Transmuting More Layers


It’s always amused me how many people believe they’ve transmuted everything within themselves because they had a rough few days or weeks! It takes a whole lot more than just a few days, weeks or months to peel away the numerous layers of accumulated stuff from having involuted into physicality. Sorry but the evolutionary Ascension Process isn’t something that can be accomplished over a  weekend!


In the mid-1980’s a male friend shared an unusual dream he’d recently had. I thought his dream was very insightful for the mid-1980’s, and was impressed by its clear-cut symbolism. His dream consisted of him struggling to climb up a huge steep mountain while dragging along all of his prized possessions in heavy suitcases. The farther up this mountain he climbed, the heavier his many suitcases became, making it increasingly difficult and dangerous to keep trying to drag them up the steep and rocky terrain.

Once he’d reached the halfway point up this huge mountain, he knew he wouldn’t make it if he did not LET GO OF his many suitcases that contained his hard-earned and much-loved possessions. And so, after tremendous physical struggling and painful emotional deliberation over his precarious situation, he decided it would be worth it to release his many suitcases containing his prized possessions and continue climbing that mountain free of them all. If nothing else, just putting the suitcases down would make the rest of his treacherous journey up the mountain that much easier and safer he decided.

I so loved and respected that man in those short fifteen minutes it took him to relay his spiritual dream message. What a profound truth his dream was and is for so many of us decades later, crawling, exhausted and bloody up that steep mountain, many still clutching one or more of their increasingly heavy suitcases containing precious personal 3D belongings.


Belly Dance with veil

         (Denise Le Fay 1991)

One of my passions in my earlier Denise life—my life prior to the biological start of the Ascension Process—was Belly Dancing. I spent years mastering the dance steps and intricate body isolationss, the wondrous joy of spinning well, the foreign music and rhythms, mastering zill playing (finger cymbals), designing and making my own costumes and lastly, the fine art of performing and eventually performing well. (The photo above is me from a very long time ago. Time has marched on, and on…)

After nearly twenty years of doing this and loving all aspects of it, once I had mastered all the physical, emotional, mental, psychological and energy manipulation aspects of Belly Dance and performing, within a few short months I needed to retire completely at the ripe old age of thirty-nine (the famed Uranus Opposition)! There would be no lengthy phase of basking in the ease and comfort of mastering performing Belly Dance or anything else. I had achieved what I’d set out to do, had learned all I needed to from it on multiple levels and it was simply time for me to set those much-loved suitcases down, full of colorful exotic goodies and continue climbing the Ascension Mountain.


What’s that old  Piscean Age religious line…? “…it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of god…”

In mid-July 2010 I was suddenly lam-blasted by the necessity of releasing another of my “personal suitcases”. This particular suitcase contained my original passion and earlier Lightworker Service work through TRANSITIONS. In much the same way as my Belly Dancing career (and others), I’d reached the point where I had to let go of how I’ve interacted with TRANSITIONS and why. Once again I’d reached another level of Retirement from an old way of being, of Lightworker Serving, and of intense focus and creativity. Literally overnight in mid-July 2010, I went from TRANSITIONS being my primary place of Service, creativity and passion to zero interest and no one was more surprised by this than me.

Because I still had some personal issues, energies, emotions, Phase One and Phase Two habits and past Service Work patterns stuffed inside my ancient First Wave Lightworker Pathpaver suitcase, I’d taken far more care of it than I had of my physical body and that had to end now.

I’ve known since early 2006, that this day was coming for me (what’s happening in summer 2010 to many of us) and that there always comes a point where I (you, each of us) must yet again let go of and release some particular suitcase(s)  to continue climbing up the evolutionary ascension mountain. More accurately at this point, to die some more and pass through that minuscule eye of the needle portal to the Other Side totally 3D baggage-free.

This suitcase contained my scant remaining Phase One and Phase Two ascension survival  items, a couple personal comfort goodies, and a few old habits that at this point I desperately needed to offload. I simply could not do this however until I was triggered to do so, and I was triggered in a sudden and dramatic you’ve-got-no-more-choices-about-this type of Uranian way in mid-July 2010.

Now, midway through August 2010, I’m still adjusting physically to having dropped this particular suitcase like it was toxic, which it had become, and as I said in an earlier post, come fall 2010 I know I (and some of you) will begin the very first stages of re-learning how to be and create consciously as suitcase-less beings.


Obviously, plenty of times which brings us back to the seemingly endless un-layering, transmuting and then offloading stair step (mountain climbing) process that ascension is. I’ve said this before but it took some serious Multi-D doin’ and plannin’ to get our  high frequency Light selves down enough vibrationally to fit in tiny, dense, physical container bodies within a dense, polarized physical 3D world. Once here we immediately began collecting plenty of suitcases and stuffed each of them full of our fabulous and colorful travel souvenirs because that’s what it’s been about in pre-ascension 3D physicality; collecting precious soul souvenirs from all the lives, timelines and countries you’ve lived, created, learned from and died within.

But, as it is now with the ascension/compressed evolutionary/Age change process, we do this process in reverse. We must now be baggage-free and clear enough that nothing gets snagged and caught on us as it flows past or as we flow past it. Wheat from the chaff. We must be suitcase-free on all levels, even the earlier and familiar Phase One and Phase Two Lightworker/Path Paver/Wayshower/Starseed levels. Once we’ve reached this new state (lets call it Phase Three for now), we will finally be ready on all levels to be the 5D conscious creators and Aquarian group co-creators of our ascended new earth world.


