OKAY, LET’S DO THIS
I’ve been under psychic attack by the Dark Side of the Force —aka Team Dark as I call them all—for the past month now. My 81-year-old Mom and my much beloved cat have been too, and it’s been horrible as it always is. Those of you who’ve read A Lightworker’s Mission: The Journey Through Polarity Resolution will be able to understand this post a bit better than those who haven’t. But, this current multidimensional Battle is something I knew would happen and I mentioned this in my post about The Hathors/Tom Kenyon’s “World Meditation”. I said there would be an energetic backlash from the Dark negative Beings over this planetary meditation to remove and free-up the souls who’ve been controlled and used via certain limiting religious beliefs, and beliefs that Earth is just a source for humanity to heartlessly, disrespectfully and greedily use. My problem is that I can consciously know certain things, even write about them and still not instantly catch when I’m under psychic suppression/attack by the Dark… yet again! Embarrassing but true, and something I feel certain some people will benefit from once I share my recent experiences.
Back in October 2010 I suddenly began having difficulties when trying to mentally and emotionally focus and/or intend and Consciously Create certain things for myself and my family and friends. Normally this is an effortless process for me and I should have recognized my symptoms as those of negative interference but I didn’t. There are reasons for this however which we’ll get to. Everything, even these types of negative Dark attacks are lessons, Initiations, stages and phases within the ongoing Ascension Process for many of us (not all however) and they are perfect in their wisdom even though they’re negative and horrible. This is how I learn even more about a subject I’m already well versed in, so I’m grateful to be able to pass this knowledge on to any others who may benefit from it because they too have been or currently are under psychic multidimensional attack by the Dark because they are First Wave Lightworkers.
As the days passed I was having more difficulty mentally and emotionally focusing on certain higher things I’d been working on for myself and family. I began sliding down into a mild depression, frustration, sense of victim-hood, decreased vitality, decreased strength, decreased everything! About this time my Mom and I suddenly started getting frustrated with each other and both of us wanted out, wanted to live alone and not be bothered with each other. My cat also began throwing up his food every few days which is very unusual for him. He also displayed huge decreases in his vital life-force and he looked and acted sad and sick, which was so hard to witness. At one point I even wondered if he was dying. (If you’ve read my book, remember the horrific demonic attacks and then the orange tiger kitten.) Again, I should have easily recognized all of this as common symptoms of negative psychic attacks and also of highly focused interference with all three of us, but I didn’t put all the pieces together. This too is another common symptom and tactic used by the Dark against us; they cause us to think that all is well, that nothing is wrong and that it will pass eventually. Remember this powerful tactic as it may save your life and/or sanity.
The tensions, frustrations, and sense of being trapped increased, the desire to physically separate from my Mom and her from me, the cat repeatedly getting sick and obviously suppressed energetically, absolutely NOT being able to mentally and emotionally focus on higher frequency things I wanted and needed to focus on, and constantly being pulled back down into emotions such as anger, frustrations, victim-hood, and all-around lower frequency thoughts and emotions. I could not maintain any higher frequency thoughts and emotions as is normal for me, but kept finding myself quickly back down in these lower states with little ability to pull my focus in, redirect it and most importantly, maintain it at a higher level.
The next big clue with all this was a lucid “dream” I had on November 6, 2010. I know when I’m having “dreams” that my subconscious have produced for me, and I also know when I have actual other-dimensional encounters with both positive and negative Beings in them. This was not a subconscious “dream” but an actual encounter with some very real, very ancient, and very Big Bad Old Dudes out there. I’ve been through these types of lucid astral encounters and attacks many times throughout my lifetime, however this one was a first in that these negative Dark Beings interacted with me very differently than they ever have prior. Huge clue this one.
Briefly this “dream” state encounter was with a small group of GIANT non-human male Beings. (They looked like a slightly different version of the negative Reptilian beings.) What really affected me in this encounter/attack was that these Dark negative male beings were so huge. They were giant giants, about twenty-five to thirty foot tall with massive, heavily muscled bodies. They were the multidimensional Bad Asses behind the mediocre physical plane human Bad Asses, and that information came from them. They let me know in this meeting that they are the non-physical Puppet Masters, the other-dimensional Dark beings that run and control the negative humans who in turn run the negative systems and beliefs on Earth. You see, the Dark physical patriarchal human bastards have much bigger non-physical Dark bastards that control them and they’re very, very ancient Dark Beings that are giant giants.
