denise, what you wrote really touched me, I felt it in my heart, and I know its time. It’s not easy, but it is worth it and I’m not giving up. Thank you.

  2. raven333,

    See how very, very important it is for each of us to work on OURSELVES first? After that we can better guide certain other people to deal with their inner stuff too. But it’s ourselves first and others second…which is of course exactly the opposite of what we’re taught. See the reasons for this as well and who was really trying to get humanity to not feel, deal, and heal?

    Females usually have more difficulty learning how to speak their truth because it’s been a patriarchal run world (all of Earth) and they’ve really taken females voices away (and plenty of other things) for thousands of years. Because of this females Throat chakras are usually closed up pretty tight most of their lives unless they very consciously work towards learning how to speak their truths and literally create via the Throat chakra. (Ever wonder why, as women age, their necks get all frog looking and baggy, droopy, fat and big? A lifetime of not allowing their energy to flow through their Throat chakra and develop and create.) This is also why females need to talk more to each other to help them express their feelings etc. They know they can much more honestly and fully speak their truths to other females.

    The flip-side of this is that males Heart chakras are usually closed up pretty tight most of their lives. Why? So they could do all the nasty things that the patriarchy has demanded they do. It’s hard to kill others with an open Heart; not so much with one that’s totally closed. This is why many males have heart attacks because their Heart chakra has been closed the majority of their lives.

    Back on track…

    Here’s some Homework for you to do every day for as long as you feel you can benefit from it. I want you to begin by talking out-loud to an empty room. Say anything you want, anything you NEED to say aloud and do not feel bad, guilty, silly, rebellious, disrespectful, weak, stupid, or negative for doing so. Just talk aloud to the empty room when you know that no one can hear you. Get comfortable doing this.

    The next step is to start letting yourself speak emotions aloud. Get pissed, get mad, get angry, get happy, get fearful, get defensive, feel as many different emotions as you can and while you’re feeling each one of them, SAY SOMETHING that reflects what you’re feeling emotionally. This will help you to emotionally tap into whatever feelings you need to feel now AND then externally, physically give voice to each of them aloud. Get used to how this feels inside your body and inside your heart, throat, voice, and your gut. Pay attention to this Process and see if anything comes up from your inner basement. If so just deal with it; be consciously aware of it (whatever it is), feel it emotionally without guilt or shame, then speak about it externally to the empty room. It’s so important to get these inner emotional stuck energies externalized by speaking them aloud. As soon as we speak them aloud, externalize them, they loose much of their power over us.

    The next step in this Homework is for you to learn how to speak your feelings, your truths, your fears, your dreams etc. to another living person…whose in the same room as you are. 😉 When you’re ready for this stage of the Process, get together with the person YOU feel the most comfortable with and that YOU trust the most to not hurt you, attack you, wound you, blame you, shame you etc. etc. Use this person as your ways and means to learn how it feels to speak aloud different things you’re feeling and need to express to another living being. You can even tell this one test person what you’re doing and why IF you trust them fully.

    The point is for you to inch your way towards learning how to physically speak words that actually mean something TO YOU to another living person. (As females living our lives in a patriarchal world we’ve learned to say plenty of silly meaningless crap to not make anyone else feel threatened by us. It takes some work to retrain ourselves to transmute that Collective BS!) This is you learning how to work with your Throat chakra and all of the energy within it. When someone speaks to you what do you, the listener do? We listen to them and usually mentally visualize what they’re telling us and we also usually emotionally feel their story as well. That’s how potent the Throat chakra is at creating. 😉

    Be strong and KNOW that you have a Divine Right to speak.


  3. Raven333 – At the age of 7, I changed completely much as you have described. At some point I had a vivid dream wherein my father and I were in a cave sitting on giant mushrooms while he was “talking” to me. I eventually put it together: my father was fanatically religious (Mormon) and would have “talks” with people. He spoke a lot about evil. I believe one of his talks at that age shut me down. Raven, go within; become complete within yourself; don’t worry about other people; you will become a magnet for like-minded people. Best of luck to you.

  4. I need some help Denise and beautiful lightworkers. I know we are all going through this together and our issues are coming up for us to accept, integrate, or release, and I’m glad for this, I want and am doing this I believe.
    When I was a young child, up until age 8, I was fearless and spoke my truth. I’m sure there were those that thought of me as a pain in the arse because of my mischievousness nature. I suddenly (it seems overnight) became very quiet, shy, and fearful of speaking in front of others. I’ve pondered that a lot in my life how I could go from one extreme to the other without any apparent cause. I still am having difficulties speaking and being around people, even family members. I love people so much and do energy work for others, but when it comes to being around them, I am SO awkward. This whole issue is now being presented to me to deal with and I don’t know how. Part of what I feel i need to work on is speaking my truth and being myself around others. I am fine being myself around myself and my children but as soon as anyone else is around me I just clam up and feel uncomfortable and because of a long time desire for others to like me, I have been a doormat most of my life and need to learn to say no now, and when I do I feel like a heel. Probably I truly should accept myself and then everything else will fall into place, and I feel that I actually love myself for the first time in this lifetime, but I guess I don’t accept everything about me. I feel like there is something I am keeping hidden from myself and I really want to understand what it is now even if its painful.
    I was wondering if any of you feel you want to, can you help me by sending loving energy my way, I will gladly accept it.
    I am grateful for this blog Denise and for the beautiful people that come here. I hope this isn’t off topic and if it is, I apologize and understand if you don’t post it. Love and hugs to you all.

  5. mia,

    Happy Birthday…it’s a special one turning 40! Just go with the powerful life-changing Uranus Opposition energies that flood you, your consciousness, and your life now (from 39-42 or 43ish).

    Thank you so for enjoying your journey through The Temple of Master Hotei. And yes, everyone continues moving forward in their journey’s and soul growth. 😉

    Hugs of Gratitude,

  6. *Thank You* Denise ~
    My “Light Jump” this month has been once again aided by you… Some weeks back I entered Master Hotei’s temple in the footsteps of Little Ivory One and what a journey it has been 🙂 Savouring every moment! The pull and urge to read this particular book at this particular time is no coincidence, I had a clear sign it was time. And boy have I “Light Jumped”! Also experienced the strongest ever shift on my solar return a few days ago, and now can hardly recognise the previous four decades. Exciting to see where all this leads. Extending heart-felt Gratitude to you Denise, seems to me you’re “Master Hotei” here to us now 🙂

  7. I’m with many of you, some of my big issues are re-surfacing again to resolve and let go (hopefully for the last or close to the last time!). I have to say I wish things had transpired more elegantly-it has been messy. I am feeling very clumsy and exposed-does anyone else feel this? I get angry at not being able to speak w/those involved in the messiness about what I’m going through but I have acknowledged with them what I’ve learned through our difficulties and that I’ve changed as a result. It seems their worst stuff is being exposed as well; I get that and it helps me to forgive them and move on.

  8. nora,

    Absolutely, it’s a huge part of the Ascension Process. What’s really great is that, as you’ve discovered, our old inner stuck emotional energies and issues (wounds, fears, projections etc) are VASTLY easier to transmute and integrate now than it was to do this type of Inner Work five years ago or ten years ago. This is one huge positive with the compressed and accelerated timeline and ending of the Mayan calendar (our rushing towards the Expiration Date 😉 ) is that all of our personal inner stuff, whatever it is at this point, is so much more easily and quickly realized, dealt with, integrated and transmuted so you/me/us are really free and able to continue on with this Process. Time’s short…just do it is my motto. Great job you! 🙂


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