Thirty-six years ago I asked my elder esoteric Astrology teacher where the most important point or area was in my astrological birth chart. Without skipping a beat he swiftly pointed his index finger at the very center point of my natal chart—where there was NOTHING—and tapped it in Master Yoda-like fashion. I looked at him and did the typically neophyte reaction and nodded in agreement—because I really did understand—but nonetheless asked him again where the most important point in my natal chart was! He looked me in the eye and gently shook his head and smiled then pointed out one particular planet and house in my natal chart.

Point is and always has been that, in the end, the most important point is in the center where there seems to be NO-THING. No precious travel souvenirs, not even any suitcases, just the reduced, refined, purified, integrated and greatly enhanced YOU. Once we have nothing left in us but calm, honest unattached contentment we’ll have access to it all and most likely won’t give a damn one way or the other! Ha, Mastery and Conscious Creating anew draws near.

Denise Le Fay

August 19, 2010

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20 thoughts on “Transmuting More Layers

  1. Robin,

    I debated over whether or not to include a Belly Dance photo of myself from way back in the day…and I mean waaaay back! Then I decided I would because how I look today is NOTHING like how I did back then, and that too is another aspect of my letting go of. I doubt anyone who knew me back then would recognize me today because I just look like a middle aged, overweight woman whose had a hard couple of decades and is pushin’ 60! 😉

    Before I discovered Belly Dance, my childhood fantasy had been to be a thoroughbred jockey and so, a couple of years after my divorce I got a job at a local thoroughbred horse ranch and began training to ride (those horses that way). I trained so hard to increase my upper body strength just so I could control the horses, that my arms and shoulders were even more muscled and defined…and I still couldn’t control those huge thoroughbred horses! But hot-damn, I had some great arms and shoulders. 😀

    Thanks and I’m glad you enjoyed. I too was impressed with how buff that actress got her skinny little self for that second Terminator movie.


  2. Wow Denise! I haven’t been here much, as I too am experiencing the same types of blah-ness as far as all and anything to do with most computer/email/postings as of late. I jumped on to see if there were any updates added on here, and as I scrolled down the page, I did several double-takes thinking “???!!! Could that possibly, truly be THE Denise LeFay back when she was doing her belly dancing thing!!!???” And by God, it was!! You go girl!

    Even out of all this present whatever it is, I got a big kick, and am glad that you posted a picture of your self! Sarah Connor’s (John’s Mom in TERMINATOR) got nothin’ over you!!!
    🙂 Robin

  3. Hi Denise –

    I’m already on page 462 of your book, “A Lightworker’s Mission – The Journey Through Polarity Resolution”. I can relate to SO much of what you are experiencing in this lifetime. I like your “raw edge” rather than phony “love and light” rhetoric. So much of the raw crap and dark stuff I’ve been going through just doesn’t make it on the pages of many other lightworker forums/groups, etc. I know you came into my life just at the right time when I’ve seeked so many other people for help.

    I am glad you will continue to post here at transitions. I understand what you say in your post here. I keep peeling off my own layers and feel like I’m about to unveil something HUGE/DARK. There is something at the core of my soul so dark my EGO has hid it from me for the past few years. I’ll e-mail you about some other questions I have regarding my astrological chart. Cheers for now –


  4. Natalie,

    Wowza! Your natal Scorpio Sun/Pluto conjunction sounds like your Higher Self made sure you’d have the best tools for full transformation in this life/body/timeline. 🙂


  5. Dear Denise,

    yes, very Plutonian indeed. :-))

    Much Love from a Butterfly Scorpio with Sun/Pluto Conjunct.

  6. Hi Denise and all,

    When you mentioned this type of Letting Go… that got my heart pounding on the low for the first time in months!!! NO I don’t want you to leave! Ever! It’s the reason I’m still connected here. This cyborg place resonate with my “sanity”… or what’s left of it.

    And then it got me thinking of the very thing that has stayed with me in spite of everything shedding off: my creativity. Not the creativity I slavishly shared with my fellow humans to pay bills. It’s the one I hardly ever shared.

    Lauren’s latest post about shedding off Hope… and this blog here… has me nibbling at it on the inside… about shedding THAT off too. Do I have to shed of the non-heartless things… the ones that remind me of the other multiple universes with possible adventures… the one that took me to the moon and mars and where-fore-to? But then again… the Void has me so numb… so displaced that, when I look at them again… I see that I don’t have a care about the outcome nor end result. I don’t want any approvals nor praises. I just want to Be with it.

    I still daydream a whole lot about other folks from other universes. I’ve always done so since I set foot in the 3D land. Do I have to shed everything that I hold dear to my heart in that Light too… or won’t that be allowed in the New Earth?

    Or maybe my relationship to my Inner World is what changes… and I have to let that go too…?

    Hugs and Love to all,
    Lou Ann
    (Still shedding off my sacred space called my home apartment)

  7. lamplighter2,

    Thanks for your kind words about my ancient belly dance photo. It was taken, oh, about 185 years ago it feels 🙄 I’m coming up on 59 and the war-torn wear n’ tear of the past ascension years shows big time. I don’t recognize the face or body in the mirror now, but whatever, I’ve earned my Elder Wild Wise Woman look. 😉

    Yes, once we peel off multiple layers of our old 3D ego selves, it’s impossible to go back and an irritant and near repulsion when around other people who’ve not stepped foot on the higher Path as yet. We are what we are – and are continuing to become – and “FUCKIT” is a good mantra for us within this process.

    Hugs & Gratitude,

  8. “But if I had that dream tonight I would feel nothing but Relief. I’d leave behind all material possessions in a minute. And I wouldn’t need a tsunami as a permission slip to do so. But.. the dream doesn’t happen anymore.


    You don’t have this dream anymore because you’ve Done It. Great job you! 🙂


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