This dream attack didn’t last too long but cut right to the chase and eventually the main being in this Group of Dark beings picked me up and tossed me around like I was a rag doll, which I was in his huge hands. He then proceeded to try to intimidate me by holding me inches in front of his huge non-human face while he threatened me, raged at me, and revealed things to me I couldn’t believe he was stupidly doing. However, this is what the Dark does when it’s at the end of its rope; it finally reveals some aspects of itself to some of us which helps us put many more interdimensional pieces together, but also to see that they’re no longer capable of kickin’ my (your) ass as they have been. The why of this is one of the biggest points in this whole story and process.
Normally I would easily exit the dream attack at this scary and dangerous point, but I didn’t in this case because I was lucid and knew something very important was behind this unusual in-my-face high drama Dark threat and theatrics. By having these negative beings showing me what they look like, which these types of negative beings do not typically do unless they’re in a corner, they revealed that the power has recently shifted big time. So, I remained and let this giant Dark alien being shake me around, threaten and intimidate me. He was frightening, but I knew more was going on than all his yelling, intimidations and threats. Once he was done trying to paralyze me with fear, I then intentionally exited the dream and woke myself up. I sat there in my dark bedroom thinking about what I’d just experienced and had to smile because all is NOT as it first appears.
I should also mention that for a week prior to this November 6, 2010 dream I’d been having nightly dreams of integrating, connecting with unknown-to-me human males which I also recognized as indicating something else. By night-three of these nightly dreams I realized that another level of my/our Male/Female, Female/Male selves and energies were being energetically reunited in ways that haven’t been possible for a very long time. To me this was simply another level of my own Sacred Marriage with my rewired male/masculine counterparts (brain halves, selves and energies), but also of my being a First Wave Lightworker and energy Lightning Rod for the rest of humanity and the Earth’s NEW higher 5D Grid Systems. We First Wave Lightworkers/Starseeds/Wayshowers still ground, hold, anchor and enable higher energies to manifest into Earth and the new Grid through our own bodies, consciousness, hearts and beings.
On November 8th Mom and I had to do some shopping and both of us were surprised to see so many giant male people in the grocery store. There were human patriarchal males all over the place and terribly obvious in that symbolic and polarized way. This was just one more symbolic clue in a growing list of clues that things are changing and improving in massive ways now, both in us and through us on multiple dimensions and Earth.
There’s more of course but I’ll only cover the main events. I suspect we’ll get into more aspects of this in Comments. Here’s a short recap of symptoms and clues that you—as a Lightworker and/or Starseed—are under psychic attack and intentional interference by Dark non-physical beings:
- You have a dream or dreams of being attacked by Dark negative beings, aliens, creatures etc.
- You can’t mentally/emotionally remain focused on higher level things you want to focus on to Consciously Create
- You slowly become more depressed, unfocused, sad, angry, frustrated, immobilized, sick, depleted, victimized, weak with low vitality
- You want to run away and be alone. You don’t think to call in help of any kind. You just sit, unable to make your mind work like it normally does
- A family member and/or friend and/or pet or other loved one also comes under negative psychic attacks around the same time as you do
My friend who lives up north also came under negative psychic attack a couple of weeks ago while in the “dream” state, but it too was an actual encounter and a direct psychic multidimensional attack upon her and not something from her subconscious.
This morning I discovered Lisa Renee’s November 2010 article “The Restoration” in my email box. I printed it out and read it aloud to my Mom and lifetimes of Lightwork (physical and multidimensional) fell into place for us both. I cannot say how grateful I am to Lisa Renee for this particular article at this time. It’s perfect and a total confirmation for me, my Mom, and no doubt for many of you as well, not to mention how relieved my cat is! Sometimes some of us must tread into the Dark yet again so our Work in and of the Light holds more conscious meaning and empowerment for us. If you too have recently been Battling with the Dark Ones again, this is why. We’re almost done because we’re almost there and the Dark Ones are finally on their way out.
Denise Le Fay
November 9, 2010
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So, an update… I did Lisa Renee’s command several times over the past couple of days. After doing it, I was only able to get into the astral and visit with my main guide (my deceased dog, Bear). For some strange reason that I am not sure I want to contemplate, I am back at the bottom of the ladder. This worries me a bit.
@ Shawn re: anti-depressants
I cannot recommend taking any type of pharmaceutically manufactured antidepressant. I was on Prozac for years and it completely repressed any expansion of my abilities psychically, ascension-wise and any other -wise you can imagine. Prozac in particular is fluorided and will repress and/or damage your DNA in ways that will slow your DNA change. I am absolutely convinced that is why I am age-wise a 1st Wave individual but continue to suffer what I call “rapid ascension” because I have to catch up (about 3 years now). It is at best painful and at worst… well… I and everyone around me thinks I am nuts.
To tie my “update” above and the anti-depressants together, I think that the drugs open you up to the darkness (if Big Pharma isn’t the dark side, I don’t know what is) in ways that is difficult to protect against.
To contemplate the uncontemplatable: What disturbs me the most is that it means that somewhere around 95% of what I thought I was getting via the astral and (what I thought was beyond) was wrong.
Groan — I don’t wanna start over! The “good” news is that the ear-ringing is still there — so I guess I’m still getting the downloads even though I am not getting through to the other dimensions.
Sorry, I didn’t really mean to make this “about me” but there it is.
Great big heart hugs to all —
Jean
LPC,
I lived for many years during the worst of the worst stages of my biological ascension process like I was running very high energies through my body, mind, heart and being constantly…which is exactly what we’re doing. (Back then it felt like being in a car in neutral with the gas pedal pressed all the way down so the motor was racing…but you’re not moving at all!) So yes, this is another weird but normal effect of our transmuting the dense, lower vibrating energies within us and our bodies into vastly higher frequency Light Energies. This will not end, we’ll just adapt to housing/being far more Light Energies within our bodies/selves. 🙂
The more Light we are now, the less sleep we need, at least during these huge transformational periods. For the first eight years I wasn’t able to sleep more than four hours a night and those four hours where never consecutive! I now can sleep for thee hours without waking up which is a joy after so long not being able to sleep without being woke up constantly.
Like everyone else, you’re going to have to make food/drink adjustments now due to these types of energy changes within you and your body.
The shallow breathing will be helped by grounding. Being in Nature is the easiest way to do this. Just walk in Nature, connect with the dirt, with Gaia and ground out through the bottoms of your feet into the Earth. Think circuit connected to Her through your body and being which helps all of the higher faster Light Energies flowing into and through you/your body to also ground out through your feet into Earth.
Also do not fear. I know this is easier said sometimes than done, but fear is a potent lower frequency which causes you/me/us to instantly drop back down vibrationally. We don’t want to do that anymore so pay attention but don’t allow yourself to have a full-out Fear Fest okay? You’re just living through the Alchemical Ascension Process which is beyond wonderful.
Hugs,
Denise
Thanks so much for your reply Denise and everyone else’s comments. Yes lesson definitely learned!
I wondered if anyone else was feeling as spacey and wired as I am.
I hardly slept last night from both small amounts of fear, mixed with courage and huge amounts of energy running through my body.
It has been happening for the past 24 hours and I originally thought it was because of a strong cup of coffee (which I am incredible sensitive to now) but a whole day later and I am still wired and going on only 4 hours sleep. I also feel like I am hyperventilating and can only shallow breath.
Someone else mentioned that while there was darkness and attacking there was also light pouring in. It kind of feels like that…..
Is this your experience?
LPC
Susie,
Hi again and so great to hear from you.
“I have been doing Lisa Renee’s command daily – it definitely stirs things up.” That it does, so much so I’m contemplating writing a little about just this! Since the first time I read Lisa’s “command”, I’ve felt unusual…more so than I normally do which is saying something! 😉 Not bad necessarily, but can feel energies and pressures in my head and Brow chakra expanding. I’ve also been clairvoyantly seeing a couple of etheric energy things which I sense are not pleased with my doing this.
I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself, even if that means cutting out employment for the time being. These are intense times, which we should expect as the whole Mayan calendar – life on Earth since the very beginning – completes and we evolve into a totally new and higher state of being.
Heart Hugs back,
Denise
So many thanks for your post, Denise and everyone’s comments. If it wasn’t for this, I think I would finally be in a mental health ward …
I recently had three sessions with an acupuncturist. He seemed to have really helped a friend of mine so I decided to have some treatment myself. First thing he said to me was ‘you’re really depressed’. I wasn’t especially, no more than anyone coping the enormity of ascension symptoms. But it was very seductive and I went along with it with the result that since the last treatment, I have been ENORMOUSLY depressed. Feels like there’s a war going on inside me and as for the pain in my head, neck and shoulders …
I realised what was going on the day before I read your response to LPC – Lesson Learned Indeed.
Of course there is so much other stuff going on as well and I have been doing Lisa Renee’s command daily – it definitely stirs things up.
I have been signed off from my 3D workplace for two weeks. Just couldn’t bear to be there with the rampant negativity all around me. Spending time regaining my self and my higher frequency by walking and being creative.
Are we really, really nearly there yet?
Huge heart hugs from Scotland
Susie
Hi, all. This is mostly in response to Lou Ann’s question. I’ve come over the years to understand that each of us perceives the world through the filter of our own consciousness. This seems obvious, but what it leads to is that that filter is affected by many things in this life, including our innate selves, our childhood upbringing, and experiences of all sorts that influence us over the years.
It is also just as true that there are forces, ideas and entities “out there” that we don’t understand, but that our brains force us to create labels for. The labels each of us use depend on our own “filters”, so, if we think in terms of angels and demons, we will likely call those entities or phenomena angels and demons. If our vocabulary is one of energies, we will label them energies. If we are trained as doctors or psychologists, we will label them in terms of illnesses or emotional/mental/behavioral disorders.
I was personally raised in a fundamentalist Christian belief system, which I have since rejected. Therefore, words like Christic, angelic, satanic, etc. and ideas like exorcism through calling on Jesus, Mary, et al, tend to raise my hackles. As a pagan and a rationalist (grand trine in air) I use words more in accord with those belief systems.
The main thing, though, is that it is the belief that carries our intentions, not the words we call things or the things we believe IN. If your belief is in Mary or Quan Yin, use those labels to create your result; i.e. banish an ill-intentioned entity. If your belief is in a spell or a certain prayer, an amulet, or a crystal, use those. Just remember they are your tools. The power that creates the intention lies within you. For me, the more simple I can keep the words and belief systems, and the more direct I can keep the experience, the more effective I am.
I hope that’s not too windy, but what it boils down to is this: If you believe that certain things are caused by demons and also that calling on Jesus and Mary can help you cast them out, by all means call on Jesus and Mary. Just get rid of the dratted things!
Barbra,
Like sharks, they are literally waiting for any of us to drop back down vibrationally into fear, worry, doubt, anger, depression, confusion etc. so they can access us again. THIS is what I’ve meant about us learning to master being able to maintain a higher frequency or to be a “Keeper of the Frequency” and NOT drop back down. Think different energetic layers or levels where different beings exist in them but not in others. Some of these old layers we do not want to drop back down into again so the residents have access to us again. We’re learning how to hold the higher no matter what form of Dark scary BS is being thrown at us. 😉
So many of us Lightworkers need to be VERY consciously aware that there are Dark beings who’ve messed with us since before dirt! Here’s a great line from Barbara Hand Clow:
“You will see how knowing darkness is the key to maintaining awareness in the light of the Photon Band.” We’re living this and more right now.
Hang tough, be what you are and hold, hold, hold and soon we won’t have to ever deal with this aspect again.
Hugs,
Denise
Shawn,
Exactly!! That’s what I’ve been feeling – it’s like fluid, dark entities, hanging around like a group of bullies. They seem to be taunting us, and doing their damnedest to provoke us in any way possible. It’s as though, if I have even a *tiny* thought or feeling of fear, anger, self-pity, etc, they pounce on it like a dog, and try to inflate it. I haven’t had any ‘dark side’ trouble at all since 2007, so this was a stunner.
But the remarkable thing is, as you said, more & more light is pouring in at the same time. I suspect that our efforts to rise above the sucking-down astral crap, are the very thing that’s increasing our light-carrying ability. A kind of spiritual weightlifting. 😀
After just a week of this, though, I’m so weary….it’s like being in the bloody trenches in world war one. I genuinely hope this doesn’t go on & on throughout 2011, because this is not fun.
Barbra
Shawn,
All of this business has ramped up recently because of the huge moves forward we went through thanks to the summer of 2010! Read and re-read Lisa’s The Restoration post whenever you need a reminder about why certain of us are currently going through these attacks and holding attempts by The Dark. I will be re-reading it many times to help me through this phase and remind me that this is a side effect of our permanently leaving this ancient and very dark period. It’s not just our physical body and astral or ethereal bodies that these Dark Ones have abused and stolen parts from; it’s all of our bodies (mental and emotional also). Just this process of getting those ancient energetic multiple body bits and pieces of us back now is going to be something! (I’m currently having strange new pains and body sensations since I first read aloud Lisa’s “command”.)
The last time I saw those huge astral or etheric spiders in my house was in 2007. Enough has changed, evolved since then that they can’t access me or my home now thank gawd.
Please do NOT take any anti-depressants Shawn. Meds only open sensitives/ultra sensitives/psychics/clairvoyants etc. up even more enabling lower level astral entities to easily access us. Please don’t take any and you will get through this current phase faster and much easier.
And you most certainly are taking in far more Light than Dark; that’s why the Dark is frantically lashing out at us again right now. They know we’re soon going to be beyond their frequency range altogether and so, this recent big push by them at those of us carrying rewired brains and bodies that can now safely house Unity Consciousness, or as I call it, High Heart Consciousness.
I’ll never give up either because there’s nothing else to do but finish what we’ve started. We’re now inches from the Finish Line and we knew that there would be a few last attempts by the Dark side to stop us or at least slow us down or distract us. Use Lisa’s “command” every day if needed…I read it aloud once a day…with attitude 😉 and will continue to until I sense I don’t need to. I suggest you do the same.
Hugs,
Denise